Life encounters
of a Communist spouse
K.A. Subramaniam was a unique
leader of the Sri Lankan Communist Movement.
These are the memoirs of his
Life Partner, Valliammai Subramaniam. She was
active in many critical
turning points in Sri Lanka’s Political life in the last half century.
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Dedicated to my
beloved husband KA Subramaniam
and
countless
comrades
who are trying
to build the common ownership movement
in
Sri Lanka.
I'm Here ....
To give a voice against injustice
Never feared
Poverty has never added
Enough surrounded by disease
Search and solidity did not
diminish Think Fuse
The lifeblood I received
more happy
I found love and kindness
in my husband
I saw humanity and individuality
In your highest image -
honesty is sublime
Your Mankind
does not lie even in death.
You wanted to see
Social change and balance
not far off.
I'm here to remind you....
Glossaries
I, Valliammai Subramaniam, called ‘Mani’ (மணி)
by my parents and my spouse. ‘Sathiamanai’ refers to my family's home or heritage in Chulipuram, Sri
Lanka.
The term
"Sathiamanai" (சத்தியமனை) in Tamil can be broken down into two
parts:
- Sathiya (சத்திய): This means "truth"
or "honesty."
- Manai (மனை): This translates to
"house" or "home."
Therefore, "Sathiamanai" can be interpreted as
"House of Truth" or "Home of Honesty." It often signifies a
place associated with truthfulness or integrity. In the context of names, it
can carry connotations of a family or lineage that values these principles.
The
following refers in the context of Valliammai Subramaniam:
1.
My School - Pannagam
Meyhandan Maha Vidyalayam (PMMV)
2.
My comrade K.A.
Subramaniam alias ‘KAS’
3.
My eldest son Subramaniam
Sathiarajan alas ‘Rasan’ or ‘Meeran
Master’
4.
My daughter Sathiamalar Raveendran alias ‘Buby’
5.
My youngest son Subramaniam
Satheakeerthy alias ‘Keerthy’
6.
My son-in-law Nadesan
Raveendran alias ‘Ravi’
- ‘Aiya’ (ஐயா)
means respectable person.
Publisher’s notes
K.A. Subramaniam, known to
the people as KAS, was one of the unique leaders of the Sri Lankan socialist
movement. These are the memoirs of his wife, Valliammai Subramaniam. He
dedicated his life as a service, sacrificing himself with the authority needed
for all the ethnic groups in Sri Lanka to live in unity. Valliammai Subramaniam
is also the mother who lost her son, Sathiarajan alias Meeran Master, a
liberation fighter who dedicated his youthful spring to the Tamil homeland. She
was active during many critical turning points in Sri Lanka's political life
over the past half-century. These are her memoirs.
The events of their lives
serve as excellent examples of how love and familial relationships develop
among people when they rise up for social liberation movements. Both Comrade
KAS and Valliammai lived as the foundation for one another. Valliammai was an
unwavering support in Comrade KAS's dedicated life, and during their daughter's
marriage, KAS also cared for Valliammai's future well-being, illustrating that
they lived a legendary love life together.
This book explains how the
socialist movement and Comrade K.A. Subramaniam fought for the unified
existence of the ethnic groups in Sri Lanka, sacrificing their lives. It also
touches on how India exploited ethnic conflicts.
The suffering of women-headed
families involved in the activities of these movements has not been
sufficiently discussed. She has expressed the political trends of Sri Lanka
over the past half-century from a mother's perspective. This viewpoint is
unique. The contributions of women in social liberation work have not been
adequately recognized. Researchers will agree that Valliammai's memoirs also
subtly document such contributions. These memoirs will assist the new
generation in learning.
M. Balaji,
Founding Editor
T. Neethirajan,
Chief Editor
Preface
The "KAS Sathiamanai
Library" continues to receive appreciation from many for its contributions
and ongoing various initiatives, with individuals offering their support and
participation as much as possible. This reflects an environment in which the
organization can thrive as a timely institution!
With the necessity of the
times, Comrade K.A. Subramaniam has taken the lead in organizing and directing
the contributions of the people to create historical field activities. The KAS
Sathiamanai Library, which shines with his name as a symbol of that historical
movement, undertakes initiatives to channel the people's power to create
history again.
As one such initiative, this
creation titled "Encounters of Life" is a valuable asset presented by
the wife of Comrade K.A. Subramaniam, marking the launch of a book publishing
project.
One of the significant
turning points in Sri Lankan history was the moment of the "October 21
Uprising in 1966," with the banners reading
"Destroy Caste Structures" and "Let Equality and Justice
Prevail." Many regard the leadership that directed that procession moving
from Chunnakam to
Jaffna as their guiding light.
During the wave of social
awakening, Comrade K.A. Subramaniam led a revolutionary march on May 1, Labor
Day, in 1969, which was a decision by the Ceylon Communist Party (Maoist).
. Once again, he faced police
attacks while leading that revolutionary procession. Such waves of historical
uprising have been created by many!
Questions arise among many
about how the family life of such a historical leader would have been
structured. While achievers shine brightly in the social sphere, there are
unfortunate instances where families that thrived with strength and resilience
remain undocumented.
Valliammai Subramaniam, who
progressed in education with a scholarly background and confidently took on
with a partner who was on a full-time party role, lived alongside Comrade K.A. Subramaniam,
contributing greatly to their lives. She has given us a book that breathes life
into a revolutionary people's leader.
With the clarity of the
principle that "the people are the creators of history," she has
shaped the arena for this and guided it—organizing those who will grow into
people's leaders through it—while developing the processes of "from the people
to the people."
Comrade K.A. Subramaniam was
not a usurper who claimed all achievements as his own; instead, he was a guide
who appreciated the people's power as a whole, engaging with fellow comrades
and leaders.
The October 21
Uprising (1966-1974) against caste oppression
achieved many accomplishments through the participation of many; it is a truth
that must be emphasized that Comrade K.A. Subramaniam stood as a determined and
inspiring leadership force, guiding and leading.
While he received historical
recognition for his contributions, he intended to write about his life
experiences under the title "A Communist's Self-Critique." He wanted
to reveal his role in the errors that occurred during that great era rather
than merely documenting his achievements.
Through the writings of Valliammai Subramaniam, the
founder of the KAS Sathiamanai Library, we will witness how the pages of life
imbued with strong human determination have endured various pains and
advancements!
Nadesan
Raveendran
Administrator, KAS Sathiamanai Library
Chulipuram, Sri Lanka.
Foreword
I, Valliammai Subramaniam,
have written a series titled "Encounters of Life" on my Facebook. As
it is set to be published as a book, I present this foreword to you, the
readers, as an introduction.
I have written all the events
that have occurred in my life just as they are. Many dear ones, who shed tears
upon reading it, have contacted me via telephone expressing their thoughts,
saying, "Mother... if this comes out as a book... wouldn’t it create a way
for the new generation to read and benefit from it?" It is that
encouragement that has propelled this book into your hands.
Within it lies poverty. There
is depth of love even in poverty. A voice has been raised against the
oppression bondage of servitude. In it, there is neither subjugation nor
domination. Because a voice has been raised against oppression, you will see
the shackles, the remnants of bones, and the dried blood stains. You can also
read the stories of sorrow told by the blood-stained clothes. You can witness
the severity of hunger and deprivation. At the same time, having seen the
hungry faces, we never turned away those who came seeking shelter with empty
stomachs. There is also a narrative of facing the retorts of landlords, who,
having no homes to live in, have had to reside in rented houses: “We won’t
allow anyone else to enter, only you.” We have been subjected to the landlord’s
scornful comments: “We only rented it to you. We won’t provide space for others
to draw water from our well.”
Despite all these
oppositions, with the support and cooperation of comrades, we overcame all
obstacles, transforming barriers into steppingstones to rise above and reach
our lofty goals.
To anyone pursuing a
goal-filled life, numerous interruptions, homelessness, relationships that
cannot lend a hand, financial constraints, and the camaraderie extended during
times of illness bring forth tears of remembrance. I present these reflections to
you and seek your valuable blessings.
Valliammai Subramaniam
Founder, KAS. Sathiamanai Library
Chulipuram, Sri Lanka
1.
Memorable Relationships -Written
on 22 July, 2019
The friends, companions,
esteemed teachers, elderly people with life experiences, loving families living
abroad, and student gems who rushed to help me out of love when I was
struggling are numerous. Even if I write them down annually, their number cannot
be contained.
I have no personal politics.
I do not have the depth of research or the ability to make decisions; I do not
have the time for that either. Only women in such situations understand how
many responsibilities, duties and workloads a wife of a full-time worker of the
Socialist Party, a mother of three children, and a woman working in the
government has.
Today, I am unable to live
independently and have a disease called ‘Alcer,’ which prevents me from eating
all kinds of food, as well as having osteoporosis, and I can only survive
through English medicines. At the age of 80, I owe my gratitude to poet Azha.
Pakeerathan, who established himself as a service-oriented person. He and my
daughter Buby, have encouraged me to write in this form under this title.
My heart is filled with
gratitude towards those who have recommended me and shown human dignity, both
before and after my marriage, and even to this day. I have followed and needed
to adhere to the advice and suggestions of some people to the extent that I
took it as a necessity. The decisive words of some have found their way into my
ears, thanks to the nurturing and upbringing of my mother in the household
where she lived.
In 1925 my father went to
Singapore for work by ship and my mother left with her eldest daughter to live
in Sri Lanka. I used to call my father ‘Aiya’ in Tamil to give him respect. At
that time, sea voyages took about two weeks. If one sent a letter, it would
take a minimum of three weeks to arrive. This time has changed now due to
scientific advancements, allowing us to see, talk, and exchange face to face
messages instantly.
The inventors who provided
these conveniences to the world are very capable geniuses! That time my young
mother traveled alone by bus, mentioning the struggles she faced while
traveling from Chulipuram to
Jaffna and then to Ariyalai,
helped by a woman named Neervely
Somu. Those historical events are significant for me as well, especially during
the times when my husband was not around, ensuring the safety of my children.
Karainagar
(1962-1966), Kalaiyadi Pandatharippu
(1967-1971), Tholpuram (1972-1976), Sathiamanai (1977-1991), Kandy (1992-1997),
Singapore (1998-2011), Colombo (2012-2018), Sathiamanai (again from 2019) these are unforgettable homes surrounded by
kind mothers! The motherlands that we lived in were surrounded by unforgettable
mothers!
We have visited the homes of
some members of the socialist party in search of them. In those houses, there
are children and elderly parents. There are those who are sick and require
wheelchairs, as well as households dealing with death, and situations where
children have gone missing. The sharing of someone’s sorrow by another is
expressed in the ‘Thirukkural’ 788, “As the hand of
someone whose vesture slips away, Friendship at once the coming grief will
stay.”
The years are not arranged in
order. The events and names are real. Dr.S.V.
Seenivasagam, Maan Muthaiya, Dr. Nandi
Sivanaganasundaram, Mathagal V.
Kanthasamy, S. Yogananthan,
Petroliam S. Kathiravelu
(father of Minister Douglas Devananda),
Professor S. Maunaguru, Professor K.
Kailasapathy, progressive writer K. Daniel,
Karthikeshan Master on Nallur Street, comrades N.
Shanmugathasan, R.K. Soodamani, E.
Thirunyanamoorthy (E. T. Moorthy), S. K. Senthivel, T. Tharmalingam
(Nitchamam), K. Suppiah
(Madduvil), R. Selvanayagam, E. Thambaiya (Talawakelle), S. Navaratnam, and
many others, along with my teachers in the town, Pandit A. Arumugam ‘Aiya’, Dr.
Thambaiya, friends Sundaram, and
Chandathiyar...
The words get tangled as I
try to type. I will pause and continue later...
2.
My Teachers-Written on 24 July,
2019
We have many wise individuals
with life experiences who have guided us with encouragement and advised us on
how to navigate life while also balancing household responsibilities. I
apologize if I go back in time in this narrative. These experiences date back
almost 58 years. They come from families raised in traditional households where
a male and a female, having determined to support each other's lives, married.
They provided strength and encouragement during difficult times, and even
though many have passed away, their memories remain with me, and I want to
mention both the living and the departed.
As Bharathiyar
beautifully said in his poem, "The merit of teaching all children to read
is greater than any other," I too started my school journey at the age of
5, attending the School called Pannagam Meyhandan Maha Vidyalayam (PMMV) from
the day Navaratri
commenced. For all my initial education and the training that guided me into my
profession, I owe a great deal to PMMV and my mother. From 1943, starting with
the kindergarten level, I had the opportunity to study in a single PMMV school
until the final Senior School
Certificate (SSC) examination in 1953, when I turned
15. During that time, the number of teachers who served us was well over
fifteen, but none of them are alive today. Yet, their service has endured,
becoming a living legacy beyond two generations.
The first lesson was in ethics Saivism,
taught by Pandit A. Arumugam ‘Aiya’, Mr. Ilakupillai Arumugam, and Mr. Appathurai. The second subject, Mathematics,
was taught by Principal Mr. C. Srinivasan and Assistant Principal Mr.
Appathurai. History was covered by the respective class teachers, while English
was taught by Mr. Jameson Kumaravel,
Mr. Rajaiya Thampirasa, Vadaliyadaippu
Ms. Muthukumaru Manonmani, and others. Tamil grammar and literature were
handled by Pandit A. Arumugam ‘Aiya’.
Mr. Kalyanasundaram, a
renowned musician from India, would also conduct classes in the afternoons.
After our country gained independence, vocational education was emphasized in
schools, with various craft classes. The sewing craft was taught by Mrs. Sivapakkium
Nagalingam and Mrs. Nallamma Thangarasa from Mullaitivu, and other subjects
were handled by Miss. Thambaiya, Mrs. Ponnamma Selvanayagam, Mrs. Vayithilingam
Gnaneswari, and Miss. Manonmani from Achuveli handled weaving. Miss.
Annalakshmi from Kopay was in charge of mat-making.
Moreover, as time went on,
the subjects of biology and zoology were combined under the name "Country
Life Science," taught by Thiru Ethir Mannasingham. He drew pictures of
living organisms on the blackboard and illustrated their features from head to
tail, making the lessons vivid. Even now, it brings back fond memories.
Particularly, the sewing
subject was continuously conducted by Teacher Ms. Ponnamma, while the other two
teachers were reassigned elsewhere. The Government Weaving Training College
(GWTC) in Nallur operated for a long time, producing numerous guiding teachers
over the years. Changes in leadership brought in new officials who took on
responsibilities.
In 1954, along with three
others from PMMV, I was enrolled with 25 students in that GWTC. At that time,
Mrs. Gunawardhana, a
Sinhalese teacher from Southern Sri Lanka (Horana), was in charge. She was well
acquainted with Tamil and English, having taught Tamil students in Jaffna and
having passed examinations at the 'Tutoring Center' operating in Anaiypanthy
Junction. She had a daughter named "Kanchanamala." After serving for
a long time and receiving a promotion, she moved, and Mr. Kugadasan took over
the responsibility...
3.
The Family I Was Born Into-Written
on 30 July, 2019
I haven't been able to write for the past 3-4 days.
Writing only about myself is selfish. I should also write about my parents,
siblings, and their education. From the day I became aware, our parents would
stay at the Paralai Murugan temple during the Kanda Sashti festival, spending a week in the
temple during the month of October to observe the festival, listening to the
teachings of the guru, who would tell us stories from the scriptures. Kanda
Sashti holds immense significance for devotees of Lord Murugan. It commemorates
the day when Lord Murugan defeated the demon, symbolizing the triumph of good
over evil. Devotees usually narrate the Kanda Sashti Kavacham during this period. Whoever
fasts and prays to Murugan for the six days of Kanda Sashti is believed to
receive Lord Murugan's blessings.
They would narrate the tales of gods who refused to
carry fish, and the demon siblings Suran, Singan, and Tharakan who imprisoned
the gods. They would tell us how God Murugan appeared and fought to free the
gods, all in a storytelling manner. “Veera Vel, Thara Vel, the one who rescued
the celestial beings from captivity, the one who bathes in the river, the one
with the striking spear, who takes down the mighty demon,” and many such songs
would echo in our ears, including those about the Vel, the Thirukai Vel, from
the Kandha Purana, attributed to Kachiyappa Sivachariyar!
In this way, worship at the temple, observing fasting,
staying awake, and offering food to the deity on the last day, as well as
observing rituals for our family deity during Navaratri, Thiru Vembavai, Pongal,
Padayal, Yajna, Abishekam, Kudiruththi, and Annadhanam were all performed by them.
Annadhanam refers to the practice of donating food to those in need. In the
end, they raised their three children with these practices. The new generation
is unaware of this history. They lack even an inkling of what spirituality
means, having studied in schools that did not teach about religious values.
My sister Lakshmipillai studied at PMMV School and
qualified for the 5th-grade scholarship for further studies at the Velalai Central College, staying in the hostel. My
brother Ponnaiya studied at PMMV School and paved his way for higher education
at the Skandaravodhaya College in Kandarodai, later getting selected for the Peradeniya University.
My sister also joined the Kandy Vellankalandi School
as a mathematics teacher after passing her A/L exams. Mr. Suriyar and Ms.
Lakshmi, from the Kampanai Amman Temple in Chulipuram, had four children: Ms.
Gnanakka, Ms. Deviakka, Ms. Thilagamakka, and Mr. Suriyar, who also observe the
Kanda Shasti festival. They were our guiding mentors, providing us with books
and encouragement.
Ms. Deviakka, while serving as a teacher at the
Chulipuram United Sangam School, would tell us stories about the kinship of the
well-known Arumuka Navalar, the relative Subramaniam
Chettiyar, who came as a son-in-law without demanding any dowry. This family
and their siblings’ children, Ms. Kamala, Ms. Maragadavalli, Mr. Mahendran, Mr.
Sethukavalar, Dr. Mani, Ms. Renuka, Mr. Murali, Ms. Seematti, Mr. Rasu (some
names are not remembered… Ponnar, Manju, and numerous other members), were
supported by our school examiners Mr. M. Nagalingam and Ms. Manonmani, who
encouraged us to excel in our studies.
Scholars who have brought pride to the land, like
Pandit A. Arumugam ‘Aiya’, along with the scholar Vidwan N. Sivapatha
Sundaranar, also hold a place as guides. Likewise, for my sister, Miss
Marudhayinar, Mr. Thambu, Mr. Arichandran, Mr. V. Rajasundaram, and Mrs. Devaki Sabaratnam,
among many other teachers, along with relatives Ms. Varadha, Ms. Rajalakshmi,
Ms. Nesamma, Ms. Bhavani, Ms. Thiyagaswary, Ms. Lokeshwari, Ms. Ratheeswary,
Mr. Krishnan, Mr. Kanthan, Ms. Roopa, and many others.
In the same way, Vidwan Velan , Vidwan Vendan, Mr. V. Ponnambalam and Mathakal V. Kanthasamy were the seeds for my
brother at the Skandaravodhaya College in Kandarodai. In Kandy Peradeniya University, Professor K. Kailasapathy and Professor S. Thillainathan are gratefully remembered
for being teachers for him....!
In this way, I will continue in my next writing about
meeting my dear husband Mr. K. A. Subramaniam who later became my comrade.
4.
My first meeting with friend KAS.
-Written on 7 August, 2019
There was a woman named Ms. Ambalappillai Sivanesam, whom everyone called
Sellakka, in the GWTC hostel where I was staying. She liked me. She would share
her admiration for me with friends regarding my calmness, handwriting, and
songwriting. In the month of March 1955, on a Sunday (with prior permission from
the principal), Sellakka (Sivanesham) wanted to take five of us to see the Keerimalai Springs. Accordingly, we all
set out, changed buses twice, and reached Mahajana College Junction, but by the
time we got to Sellakka's house near the Kilanai Vairavar Temple, it was
already past 11:00 AM. The plan to see the Keerimalai Springs was lost.
After a while her ‘Chinnannai’ (Little brother KAS)
arrived shortly. He asked the visitors who had come to their house about their
hometown according to Jaffna's cultural practices and discussed various
inquiries regarding the family relationships, mentioning the names of friends
working with him at the K.K.S cement factory. Since none of my siblings
worked there, I kept my mouth shut. After that, lunch was finished by 2:00 PM,
and we caught buses to come back to GWTC at Nallur, reaching there past 5:30
PM. "Everyone was vocal except for one child who was not talking. I need
to ask why the next time we meet," KAS thought in his mind it seems.
After that, in August 1956, my studies ended. They all
left for their homes. However, a monthly
magazine named "Deshabhimani" arrived at everyone's address. I
couldn’t understand the phrases in it. For example: "Sovereignty,"
"Dictatorship,"
"Superpower," "Dominance," and more than a thousand such
words… words I had not read or encountered in school or college, words whose
meanings I did not understand… phrases I had never read before… Who could I ask
about the meanings? I would only know if I asked the person who sent that
paper. His actions were based on the thought of making people politically
aware. I understood that later.
However, beyond all this... I needed to find a job...
through which I could pay off my father's debts... that concern was always
hidden within me. Sellakka had written a letter through her brother KAS, saying
she had sent clothes for two pillowcases which she wanted me to sew and send
back to her with flower embroidery and that she was staying at the Trincomalee
Police Quarters since her marriage had been arranged.
Comrade KAS also came home with the help of Akambi (My
elder sister's son Mr. Sinniah Apputhurai) guidance. (When he came to the
house, later friends and children would laugh and say I was hiding inside the
'Setthai’ means fence made of dead leaves'). Comrade KAS ate the food given by
my mother with both hands, as if he had known her for a long time. He stood up
and allowed the sacred ash Vibhuti she brought from the temple to be placed on his forehead.
Being a respectful elder, he had a great affection for those parents who had
given away their children at a young age. Therefore, my father later bought the
land where ‘Sathiamanai’ was built through my younger brother Mr.A. Ponniah and
gave it to his daughter (For me to live).
After that, I studied to become an Entrance Pandit and
succeeded. During this time, I received many books in the mail for the offense
of asking for explanations. These were translations from Bengali to Tamil.
Since he was born and raised in a comfortable family, he did not know poverty
or lack of commodities. Whenever he was reading, his mother or elder sisters
would provide food at the desk. As a result of assisting in their own betel
garden, father, elder brother Mr. A. Thangarajah, relatives, and friends helped
comrade KAS to establish a community reading center in Kilanai, inviting
progressive thinkers like Uduvil M.P. V. Dharmalingam, Skandavarodhaya Teacher V. Ponnambalam, and Dr. S.V. Seenivasagam
from Kankesanthurai (KKS), providing them with leadership positions and honoring
them, as the books they provided would say, "I also want to read."
Thus, in his thoughts, I seemed to be a great intellectual being. However, that
was not me; all I had was an S.S.C and a Government Weaving
Training Center (GWTC) Final Certificate (1st Class). At this point, a Tamil
song lyric comes to mind...
“I couldn't
sing... I couldn't read... I didn't know about school... I couldn't write... I
didn't know the types of writing... I never wrote on paper. Even if I wrote, I
had no habit…”
I thought of myself as a woman who just sat at home,
not doing anything... and the books filled with public principles came in the
mail. In the meantime, I began to study ‘Pandit’ by taking a bus with Ms.
Maheshwari Kanagasabai and Mr. Sivasanmukamurthi from our village at the Jaffna
Bharathi Language School.
Later, I transferred to Vaitheeswarara Vidyalaya.
There, I completed my Pandit entrance exam with Mr. Rajaguru and Ms. Pandithai
Pakkiyam. For this class, my teacher friends, Kantharodai Vidhuvan Venthanar
and Vidhuvan Velan, provided the books they had with them over time. My
"Guru," Pandit A. Arumugam ‘Aiya’ who taught me, also held positions
in the school. This course continued for more than two years... Our love grew
through the postal mail. The debate was whether to become a school teacher or
work in the trade sector. My comrade KAS had suggested that the trade sector
was better for living alongside the people and creating new ideas. In order to
become a school teacher, besides adding 25 students to the school, money should
also be paid to the Hindu Board. With this thought, by the end of 1959, I
joined the trade sector. One month of school leave for every 3 months in the
education portfolio. But in the trade sector, if I also need leave for my Sanskrit studies, I have to show the
reason and apply for leave from the trade sector department head office and get
it. However, if I needed leave, I had to apply to the office with a reason.
Nevertheless, even after performing well in classes, I could not achieve
success in Sanskrit studies. That shortcoming still exists today.
Comrade KAS had his policies, practices, and as a
full-time Party worker busy with his daily duties. Since I took the trade
sector government job, I used to take the bus at the required time and
maintained the leadership of 30 to 40 female students, with the title
“Responsible Officer In Charge”. When
others saw that, many of them, who were older than me, came as students from
several villages, and I felt troubled. While filling out the documents, I paid
them the respect their age deserved.
This is the genuine guidance provided by my teacher,
which has nurtured me in school. Meanwhile, I was encouraged to join the Sri
Lankan Progressive Writers' Association. My vision and search began to expand
little by little. Since I was also in the Progressive Writers' Association, I
began to write. There, writers like Mr. K. Daniel, “Mallikai” editor Dominic Jeeva, Padma Somakanthan, Eelam
Somu, the Jaffna Poet, Agasthiyar, Hindumathi Markandhu, and poet Sillaiyoor Selvarajan were among those who
inspired me.
Ms. Usha Panchanadeswaran, Ms. Maheshwari Ramanathan,
Ms. Bhumadevi Chinnathurai and Ms. Maheshwari Kanakasabai, who were fellow
students who studied with me in Bala Pandit class.
Among the many who came through my husband were Dr. S.V. Seenivasagam, H.M.B Mohaideen, writer
S.Yoganathan, Premji - Dr. Nandi Gnanesundaram, Vidhuvan Venthan, Vidhuvan
Velan, Pandit Rajaya, Pandit Duraisingam, Pandit Sathiyadevi Duraisingam,
Pandit Ilamurugan, and Sanskrit teacher Subramaniya Deshikar… Karainagar Saraswathi,
Gnanambikai Chittrambalam, many such people…
Unlike other lovers, I would ask questions about the
meanings of the phrases in the books I read, during our meetings... Time would
slip away... The virtuous soul who serves among the people would protect the
moral compass... Time or space... to protect the moral reins of a public
servant among the people.... without touching the fingers. If we say that we
are the ones who drove the days without time or time to touch.... will today's
'mobile phone' world believe it?
To be continued...
5.
Studies and Work -Written on 13
August, 2019
On Sundays Pandit Scholar Classes.... I need to go for
studies.... the other six days are for work..... As my days pass like this.....
he also got fully engaged in politics by becoming a full-time employee at the Chunnakam party office, continuing not
only his political work but also his literary endeavors. With the flow of
letters, meetings occurred like flowers blooming. Some of my friends said he
resembled Aravindan from the old Tamil movie 'Kurunji Malar'. His tall stature, clean attire, composed calm
speech, profound knowledge, and the affection he showed nurtured love and trust
towards him.... Years 1960 and 1961 passed.
I couldn’t manage to study with only one day on
Sunday. This is because, unlike school teachers who have a one-month leave
every three months, there is no such leave in the trade sector handicraft
department. However, due to my eagerness to study... I made an effort with my
mother tongue books as examples...... In the entrance Pandit scholar class,
when the 'Nanool Kandik' lesson was there.... in the next class, it was 'Nanool Viruthiyurai'.... likewise..... I studied
even if I had to struggle through texts like Thandiyalankaram, Nambiyakaporum, Akananooru, and Purananuru. The penetration of auditory
education was only minimal. Sanskrit lessons, brother Sivasanmuga Murthy helped
me as a guru. In 1960, I joined the second-level examination at the Jaffna Sinhala Maha
Vidyalayam.
After three months, in the resulting examination, I
didn’t pass the Sanskrit lesson. Other grammar and literary
compositions were only simple achievements. For me, without taking a break....
for women.... those three period days too were spent running.... running... to
the point of tears. When I thought of trying again the following year, I had
already got a transfer from Vaddukoddai, Iraththaladi to Karainagar, Neelippanthanai. In this
situation, at home, I was blamed for not passing the examination because of my
comrade. Due to his dignified demeanor, knowledge, good conduct, and family
background, at first, my parents liked my comrade very much, but later, they
couldn’t accept losing me to a full-time Party worker. Comrade KAS firmly
believed that one could move life forward by renouncing everything against
caste and social disparities. However, he insisted that one should focus
completely on education. He said that through knowledge, many things could be
done for society. In his letter, he wrote regretfully, “When I think of you,
you appear to be a woman who takes care and says ‘study, study.’ Ultimately, if
you don’t succeed, please try again.”
Regarding my natal birth home, will I finish
constructing this house which is only at the door frame stage level? Or will I
continue with the Pandit scholar class further....? Or will I fulfill the
responsibility of my work which provides the monthly salary? In this state of
confusion like a 'Tirichangu' (trident),
I decided to only do my work.
Initially, my parents and I thought of entering the
teaching profession. In between came my comrade community, people's
involvement, entrolling 25 students for the Hindu board, and donating money
which confused me. However, my parents thought he would help us. The reason he
didn’t act that way became clear a few months later. He intended to join our
family as a member, and due to his resolution, he couldn’t use the influence of
his party for his family. Moreover, he said, “Recommendation falls under the
principle of giving priority to those born in oppressed or depressed
communities.”
The following year, when my sister was selected for
the Science Advanced Level (A/L) class, she received a qualification from the Velanai Central College. At the time she encountered the opportunity,
and based on her intelligence, intended to study in the Soviet Union for medical or engineering degrees.
She applied for the medical education field and submitted a copy to the Party.
In this, the main determinant for intake is 75% by the Government and 25% by
the Party. Therefore, due to the priority given to families with a strong
ideological basis and those who consistently contributed to meetings, the
brother of Chunnakam, S.T.N. Nagaratnam, got an opportunity to study
engineering, and another woman got the opportunity to study medicine.
Our parents lived and passed away as loyal followers
of Mr. A. Amirthalingam, who acted as our village
leader in the Tamil federal party
(ITAK).
These details were not conveyed to my elderly parents. Even if conveyed, they
were not in a mental state to understand. A remark without explanation that
“Comrade did not consider the application requests of our two daughters” left
an ingrained resentment in their minds. I, along with two loving ones from our
village, joined the Entrance Pandit class held at Bharathi Pasha Vidyalayam on
K.K.S Road in Jaffna. Money is needed to attend that class..... Among the
teachers who came to perform duties there, Vidhwan Vendan was already known to
my comrade through Mr. V. Ponnampalam and was one of the learned
individuals.
Apart from them, Navali Pandit Ilamurugan, (he is the
elder son of Navali, Somesundaram
Pulavar) Neerveli Pandit Duraisingam, Mrs. Sathiyadevi Duraisingam, and
Ariviyalai Pandit Rajaiya were especially notable for our Sanskrit class. Brahmasri. Subramania Sharma
was among the prominent multilingual experts. One of his golden sayings still
lingers in my memory: “Mounam, Kalaga
Nasthi,” meaning ‘if one is silent, turmoil will not arise’; this is the
philosophy of that life. Due to the large number of students in the above
class, it was shifted to Vannarpannai Vaidheeswarar Vidyalayam.
During that time, Ms. Usha Panchanadeeswaran,
Aanaikottai Markandhu Hindumathi, along with our former Tamil Sangam Pandit
class teacher N. Pakkiyam and Pannakam P. Rajaguru continued their education
without giving up. In 1959, based on a Government circular, teacher
appointments were provided for everyone who reached the age of 21 trained in
the following years.
The oral examination took place at the headquarters
office in Colombo, and I got the opportunity to train under Miss Nadarasa
Puranam (Chinna Mahes Akka), who was serving as the officer in charge at a
station in Ilavalai village in the six-month
training program. This sister served as an excellent guide, possessing great
patience and competence.
Since I went to college along with school studies, the
practical techniques were not clear to me. Chinna Mahes Akka was one among
three who had been training at the Maruthanarmadam Women’s Station while
residing in the hostel. During those six months, it took a lot of time waiting
and traveling through four bus stations: Chulipuram, Sithankeni, Pandatharuppu, and Ilavalai. Some had the skill to choose
stations where only one bus would connect. When I was selected, I didn’t know
how many buses had to change to reach a village called Ilavalai. Only one thing was in my mind: that
was to get trained by Chinna Mahes Akka.
After a few days, I went to Pandatharuppu Ladies College junction in the
vehicle of Mr. Seenivasagam ( We used to call him China Uncle and many years
later my daughter Buby also took his Van) and caught the Keerimalai bus coming from Mathagal. During
those six months, only the ‘medical’ leave was accepted by the office
administration. Even now, remembering those events brings back memories....
This age-old vagabond, even during the rainy season, have I climbed up and down
while soaked in rain... ? I am thanking my feet that refuse to move now.
As I write this history, while typing out the memories
that come to mind, I seem to have written down the first remembered events,
resulting in occurrences that cannot be avoided, resulting in an unmanageable
mess in the record...! Forgive me, isn’t age creeping up on me?
6.
A New Home and Sibling
Love-Written on 20 August, 2019
My father returned from Singapore suffering from
illness, and my mother says that she sold her jewelry to save him. In the early
1920s, my father married my mother, who was a young, beautiful girl living in a
comfortable family from Ariyalai near Jaffna town. Afterward, as
children died one after another, his illness and financial struggles led her to
seek help at temples and ponds. This made me grow up quickly, looking after my
younger sister and younger brother and managing household chores. In our
village, there was no one to show love, offer advice, or serve as a role model
outside the home. I found this situation challenging.
To continue building the house that had become
stagnant, I decided that I had to work hard and sacrifice my studies. With the
physical and financial support of my father, our house was constructed. With
the help of Mr. Murugesu, we used 50 bags of cement and eight-inch stones to
build it, stacking them near the well of my elder sister’s courtyard. My
younger brother (12-16 years old) assisted us with various tasks, and we
arranged the stones step by step. My mother initiated the rural fund
collections from my salary of 272 rupees, contributing 100 rupees each month
for two funds, balance 72 rupees which covered my bus fare, cooking, and other
household expenses. We also had expenses for the family deity’s worship and
annual festivals. I fulfilled my mother's requests, such as “with my salary…
temple expenses, rituals, and family debts,” by giving her my entire earnings.
Similarly for 27 years after my marriage (1962-1989), I did not keep my salary
in my hands. I never let him feel that, “He does not earn money,” as I knew
that he is a Party full time worker and I dedicated myself to the household
duties.
I tried to fulfill my responsibilities regarding the
unfinished house, and my younger brother also contributed his physical efforts,
never neglecting his studies. We had already bought Palmerah trees and were preparing to split
them for different uses for the house roof structure. My father said that “the
son who gave support to the house,” and my younger brother received half of the
house share, giving my younger sister half as well. My younger sister took out
a bank loan to complete the house construction after my marriage, ensuring
fairness. I did not take anything from the house that my mother kept for me.
According to my father’s loving request to my brother, “Buy a plot of land for
‘Mani’(They and my comrade call me 'Mani' at home),” since they both acquired
half of the house each.
With respect to the father who had recollected the
gratitude of returning the land mortgaged to the temple owner, I was praised as
“the child who supported the foundation… and built the part of the house.” Over
time, I learned that my brother donated his
half of the house to provide electricity to his sister’s house. Such is
sibling love.
Now, that house stands empty, weathered by strong
winds from the North, with the columns falling apart. ‘Aiya’ my father would
say that according to the tradition of putting 5 metals such as gold,
silver....etc should be put, my earlobe was put in the foundation cavity. But
the home, where many children crawled, lies in disrepair. Who is to blame for
this neglect? While some suffer without homes, this large house remains vacant!
The grandchildren who once crawled around, including Rasan, Buby, Keerthy, my elder
sister’s children Apputhurai and Kanahambihai, my younger sister’s children
Visaharan, Kirupaharan and Suthaharan, my brother's children Lambotharan,
Somaskanthan, and Kiritharan are from which generation that will restore it to
a usable condition? Will I ever see it again with my own eyes?
I will write next about the rushed marriage that
compelled me…
Postscript:
That house is now being renovated by my sister’s son Dr. S. Visaharan.
7.
Communist Connections-Written on
30 August, 2019
The short story I sent at the end of 1961 was
published in Veerakesari at the beginning of 1962. Under the title “Annadhanam,” it
was published in the name of “Valli Subramanian,” along with two short poems
titled “Who is the Martyr?” The monthly magazine ‘Kalaimathi’ was published from Alaveddy. During that time, a monthly
magazine called Kalaichelvi was also
being published from Nallur.
At that time, even before the era of computer records,
the Veerakesari newspaper dated
21-01-1962 could still be obtained by Mr. Velautham Nallanathar alias Raghavan (RR), a close friend of my son
Rasan, after crossing 50 years. During that period, school teachers like Ms.
Padma Somakanthan, Ms. Kuramagal Vallinayagi, and others... Jaffna’s Yarl
Nangai wrote a long serial story in Veerakesari.
(The late Ms. Lakshmi Rajadurai was among those who published books...) Among
the publishers were Ms. Hindumathi Markandu, Anaikottai (Studied with me in the
Pandit class), Dr. Sivagnanasundaram Nallur’s “Nandi,” who wrote the novel ‘Malai Kozhunthu’. Hindumathi’s “Thangath
Thamarai,” children’s stories, and the poetry collection of Jaffna Kavi Rajar
gained fame along with the works of progressive writers like comrade K. Daniel
and Mallikai Dominic Jeeva. Various stories, novels, and poetry
collections were published in Jaffna, Colombo, and the Eastern Province. News
could be read and learned through the newspapers Veerakesari, Dhinakaran,
and Eela Nadu. The newspaper ‘Suthathiran’, which promoted Tamil
culture and traditions, gained significant influence among Tamils. The
progressive ‘Desabimani’ was
published monthly under the guidance of comrades H.M.B. Mohaideen and Premji
Gnanam. Similarly, separate newspapers were being published for Hinduism,
Christianity, and Islam. Locations like Jaffna Central College Hall, Jaffna
Sinhala Maha Vidyalayam, Clock Tower
Street’s ‘Rimmar’ Hall, and Sonaka Street’s primary school were active in
publishing many books.
In 1962, Thai Pongal fell on a Sunday. A full pot
placed in a square with Kolam decorated for the Sun God, some took
the pot with the Pongal pan into the Swami room. By noon, they would remove the
coconut, rice flour, and flowers from the pot and pour water into the well.
Since that Sunday was the day of the Sun, it was in the Swami room as a full
pot. On the morning of the third day, from Chulipuram I went to Karainagar for work and took a bus from there
to finish my work at Jaffna Union, and by 3:30 PM, I returned to Karainagar
(Neelippanthanai).
Indeed, I was late, and all my children said in
unison, “Teacher, your uncle came. He had a bow knife in his hand.” They added
that “he came to kill you” and that “you’re going to marry an idle young man
who mingles with all castes without a job” and that “he knows everything about
your fiance since he worked at the K.K.S Cement Factory in 1949,” and that “he
thinks killing you would earn him respect,” and “he claimed to be your elder
sister’s husband.” After having drunk heavily, he had many bad stories to
share. So, they insisted that I must leave immediately as he had said he would
return here. In fact my elder sister Ms. Rasamma married to Mr. Sinniah with 2
children Mr. Apputhurai and Ms.Kanahambihai. They lived adjacent to our home.
However my elder sister passed away suddenly after giving birth to
Ms.Kanahambihai. Later Mr. Sinniah married the Temple owner’s daughter Ms.
Alahamma and had 2 children Ms. Gnambihai and Mr. Balachandran.
I thought, “Whatever happens, it doesn’t matter,” as
it was also the third day, and I needed to carry out the good deed of breaking
the pot, so I bought a ticket to Chulipuram. The bus I boarded was a postal
collection bus, which stopped at every post office to collect mail and reached
Chulipuram by 4:50 PM. There was a kind of fear and panic. I thought problems
might arise at home since there were only neighboring houses. The eldest
son-in-law at home was a bit of a troublemaker. (He was someone who worked
little and was not good at valuing money, but later he not only loved comrade
KAS but also learned to respect him. He would come home and talk with my
comrade for a long time. That was a success for our behavior and philosophy.)
I prayed to my family deity (ancestral goddess), Bhadrakali, and then bought another bus
ticket from the bus conductor to go directly to Jaffna. That only one decision
was made by me throughout my entire life. I moved forward with many matters
seeking blessings from my ancestral goddess within my inner self. This was an
act that had permeated my blood. Even the first time comrade KAS came to our
house, he brought along a boy (my elder sister’s son) playing ball outside the Bhadrakali temple. It was his father who
threatened me with death. After that, I got off the bus and hurriedly came to
Ms. Pushbaleela Murugesu (Jaffna Nursing Officer) house in Jaffna Clock Tower Road, and waited
there for more than two hours. Comrade KAS had come in haste, with many
questions within himself, after being informed by his comrades. Suddenly, a
commitment to a major decision arose. It was 7:30 PM. At Mr. Murugesu Master’s
house, some of his comrades were present. They all unanimously said, “If this
wedding happens, the troublemakers will calm down. We have seen weddings that
can end in disputes among relatives, and peace can be made the next day.
Legally, there will be no problem for those who have passed the age of minor.”
What next? There’s a saying, “What if floodwaters rise
above the head?” When I think of it in solitude, I wonder how I got this mental
courage. That is the truth.
I was confident that even though comrade KAS is a
single person but with guard surveillance surrounded by a great tree called
“Communist Party” among the friends and comrades was a relationship bridge.
Nallur’s Arasadi comrade Rajaya played key roles of friend, brother, and
relation in many situations. The proposal for marriage with a public affair
registrar of marriage Mrs. Nadarasa was held at Kalviyankadu. Normally many
people are involved for many days to arrange these events. The family of Ms.
Pushpaleela Murukesu and the family of comrade Arasadi Rajaya protected us at
their home, and since they had a vehicle in Nallur, many people collaborated to
complete the auspicious event on Friday, 19-01-1962, when Thai Poosam and Pournami Poya holidays came
together in four days.
As a role model for mentoring young women, and my
application for a mark of “I have gotten married” on my neck meant there should
be a Thali (mangalsutra) as symbol of
the marriage. Comrade KAS agreed with a condition that Thali of ‘Hammer and Sickle’ with ‘paddy’ which is the
emblem of his Party. The honored “Muthiraichandai Paththar Aiya,” who was
called by this special name, presented a golden pocket watch to the honorable
Queen Elizabeth Maharani with three revolving hands—minute, second, and inner
circle—crafted by that great hand in 1952. The round-shaped ‘Hammer and Sickle’ Thali created by that master is
still safely with me. Many times, it come across pawn shops for borrowing
money. Nevertheless, it has not left me. When my comrade passed away, his Thali that carried many stories
did not remain with me. It was in the pawn shop and I will speak about that
later. Comrade Rajaya took all three children of Ms. Pushpaleela with him in
his vehicle and brought them to the Shiva temple hall where my teacher Mrs.
Ponnamma Selvanayagam was married. I agreed to accept the Thali that bore the mark of my
comrade KAS. The auspicious Thali knot was tied around my neck
by Ms. Pushpaleela in the Nallur Shiva temple.
Since I managed his stubborn actions with an
understanding in accordance with my limited knowledge, I had comprehension in
my mind. In his mind, treated me as a seven-year-old girl... who lived with the
customs of the village... an ignorant teenage scared girl who had to repeat
anything, take it and tell it... in his words … It was "love".
With that in mind later as a father, comrade KAS told
his daughter that “If a bond of marriage comes for you, it must be with someone
who respects your mother.” According to this, not just me, but he would also
give respect to others, including those who hold two portions of parents’
blessings. With blessings, Dr. Nadesan Raveendran became the family son-in-law
who sought out a precious gift.
*My daughter asks, “Mom, write about the love you have
for Daddy.” That is, in his birth home, they would not give priority to
friends, humanistic Seivan, or anyone, and without any rights, sometimes,
relatives like his uncles would come and say with scornful words, “The
destructive serpent has come to ruin the clan,” and express their grief, he was
unable to bring about changes in their minds.
Living with traditional relationships devoid of policy
and living in a blind manner, he wouldn’t allow his conscience to find a place,
so during encounters, he faced situations where he was ignored at his house to
decline in respect for his policy. Hence, he had to face humiliation in front
of his friends, so towards him, I developed a deep understanding... that was...
an understanding. He too had an understanding of me... that was not love
because I am not beautiful, not rich, and I am not a person with many brothers.
So, please use appropriate words to fill this as you like.
After a long time... writing doesn't cooperate with my
fingers... I will continue....
8.
Meeting with Communist
Comrades-Written on 9 September, 2019
On Friday, January 19, 1962, during the Thaipusam festival, after our wedding
in Nallur, we stayed for a few days at Pushpaleela Akka’s house and tried to
rent a room nearby. At their house, there was a woman who cared for the
children, and she also cooked for us. Memories of both families come to mind.
My comrade had already told me how his mother would wait up, no matter how
late, to serve him food.
Similarly, in my family, my father would wait at the
bus station in the days for me to come. With days passing by in tears and
amazement, both of us wondered if we were causing trouble to those who helped
us. Meanwhile, money would only come in if I went to work. Apart from my
wedding attire, I had no other clothes. Eventually, through comrade Rasaiya’s
help, we found a room to rent. It was near the Jaffna bus station, in a small
arrangement. The tailor who owned the place would rent out rooms to those in need.
The room was very basic, unsafe, but relatively cheap. We didn’t even have salt
for our meals. We bought food from a shop, divided it, and shared it, while I
started going back to work. With determination in my heart and my spouse’s full
support, I resumed work, despite the hardships.
As I went to work by the Jaffna-Karainagar bus route
782 passed by our home, the pain I felt cannot be fully expressed in words. A
close friend of our family, Mr. Chinnathambi, who owned a car, became our
comfort. He had also taken photos of our wedding. We lived there from the Tamil
month of Thai ( January) until the month of Chithirai (April) 1962.
On February 3, 1962,
news of our wedding was published in ‘Desabimani’, the newspaper of the Communist
Party of Sri Lanka. It said: "Comrade
K.A. Subramaniam, a member of the Jaffna division of the Sri Lanka Communist Party and the Secretary of the Jaffna division of the Communist
Youth Union, who played a major role in the growth of ‘Desabimani’, and Comrade
Valliammai Asaipillai, a member of the Progressive Writers' Association, were
married last week. Our congratulations to the newlyweds." This was written by the
administrator of Desabimani.
During our final week in Jaffna, comrades V. Ponnambalam and Maan Muthiah came to
visit us. Other comrades from the Progressive Writers' Association, such as
comrades K.Daniel, Dominic Jeeva, Agathiyar, Poet Pasupathi, S.Po.,
and others, also visited. My students from Vaddukoddai gifted me a pot, a kuthu vilakku
(traditional oil lamp), and rings, while students from Karainagar gave me a
kerosene cooker, rings, and kitchen utensils. Comrade K. Daniel gave us two
heavy Silver pots. We sold some of the gold to make ends meet. In the midst of
this, in the Tamil month of ‘Maasi’
(February), my sister, who was training to be a teacher in Kandy, had to come
to Palaly Teachers
Training College for her studies. She kindly asked us to accompany her to our
parent’s home. At that time, I was on a three-day period of leave. She removed
a bracelet from her wrist, placed it on mine, and said, "Sister, you didn’t take anything for yourself. There are still
some gold items at home." She cried as she said this, showing her
sibling love. Without hesitation, we went to my birthplace in Chulipuram with
my spouse.
The pot I had placed during the Pongal festival in
January was still there, untouched. After we arrived, on an auspicious day, my
parents asked me to break the pot and pour the water into the well, as was the
tradition every year. Despite his sorrow over not having been able to conduct
the auspicious event this year, my father found solace in seeing the wedding Thali (mangalsutra) around my neck
and the Kunguma on my forehead, a sign of
marriage.
My parents... When we rented a house, they provided us
with everything we needed: a large bed, curtains, a table, a rocking chair,
floorboards, a grinding stone, a mortar and pestle, vessels, pots, a brass
kerosene lamp, containers, spoons, and bottles—everything. They had done the
same for my sister, gathering everything together. But for my brother, they
didn’t collect anything. According to the customs of Jaffna, it was typical for
the girl's family to provide all these things, while the boy’s family didn’t
contribute as much. My brother-in-law Mr. Sinniah had said, "Isn't it honorable to conduct the
wedding at home?" referring to the tradition that a girl should be
married off from her own home.
It was said that the KKS cement factory workers, Mr.
Thambiyappa and Mr. Nainar from Pannagam, had spoken with my father about this:
"A daughter’s worth is seen in
giving her in marriage from home. Is he of a lower caste?" My father
had taken these words to heart, arranged with my brother to buy a piece of land
later, and longed to see me living proudly on our own soil. The neem and
coconut trees that he planted in that land, Sathiamanai, still provide shade today.
With tears overflowing... I shall continue.
9.
New Beginnings and the
Party-Written on 21 September, 2019
Our life began with us seeking even basic necessities
like cooking salt sardine. It was a time filled with astonishment, confusion,
and pressure. To save time and money, we decided to move from Jaffna to Karainagar. In Karainagar, we managed
to rent a house on New Road, owned by Muthamma Jacob Teacher, thanks to the
recommendation of a local seamstress from Neelipandhanai, who vouched for us,
saying we would pay the rent regularly with my Government salary.
Some kitchen utensils were provided by Comrade K.
Daniel, and many others were given by my parents. Ms. Mappanavoori
Shivakozhunthu, helped us by gifting a small oil canister, known as 'Thaachi.'
Larger items like the bed, curtains, table, chairs, easy chair, and pestle were
given by my parents arrived from Chulipuram by lorry. The efforts I made before
the wedding, assisting my parents, left a lasting impression on them, fostering
an emotional bond and respect for me.
(Here, I must mention a significant incident I
overlooked earlier. During that time in January 1962, when I left home, certain
relatives who were staying in the house saw the jewelry and chains that my
father had given me safely stored in three locked boxes. When they saw it, both
my father and mother broke down in tears, crying: "Our dear daughter
‘Mani’, didn’t take anything for her. Other daughters when they elope from
well-off families take gold and other wealth, but our patient child, are being
wrongfully judged as greedy and materialistic," recounted Ms. Rasamani
aunt, who cried as she shared this with me later in the month of April 1962.
Back then, it was common for people to take with them
the jewelry and wealth they had earned when they got married. Whether in those
days or now, having the support of one's parents ensured a smoother life.
However, our new life began amidst an unequal society. We started living in the
Church orderly house, and when walking to the bus stop, my husband would strike
up conversations with young men, giving them newspapers and books, creating
comradeship. Many young men in the area received Marxist and socialist
teachings from him. Among them was Comrade K. Nadarajah from Chulipuram, a man
with strong ideological beliefs. But the question still lingers in my mind:
"Were they able to continue and sustain this work?"
Of course, to live, eat, and travel, one needs money,
which I knew all too well. My husband always believed in the saying, "The right hand should not know what
the left hand gives." For 27 years, I entrusted him with my salary,
and even our neighbors didn’t know how we managed our household. My mother’s
stories of selling her jewelry to run the household when my father fell sick
remained in my mind, guiding me.
We often had visitors like comrades Karthigesan
Master, V. Ponnambalam, V.A. Kandasamy, and Neervai Ponnaiyan.
Comrade Karthigesan Master, after conducting classes for the youth who came,
would stay the night and leave early the next morning by bus. At the time, he
was a mathematics and English teacher at Jaffna Hindu College. He provided practical
explanations to the youth who asked questions about socialist ideas, and many
of these youths later became prominent figures globally after the party split
into two factions. What happened afterward, I do not know.
Comrade Karthigesan Master came from a well-educated
family in Singapore and Malaysia. With the support of his siblings, he raised
his children in a united and loving environment. He didn’t speak much, but I
remember one of his sayings: “சாதம் இன்றேல் சாந்தம் ஏது?” (If there is no food, where is peace?") How true this is.
Only when one is deprived of food does one understand
the suffering of the working class, who sweat and toil, and who, after enduring
for so long, finally raise their voices for justice. This is the human struggle
that transcends race, language, and borders.
In many countries, especially in Europe, during the
industrial revolution, terms like landlord,
slave, capitalist, worker, exploiter, and exploited came into existence. Why? These terms were documented in
books and later translated into different languages so that people worldwide
could understand these concepts.
In Sri Lanka, books translated from Tamil in India,
such as those published by Comrade P.Jeevanandam's Janasakthi, and political works from authors like Vijayabaskaran,
Vanamamalai, Vallikannan, and T.M. Chidambara
Raghunathan, as well as literary-political journals like Thamarai and Saraswathi,
provoked new ways of thinking and raised awareness.
My days passed with work, reading newspapers, party
meetings, processions, and visits from comrades. With heavy hands, I will
continue...
10.
Home as a Party Hub -Written on 13
October, 2019
The house we rented was quite large, with two big
rooms, two spacious verandas, and a kitchen attached to two additional rooms.
It belonged to a retired teacher, Mrs. Jacob Muthamma, whom everyone
affectionately called "Mummy," and so did we. No one ever asked about
our ethnicity or religion, making the house a blessing for our way of life.
Mummy had four children and many grandchildren. Since they were Christians, and
their daughters and grandchildren had just visited for Christmas and New Year
celebrations, the house was well-stocked with everything. We never had to
borrow anything, not even plates or cups for our small family. Despite our
humble life, they loved us dearly.
In Jaffna, among the younger generation, the question
of "Why?" arises whenever a community is oppressed or discriminated
against by another. Such a moment of awakening occurred in Karainagar in 1962.
Comrade KAS had raised his voice for his Party, speaking out for actions that
benefited ordinary people. He mentioned that, after the introduction of free
education by Mr. C.W.W. Kannangara in 1945, followed by
education in native languages in 1956, the government took over all schools in
1960. He recalled the resistance from some who opposed the government takeover,
while many young people, like himself, supported it. Those opposing the change
even threw rotten tomatoes at them. Nevertheless, the movement succeeded, and
it gave all students equal access to education and opportunities for higher
studies.
Next came the Tea Stall Protests. In those days at tea
shops, there was a stick with 4-5 small tin cups attached, which were given to
low-caste farmers when they came to drink tea after bringing their produce to
the market early in the morning. The shopkeepers would pour tea in these cups
without touching, and the farmers would pay for it. This humiliating practice
was opposed by youth, leading to protests in various markets like Achchuveli, Maduvil, Chunnakam, Chankanai, Alavetty, Kodikamam, and Chavakachcheri. I will
write more about this later.
At that time, I was expecting our first child. There
was joy at the thought of welcoming a new member into the family, but also
sadness because we lived alone, separated from our relatives. Despite this, my
work continued alongside comrade KAS’s political work. During our time in
Karainagar, some young men began questioning, *"Why are Tamils oppressed
by other Tamils?"* or "What is the reason for Tamils to suppress
Tamils?" These young men, driven by their determination and curiosity,
reached out to the leadership of the Communist Party of Sri Lanka. In response,
comrade Karthigesan Master was sent to Karainagar.
The Communist Party operated under strict discipline.
When a comrade was sent to another village, they had to stay with a trusted
comrade living in that area, as political work often had to be done in secret
due to the threat of informants and state surveillance. Comrade KAS went to the
bus stop at 5:45 PM to bring comrade Karthigesan Master home. By the time they
arrived, nine young men were already waiting to greet him respectfully. Comrade
Karthigesan Master had just returned from a visit to Soviet Russia, and he brought with him a white and
gray statue of Comrade Lenin, a gift for my comrade, saying that
it was only fitting that this symbol of socialism be given to him. Everyone
cheered in excitement during the handover. Afterward, Master spent over two
hours answering questions, explaining that socialism is based on Marxist thought, but I lack the
words and wisdom to explain it as he did.
At 9:30 PM, after dinner, it was time for comrade
Karthigesan Master to rest. Though the house was large, we had few possessions.
Still, comrade KAS made sure that Master had a comfortable bed, with a clean
mattress, white sheets, and a pillow prepared earlier in the day.
The next morning, at 4:00 AM, the bus to Jaffna would
stop at the New Road junction in Karainagar. I don’t know the details of their
journey, but I do know that they both woke up early, drank tea from the flask,
and left to catch the bus. But what remains vivid in my memory is the white and
gray Lenin statue, carved from stone.
Despite moving to four different villages and six different homes over the
years due to my job, comrade KAS always kept that statue safe, as a sacred
object. Reflecting on this now, as his wife in my old age, I can’t help but tear
up, realizing that my comrade cherished both his party and his comrades
throughout his life. I will continue...
11.
Neervai’s “Fictional
Storybook”-Written on 30 October, 2019
In the last section, when I saw pictures of comrade
KAS leading many events with Neervai Ponnaiyan beside him, memories of Neervai
Ponnaiyan self-published *“fictional storybook”* came to mind, bringing both
pain and frustration. Neervai Ponnaiyan, like some other self-serving
opportunists, spoke of Marxism but lived a life filled with hypocrisy. I have
lived through many truths, and even today, I sometimes choose to overlook
certain things. But how long can I continue to do that? Sometimes, I fear I might
burst out like I do when I feel anger toward Neervai Ponnaiyan.
Up until his marriage in 1970, Neervai Ponnaiyan
worked closely with comrades. After a gap of twenty years, he wrote a book
about himself, which he could freely do. He could have written a thousand
pages, and no one would have objected. However, the issue lies in how he
forcefully depicted comrade KAS’s selfless life as a fabricated story, as
though it was fiction. I still remember the absurdity of his claim: “ KAS came to the party just to wash V.P.’s (V. Ponnambalam) car and clap during
meetings.” Yet, from the mid-1950s onwards, my comrade worked full-time, in the
Party office until 1972, with Neervai and serving the Party. He was also deeply
involved in caste-opposition movements and May Day protests during that time.
Where was Neervai during all this? Why did Neervai hide the fact that comrade
KAS continued working for the Party,
even when his health was deteriorating? Was there something Neervai was hoping
to gain? In fact Neervai was very close to my comrade, me and my children with
love till he left the Party in 1972.
Even when a loving plea like, “You’re suffering for
your beliefs; let go and step away,” was heard from Neervai in 1972, without
betraying the deeply embedded diamond-like principles, and without hurting
others’ feelings, comrade KAS lived with
a sense of sacrifice rooted in his conscience.
To think that someone as unworthy as Neervai
Ponnaiyan, who couldn’t even match the shadow of such comrades with selfless
ideals, was loved as a “faithful comrade,” and was trusted enough to be
entrusted with our child (Sathiarajan) for weeks — does this not raise
questions? Was the caretaker someone without any expectations? Or was it the
camaraderie of protecting our baby boy in his home under the care of his mother
and sister in 1964 and later returning the child to us on a weekly basis, which
even today is remembered by me with immense gratitude and magnanimity?
Reflecting on how Neervai has been misrepresented in
this context due to his ignorance, I end up reproaching myself. Ugh! How
foolish it is to revisit and grieve over what he has written about this, even
now?
Twenty-three years after my comrade’s passing, to see
such a distorted portrayal in his “fictional” book form made me wonder if there
was no one left to question this, not even his wife, who shared his life and
carried forward his values! How does Neervai possess the audacity to believe
that no one would challenge his version of events?
Comrade KAS never sought wealth, even during times of
hardship. He didn’t run away when life didn’t turn out as expected. Instead, he
distanced himself from comfort and wealth and dedicated his life to fighting
for the oppressed until his death. The inner workings of the party were never
known to outsiders. Despite the years, my comrade always refrained from
criticizing other comrades, even those who left the movement. How could someone
like Neervai, who lacks the commitment to the Party’s ideology, have the right
to tell “stories in the middle of a plowing field” about him?
Neervai was not part of the league of comrades who,
despite facing difficulties, never worked for personal gains or sought higher
positions. Many great leaders, who even gave their property to the Party and
lived exemplary lives, inspired me to dedicate my life to the movement. Yet,
Neervai’s fictional portrayal and the baseless accusations against those who
remained dedicated is something I cannot ignore.
Even though Neervai might have asked my son-in-law Dr.
N. Raveendran, who joined the party in 1975, to “correct the mistakes” in his
fabricated writing, the ideological flaws were still there. Did Raveendran use
his editorial skills to make Neervai feel proud of his nasty work? Did he not
see the factual errors in the content? Neervai never attended any Party
meetings or engaged with Sathiamanai from 1975 to 2011. So how can anyone
confirm the credibility of Neervai’s claims?
Despite knowing all this, I wonder if Mr. N.
Raveendran uncritically accepted Neervai’s falsehoods. If it’s wrong to
interfere with freedom of speech, why couldn’t he distance himself from this
altogether?
As I think about these questions, I recall the
memories shared by comrade KAS with Raveendran who stood with us from 1975 to
1989, both in joy and in hardship. Those fond memories run deep with the
questions in my mind. As I struggle with aging hands and a heavy heart, I will
continue…
12.
Naming a Child as a Political
Event-Written on 9 December, 2019
On October 30, 1962, at Manipay Green Memorial
Hospital, my beloved son, Sathiarajan (Rasan), was born. He was delivered by a
doctor named Viswasam, a Keralite who had come to serve in the area. We were
introduced to him by Selvi Elizabeth, the sister of E. R. Thiruchelvam, who was my husband’s close
friend (I will certainly write later about him).
From when I conceived my child, from five months, we
traveled monthly to the clinic from Karainagar. The doctor gave us a due date
of November 10, 1962, but that year, Diwali fell on October 28, 1962. My
sister, who was then in her first year of teacher training at the Palaly Teachers’
Training College, came to our home and took both of us by bus to Chulipuram.
That night, after midnight, I experienced a situation where I could hardly
stand. Early in the morning, we managed to reach Manipay by hiring a vehicle.
After examining, the doctor admitted me, saying I should stay under his
supervision and not return home. Without any prior preparations, I stayed at
the hospital while my sister went home to gather the necessary items. The next
day, Monday, my sister left for college to attend her classes.
After midnight that night, due to my condition, two
nurses took me in a stretcher to the labor room. Five hours later, after
enduring the labor pains—something only those who have experienced it can
understand—I gave birth. Dr. Viswasam stood by me the entire time, sleeplessly
attending to me. I remember the tools being sterilized. When I woke up in the
morning, they transferred me back to the ward in a stretcher and then onto a
regular bed. I recall Sister Elizabeth saying, “Once the swelling from the injection
subsides, you will feel the pain from the stitches.”
At around 9 a.m., they showed me my baby. Only Comrade
KAS stood by me at the time. I believe I fell asleep again soon after. I heard
my sister's voice: *“After five hours of birth, the baby needs to be bathed in
warm water.”* I could hear the clatter of dishes being prepared. My sister
informed me that I had given birth to a baby boy and that all his organs were
perfectly fine. The love and care she had for my son ‘Rasan’ lasted until his
tragic accidental death in 2001, where she often referred to him with
endearment as *“my Rasan, my eldest child.”* The pain of his loss lingered, and
not long after, she too became seriously ill and passed away in 2012.
My husband’s close comrade, V. Ponnambalam, came to the hospital with
his wife. He said, *“We have named our child ‘Mavalirasan.’ I think it would be
fitting to name your child ‘Sathiarajan.’”* During my pregnancy, a group of
youth from Point Pedro had performed the play *“Sampoorna Harishchandra
Mayana Kandam”* at the Aaladi temple in Karainagar, Vikakal. In that play,
there was a scene where Satheakeerthy, a minister unaware that the person
guarding the graveyard was actually his king, sings tearfully, *“I am searching
for my brotherly king, searching and searching without finding him.”* To which
the king, who is disguised as a gravedigger, responds with, *“Satheakeerthy
‘Aiya’, I am Harishchandra, as you see me now.”* This emotional scene touched
everyone’s hearts, leaving many in tears. From that moment on, we decided that
if I gave birth to a boy or a girl, the name would be Satheakeerthy, a symbol
of truth and integrity. (In this play, Harishchandra was played by Mr.
Vairamuthu, and Satheakeerthy by Mr. Mahalingam—this drama was well known in
Sri Lanka, performed in many villages.)
After comrade V. Ponnambalam expressed his preference,
*“That is the minister’s name, this is the king’s name. Both represent truth in
history,”* and thus, the name Sathiarajan was given to our child by comrade V. Ponnambalam. On the 45th day after the
birth, among many comrades, Sathiarajan’s name was officially bestowed in a
naming ceremony by comrade V. Ponnambalam. Even had invitations
printed and distributed to comrades, calling it the *“Namakarana Vaibhavam” (Naming Ceremony).* Many
comrades and Party supporters from Jaffna attended the event, along with
neighbors and friends who also supported us.
I must mention the challenges we faced at that time.
Within the Party, criticisms of ideological differences
between China and Russia were starting to arise. The naming ceremony was also seen as
a political opportunity for comrades to gather in one place, and my husband
wanted to invite everyone. However, he didn’t discuss this with me. I was so
focused on taking care of our Rasan and his curious little ways that I was
completely absorbed.
Writing about my Rasan makes my hands tremble. Rasan!
you were my everything, my strength, at just one year old. Oh, how many nights
did we spend alone in our Karainagar home? I can’t write anymore. The pain is
too much. I will continue…
13.
A Political Event: The Infant and
the Youth Association Conference held on 10 March, 1963
When our eldest child, Sathiarajan, was just three
months old, 56 years ago, in 1963, preparations were underway for the party's
Youth Conference to be held at the Jaffna Municipal Hall. The party office on
Stanley Road in Jaffna was busy with arrangements. My husband would return late
at night, catching the last bus to Karainagar, where we lived in a rental
house. Until then, my only companion was our baby, Rasan. My mother, though
frail, helped with whatever she could. She was reluctant but came to help because
I was working and couldn’t manage alone.
The conference was scheduled for March 10, 1963. Many
comrades from southern Sri Lanka (Sinhalese) were expected to attend.
They were set to arrive early in the morning by train, and among them were
women and babies. A woman from the Party had to be at the station to greet
them. Many comrades were family men, and I was asked to go, which made me feel
angry at my husband for the first time. How could I, with a baby and an
elderly, ill mother, go to the railway station at such an early hour? I was
ordered to take the early bus to Jaffna, and though anger simmered inside me, I
had no choice but to go.
Leaving my mother, a sick old woman, alone with my
infant son troubled me. She couldn’t care for him properly, and at times, even
carrying the baby was a struggle for her. Still, I reassured her with a lie,
promising I’d be back soon. I took the early bus and reached Jaffna train
station, where I had to wait for the delayed train. The southern comrades,
including women and babies, arrived, and we took a vehicle to Comrade
Karthigesan Master’s house. However, his household wasn’t prepared to
accommodate everyone, so we moved them to another comrade’s house near Jaffna Hindu College. There was sufficient space
for all the guests.
Once I saw them settled, I walked alone to the
Ottumadam junction, a half-hour walk, as there were no Auto Rickshaws or other transport available in
those days. The bus finally arrived around 9:30 a.m., and I reached home by
11:00 a.m.. When I got home, I found my mother in tears. She had struggled to
care for the baby, even accidentally dropping him. The baby had been crying,
and she was in great distress. My heart sank. Suddenly, I heard the sound of a
vehicle outside—Neervai Ponnaiyan had arrived with a bag of rice and meat
parcels in his hands. Comrade KAS had sent the supplies, trusting that I would
host the guests, though he had no prior discussion with me about this.
My small kitchen had only a couple of pots and pans,
and I had to borrow large cooking vessels, plates, and other items from Mummy’s
house next door. I somehow managed to cook lunch for the guests by 3:00 p.m.,
after which they all fell asleep, exhausted from their journey. Comrade KAS
arrived later in the evening with another Sinhala comrade. With my mother’s
help, we prepared a dinner of brinjal curry, meat, and soup, and everyone ate
well.
There were no bathrooms in our rental house, just an
outdoor setup with palm-frond walls surrounding a makeshift bathing area. Our
southern comrades, though from poor farming and labor families like us, showed
no signs of discomfort or disdain. They accepted everything with a smile. They
had spent the morning at a more luxurious house but told me that some of them
had trouble figuring out how to use the modern bathroom there. One of them
apologized to the homeowner for the mistakes, and they came to our house
afterward.
I was deeply touched by how warmly they embraced our
hospitality, despite our modest means. Even though our house didn’t have a
well, and we had to use the well at Mummy’s house for bathing, they never
complained. I remember visiting that same house in 2013 with my daughter, who
wanted to see the place where she had grown up. The house had since changed
hands, with a sister and her younger sibling now owning it. A modern bathroom
and other facilities had been added, but the front verandah had been closed off.
The next morning, I prepared idiyappam for the children, while the others
had bread, sambal, and tea. We all left together, taking the bus from
Karainagar Puthu Road to the Jaffna Municipal Hall. After the event, the
comrades thanked me and urged me to return home with my baby as soon as possible.
In 1963, our humble home became an unexpected gathering place for a group of
poor farming and labor families who had traveled from the South to the North.
Among them was Comrade Premalal Kumarasiri, a former Member of
Parliament representing the Hakmana electorate. It was only later that I
realized the significance of his presence among us and the deeper meaning
behind his choice.
Unlike many political leaders of the time, who often
stayed in the comfort of hotels or more formal accommodations, comrade Premalal
chose to stay in our simple house, alongside the very people he fought to
represent. While prominent Party leaders like Pieter Keuneman or N. Shanmugadasan were known to stay in hotels
during their visits, comrade Premalal’s decision reflected his unwavering
commitment to solidarity with the working class.
Comrade Premalal Kumarasiri used to stay in the Party
office but staying with us demonstrated not just his ideological beliefs but
also his deep personal connection to the struggles of ordinary people. His
actions were a powerful statement, embodying the principle that a true leader
walks alongside the people—not above them. This memory remains etched in my
heart, a reminder of the rare leaders who truly live by their principles.
Comrade Premalal Kumarasiri’s humility and dedication
continue to inspire those who value authenticity and service over privilege and
status. This made me write “Dr. Thilini Premalal Kumarasir” as a fictional
character in my short novel "Karka Kasadara..." published in 2019. I
lost contact with many of those comrades after the split within the party.
I took great care of the guests despite our limited
means, out of respect for my husband and his comrades. Though we lacked many
conveniences, I was satisfied knowing that I had done my best. Many comrades
lived in much better conditions, both in Jaffna and its surrounding areas. To
this day, I wonder where their humanity was when they didn’t offer to help us,
despite knowing our situation.
At the conference, comrade V. Ponnambalam was elected unopposed as the
district secretary of the party, and comrade K.A. Subramaniam was chosen as the
youth league secretary. Several prominent comrades, including Premalal Kumarasiri, Pieter Keuneman, W.A. Dharmadasa, N.Shanmugadasan, V. Ponnambalam, Sarath Muttetuwegama, A. Vaithilingam, I.R.
Ariyaratnam, Karthigesan Master, and Banudevan were present. A small argument
broke out between comrade V. Ponnambalam and comrade Karthigesan Master, but I prefer to stay out of
internal Party matters.
This youth conference marked the beginning of several
such events in the months to come. Comrades would visit our house late into the
night, discussing and writing their political work. Amid my mother’s scoldings
and my husband’s faith in his comrades, Rasan was my only comfort. A few months
later, I had to leave my baby in Chulipuram with my mother and travel by bus to
work each day.
In Neervai Ponnaiyan’s self-published book, he didn’t
even mention the 1963 conference or the hospitality extended to the southern
comrades. He seemed to rewrite history and omit crucial details, all for
personal glory. I still reflect on the many conversations I had with my husband
after those events, and I remain alive, holding onto those memories.
In August 1963, I found out that I was pregnant with
my daughter Buby. Comrade KAS went to attend the May 1964 youth conference in
Badulla. I, heavily pregnant, experienced a complication and had to be admitted
to the Moolai Cooperative
Hospital, where my sister stayed with me while keeping Rasan at home. Comrade KAS
came back from Badulla on 18 May 1964 and Buby
(Sathiamalar) was born under the care of
Dr. Kumarasamy on May 21, 1964 in the same hospital. I will continue...
14.
The Party Split and October
Uprising-Written on 29 February, 2020
We lived in Karainagar for just five years, during
which all three of our children were born. Rasan was born at the Manipay Green Memorial
Hospital, while Buby and Keerthy were born at the Moolai Cooperative Hospital. My mother, who had come to
help with the first two children, didn’t come to assist or even visit for the
birth of the third child.
My friend Mrs. Ranjitham Kandiah, who was staying at
the hospital for her own reasons, was the first to bathe Keerthy. She was also
the first to hold the baby. My parents were upset with me, saying, *"Why
did you need a third child when you’re already struggling to raise the first
two children without help?"* They refused to come to see the child. After
the stitches were removed, we returned home, and since there was no one to
help, Ms. Karpagam, a neighbor, assisted me for a month.
On the 31st day, my father came and tied a “Pulippal”
(Tiger Tooth) which he brought from Singapore around Keerthy’s neck. It was
shaped like a crescent moon, with green and red stones set at both ends, and
was a family heirloom. Keerthy cherished it and later gifted the gold emblem
from the center of the necklace to his wife, Dr. Susithra, after their
marriage.
Comrade KAS used to say that he, too, wore a tiger
tooth chain in his childhood. He didn’t have any interest in gold jewelry later
in life, but as a child, he was raised by his elder sister, Ms. Thangamani, who
was well-educated and nurtured him by telling stories of progressive leaders.
He was taken to Colombo and admitted to St. Joseph's College,
Colombo by her. He was also cared for by his younger sister, Ms. Manonmani,
whose daughter, Mrs. Malini Naguleswaren, became a teacher, acknowledging KAS’s
role in encouraging her to study.
On May 17, 1964, the final day of the Badulla
Conference of the Sri Lanka Communist Party’s Youth Wing, Comrade K.A.
Subramaniam presided over a speech by Comrade Premalal Kumarasiri.
During that time, tensions were high between the two
factions of the Sri Lanka Communist Party, and by 1964, the party officially
split. Comrade KAS aligned with the Sri Lanka Communist
Party (Peking Wing), led by N.
Shanmugathasan, which was based on Marxism-Leninism and Mao Zedong Thought.
In June 1963, KAS had traveled to the People’s
Republic of China as a representative of the Youth Wing and the party, spending
a month there. During this period, the current party leader, S.K. Senthilvel, joined the party. We
continued living in Mummy’s house in Karainagar until Keerthy’s birth, after
which Mummy needed the house for her granddaughter’s dowry, and we had to move.
With the help of my student, Ms. Annalakshmi (We used
to call her Baby), we found a new house on Maruthadi Vinayagar Temple Road,
owned by her relative, a warden in Colombo. After moving in April, I fell ill
with severe pain and had to be hospitalized for three days. Meanwhile, a shard
of glass injured Buby, while Rasan was playing with his sister Buby, but
bleeding ...heavily. I cried out in panic. Child Buby said, “Please don't hit
my brother. It's me....I'm the one”. Fortunately, nothing serious happened.
Despite all these challenges, we continued living in
that house until October 1966.
Amid these personal struggles, untouchability and
caste-based discrimination were rampant. There were places where oppressed
community Tamils couldn’t enter, couldn’t attend schools, and couldn’t use
public spaces. The caste oppression was brutal, and when it came to party work,
Comrade KAS would forget about everything else— including his home, his wife,
his children.
On October 21, 1966, the day of the October Uprising Comrade KAS left home in the
morning and didn’t return until midnight. I was left alone with three small
children, anxiously waiting for him. My eldest son, Rasan, fell asleep holding
his sister Buby’s hand, while I was filled with anger. Other people had large
families and support systems, but we had no one. Even though the party’s work
was significant, we were left without any help.
The 1966
October Uprising left a lasting impact. That night, I learned from comrade
KAS’s younger brother, Mr. A. Ilangai Nayagam, who arrived late after
cycling against strong wind through 9 bridges in the night, said that Comrade
KAS had been arrested and beaten during a protest in Chunnakam, which was demanding the abolition
of caste discrimination. In fact Mr. A. Ilangai Nayagam was against comrade KAS’s Party but belonged to Pieter Keuneman’s Soviet wing Communist Party of Sri
Lanka.
In fact not only did he hide their father's death information from Comrade KAS
due to the arrogance of inter-caste marriage, but also the fact that the father
of the child named Subramaniam was Ambalapillai, in their memorial booklet.
Comrade KAS was detained, along with comrades R.K. Soodamani and V.A. Kandasamy. The three arrested were
released on bail at midnight for medical treatment. But the court case
continued for some years. On behalf of them, legal expert Mr. Nadesan Satyendra, who has an uncanny insight
and skill in the subtleties of international constitutional law, appeared and
secured the acquittal.
The next day, when Comrade KAS returned home, his body
was swollen from the beatings. With the help of Ms. Annalakshmi’s mother, a
compassionate woman, treated him with oil massages and herbal baths. She took
care of him for three days, ensuring his recovery.
Despite all the suffering we went through, I felt a
sense of fulfillment in standing by my husband, a man dedicated to his
ideology, even if it meant enduring hardships.
As the party continued its fight against caste
oppression, Comrades R.K. Soodamani, K.A. Subramaniam, V.A. Kandasamy, S.T.N. Nagaratnam, Dr. S.V. Seenivasagam, and K. Daniel were among
those who joined in the struggle. These events remain vivid in my memory as
though they happened yesterday, and the nightmares from those days still haunt
me.
Today, we continue to see the impact of the 1966 October Uprising. The victories we achieved
came at a high cost, but they strengthened our resolve to fight oppression. I
will write in detail later about the anti-caste struggles and the role of
Comrade S.D. Bandaranayake in leading that successful
movement. I will continue...
15.
Workplace Hazard -Written on 8
March, 2020
In the last days of October 1966, after the October
Uprising, we moved from Karainagar to the villages of Pannagam North, Pandatheruppu, and Panipulam. It was a
beautiful, quiet village. We found a house near the station that was available
for rent, owned by Mrs. Thangamma, who was affectionately called Aunty Pakkiam
by everyone. Tragically, her youngest daughter, Devi, had fallen into a well
and died the previous year. She often recounted that story, warning us to keep
our children away from wells.
She introduced us to a local shopkeeper from whom we
could buy provisions, and she also brought in another lady for milk. It was she
who taught me various cooking (meat) techniques I was unfamiliar with, like how
much rice to use for making dosa and idli. She and her daughter, Rasathi, would
observe Pradosham by fasting and only eating
after lighting a lamp in the evening, preparing special vegetarian dishes like
vadai, payasam, and mothagam for our children.
During our time there, we received great support from
the village and from my family’s visits, which brought comfort.
In 1967, Comrade KAS represented the Sri Lanka
Communist Youth Organization at a youth conference in Albania. Comrade Rohana Vijayaveera also attended the
conference. When he returned, he didn’t bring any gifts as usual but bought
sweets from the local grocery store to share with the children. This surprised
and worried Aunty Pakkiam.
While we were living there, renovations were underway
at the village temple. During that year, we could fetch drinking water from the
temple’s well, but if we couldn't, we had to go to a distant paddy field or
wait for someone to bring it from the Post Office land. Back in Karainagar, a
woman would bring a pot of water for just one rupee.
At that time, the cooperative stores allowed purchases
on concession credit, which was beneficial until around 1970 when the practice
was discontinued for those earning 300 rupees a month. There used to be a
system of getting three packets for free and three packets for cash. That free
rice was sufficient for us for the entire week.
Our budget for rent, provisions, milk, and children’s
medical expenses was tight but manageable. Aunty Pakkiam would often say,
“Let’s divide the salary wisely.” According to her practice, when the rice from
the fields was harvested, they would sell any excess. The small harvest
supplemented their meals. The vegetables they grew would also contribute to
their needs, and any surplus was sold to buy fish and other essentials. If
there was one family member earning a monthly salary, they would save that money
to buy land or jewelry.
Seeing my struggles, they would express concern,
saying, “What if the child falls sick? You don’t have the means to manage
that!” The woman providing us milk would advise, “If you save just a hundred
rupees each month, you’ll accumulate a good amount in a year.” But could I
share the economic intricacies of my family life with them?
Could I explain that “My husband was an underpaid
full-time Ceylon Communist Party
(Maoist) employee”?
The idea of a savings account never materialized in my
life. When I received a notice for a Sinhala language exam that I failed to
attend, I cried. If I had some other source of income, I wouldn't have felt so
lost. I will continue with how I navigated that challenging time and about two
people who helped me during that moment of despair.
16.
Failure in the Sinhalese
Exam-Written on 25 May, 2020
When I received the notification about my failure to
attend the Sinhala language exam, I cried. My husband was an underpaid
full-time Ceylon Communist Party
(Maoist) employee, but our lives were uncertain and filled with anxiety. We had
three children to care for without any external help. I was under pressure to
study and pass the exams to maintain my job. I remember walking in the
scorching midday sun, questioning why I had to walk so far from Pandatheruppu. to Chulipuram, wondering how I ended up in this
situation.
We had only been in the village for a year since I
moved from Karainagar, and I was still unfamiliar with it. The only support I
had came from Aunty Pakkiam and her daughter Rasathi. In 1968, with no
direction on where to go or whom to ask for help, I felt lost, much like being
left in the wilderness. If I couldn’t work, I wouldn’t be able to pay rent or
cover our expenses. How could I feed three children without any income? Despite
this, I bought a book titled *“Sinhalese Grammar”* from the shop and tried to
write and read. There’s an old saying, “Without a teacher, knowledge is in
vain,” and it rang true for me. The letters were beautifully formed, but I
didn’t even know how to write them correctly.
During those searching days,
my mother visited Dr. Thambiah, who mentioned that he held classes at his
house, where many students were learning. Hearing that made me hopeful. Oh my
God…..it is like “The garlic that I was looking for is stuck in my leg”….. I
needed to study under Dr. Thambiah, who was known for translating the Thirukkural into Sinhalese. He welcomed
me warmly, rearranging his schedule to accommodate me. At the same time, I had
received a three-hour leave pass from the Jaffna District Head Office, which
provided some security in case my superiors decided to inspect my workplace
unexpectedly.
Despite this, a prominent man in the village sent a
letter to my supervisor, saying, *“She isn’t present at the station. She goes
out every afternoon to meet someone. Please investigate this immediately.”* The
supervisor chuckled when he saw me, saying, *“In a village filled with jealousy
and deceit, women working here are indeed unfortunate.”*
In the Sinhalese language class, I was the only one
working among those youngsters who had just passed their higher exams. The
classes took place in the morning for them, while mine was in the afternoon.
The other students were more knowledgeable, having studied for six months.
There, I met Sundaram (Sathasivam
Sivasanmugamurthy)and Thampipillai Santathiyar, who treated me like an elder
sister. They were in the class with Selvi Bhavani Vaithilingam, who was
particularly talented. Dr. Thambiah, who would often leave for personal
matters, would ask them to guide me in his absence.
After studying under Dr. Thambiah for six months, I
successfully passed the third-grade literacy examination and the oral exam
conducted by the Department of Education, in addition to the SSC exam, which I
had selected as an optional subject. I was now qualified for a government job,
and I owe my success to Dr. Thambiah’s guidance and Bhavani’s support.
Alongside them, Ms. Rasathi, my neighbor's daughter,
helped take care of my three children while I studied. As a young woman, I
worked tirelessly to keep our household running. It’s hard to believe that at
the age of 31, I was a student studying a language! I reflect on this journey
with amazement. I previously mentioned how those five years from 1966 to 1970
were filled with struggles. They were marked by my husband’s disappearance, the
impact of the anti-untouchability movement, and living a life of uncertainty.
The JVP (Janatha Vimukthi
Peramuna) era, the turmoil in my life, the interruptions in my work, and the
challenges of living in a rented home are all aspects I will elaborate on
further.
17.
Breaking the May Day Ban and
Facing Attack - Written on 2 June, 2020
During the five years we lived in Kalaiyadi,
Pandatheruppu village from 1966 to 1971, the Ceylon Communist Party (Maoist)
was intensifying its activities. Comrade KAS had traveled to socialist
countries like China and Albania in 1967 as a youth conference delegate. In
1969, he participated in the May Day rally, where he was attacked. Other
significant events during that time included homes in Chankanai, Nitchamam,
Madhuvil, and Kanpollai being set on fire due to caste oppression, visits from
figures like S.D. Bandaranayake, the MP from Gampaha with a Buddhist monk. Especially the entry of lower-caste people
into the Madduvil Pannritthalachi Amman Temple and Mavittapuram Kandaswamy
temple
were held.
Comrade KAS, along with some Sinhalese comrades,
attended youth conferences in countries like People's Republic of China and Albania. He shared that at these
conferences, many progressive youth from different countries gathered, and the
speeches and resolutions from the conference inspired them to think about how
selfless comrades could influence the masses. He returned with many photos from
these conferences, which captured the entire event. Unfortunately, much of it
has been lost over time.
Then came the 1969 May Day. That year, May 1st
coincided with Vesak Day (a significant Buddhist holiday), and a ban was
imposed on the May Day rally. However, the Ceylon Communist Party (Maoist) had
already decided that the rally and public meeting must be held. Despite the
ban, Comrade KAS left early that morning to participate in the rally. The
police denied permission, and this led to tension among the comrades. Many
disagreed with the idea of seeking appeal permission from the authorities,
believing that doing so would go against the spirit of the movement. Later
Eelanadu S. M. Gopalarathnam and E. R. Thiruchelvam also wrote facts about
Comrade KAS and such party activities as a public figure.
The events of May 1st, 1969, and the subsequent attack
on the rally have been documented by many, including Comrade KAS’s bravery.
That night, my children and I waited until midnight for his return, but he
never came. Our daughter, Buby, who always slept with her father, woke up
crying for him the next morning. I had no information about what had happened
to him and struggled to console her.
At around 10:30 am the next morning, Comrade S.
Yoganathan arrived in a car, asking us to get ready immediately. We didn’t know
where we were going, but we were taken to Jaffna General Hospital, where I saw Comrade KAS in
the Accident Ward. His left hand was bandaged and attached to his neck, and his
right arm was wrapped in a yellow cloth. Both his hands were rendered immobile.
Lying next to him in the hospital was comrade Nadarasa from Maduvil. When our
daughter saw her father, she started crying, asking him to take her home.
The next day, the comrades mentioned that there was a
surgery scheduled for his left arm. At that moment, tears flowed as I typed
this. Thanks to the doctors' expertise, they were able to save his left hand,
which was severely injured. Comrade S. Kathirgamanaathan stayed by his side to
assist with his needs.
After a few days in the hospital, Comrade Shanmugathasan, who had been abroad at the
time of the May Day attack, instructed KAS to come to Colombo for further
treatment. His wife, Parames Akka, sent me a letter during this time. Both
Shanmugathasan and Parames Akka are no longer with us, but I still have that
letter, written on May 2, 1969: ( After the death of respected Comrade Pon Kandiah, Comrade Shanmugathasan had
married his wife Parames Akka).
Letter from
Parames Akka:
```
2 May 1969
23/7 Schofield Place
Kollupitiya, Colombo-3.
My dearest sister,
We were deeply
saddened last night to learn about what happened in Jaffna on May Day,
especially about the injuries to our dear Comrade KAS. We can only imagine the
pain you are going through. What can we do? In this capitalist regime, the path
of struggle is never easy. We must be ready for any hardship or sacrifice. You
must stay strong and comfort KAS and the children during this time. His
recovery must be our top priority. Even if he is in the government's hospital,
if he isn’t receiving proper treatment or healing fast enough, you have the
right to bring in a doctor from outside to ensure the best care. Don't fear the
police’s intimidation. If they refuse to allow this, you must fight back. We
will send the necessary financial support. The post office is closed today due
to the holiday, but we will send money by telegraph tomorrow.
We are eager to
visit you and see KAS, but tomorrow morning Shanmugathasan has a court case at
9 am, related to the May Day rally. After that, we will be traveling to Albania. We won’t be able to return until the end of the month, so
we cannot come immediately. Please tell KAS that Shanmugathasan and I send our
love and concern. He must find strength in Mao's ideology and recover quickly.
If the local treatment isn’t sufficient, get a doctor from outside. There are
legal provisions for this, and don’t be afraid to fight back if necessary. You
can also inform S.D. Bandaranayake, who will visit soon. Keep the children happy and take good
care of yourself. Our strength grows, and that’s why the enemies of the people
are resorting to harsh measures.
What more can I
say? We wish we could be there. Stay strong.
Revolutionary
greetings,
Parames
Akka.
```
Comrade KAS deeply valued his comradeship with Shanmugathasan, and they shared a mutual
understanding. Despite his immense pain, Comrades brought alcohol mixed with
eggs for KAS to help him sleep. People began criticizing Comrade Shanmugathasan
for leaving while KAS faced the attack, but Comrade KAS never held it against
him.
Some arrogant fellows said, “Go and get beaten. Let
them say that they are going abroad" they spoke furiously. Comrades E. T. Moorthy, V.A. Kandasamy, Neervai etc. were very
angry at his condition. But Comrade KAS never spoke of giving up Comrade Shanmugathasan. He was automatically
reciting the side arguments. At some point I got angry too. I said let's see
the medicine here. But the comrade decided to go. He writes the most beautiful
English and Tamil characters with his right hand. It is true that I was also
attracted by his beautiful handwriting. But he does all the other work with his
left hand. When the police force attacked him, he covered his head with his
left hand. A subsequent medical report (Xray) revealed that thirteen blows fell
on the same spot on his shoulder strap and a severe blow to the abdomen. The
left shoulder joint was cast and the left little finger was wired. S. D. Bandaranaike spoke about the attack in
Parliament.
Eventually, KAS decided to go to Colombo for treatment
as requested by Comrade Shanmugathasan, to get specialized care for
his injuries, which included severe wounds on his shoulder and abdomen. Unable
to put his legs down and unable to walk, he was carried on a stretcher and then
he went to Palali Airport in a passenger car and went to Colombo by airplane. A
Sinhalese traditional fracture was specially treated in Colombo, Kollupitiya
23/7 Schofield Place. Comrade Hansur
himself did his own chores like changing clothes, feeding, removing waste and
cleaning, while he was under medical care. "The help done by Comrade
Hansur is great". While the treatment was going on for months like this,
he came back by plane once. It must be said that he lived (1969—-1989)
pretending to be a 'fit healthy' even though he could not lift his left arm up
until his death.
The impact also ended our seven-year marriage. He
never said any of this to anyone. A very, very high man. In some cases he will
get a dullness in his eyes. I didn't bother him either. He stands tall, dressed
in both clean clothes and dressed in pure white.
KAS’s left hand, which was broken and surgically
repaired with steel rods, never fully recovered. Even after his surgeries and
extensive medical treatment, he could not raise his left hand properly. Despite
the challenges, he carried on with strength and dignity, never showing the
extent of his pain. He always appeared well-dressed and maintained a strong
demeanor, knowing that his perseverance could inspire others to continue the
struggle.
I will write more about the anti-untouchability
protests, the arrival of S.D. Bandaranayake, and the time Radha, Shanmugathasan’s daughter stayed with us.
18.
October Uprising and Caste
Oppression -Written on 15 June, 2020
During the five years we lived in Kalaiyadi near Pandatheruppu village from 1966 to 1971,
the Ceylon Communist Party (Maoist) intensified its activities. Comrade KAS
traveled to Colombo for a Central Committee meeting, where he met with Comrade N.
Shanmugathasan at 23/07, Schofield Place, Kollupitiya. There, Radha
expressed her intention to travel to Jaffna with KAS, and they came to our home
in Kalaiyadi. Radha was a charming young woman, and we did our best to
accommodate her in our humble home. For the first time, we bought a large
mirror and a dining table to make her feel welcome. The women from the village
came to see this lovely girl, and she played joyfully with our three children.
Our son Keerthy especially grew fond of her, and she brought a small eye-opening
doll with a red dress to play with them—a doll we kept safely for a long time.
Radha had heard about Karainagar’s Casuarina Beach, and to fulfill her wish, we
all prepared lunch and went to the beach for a swim. Despite living in Karainagar for five years, it was our
first trip to the beach. The following day, we took Radha to visit several
villages related to the party, but we couldn’t spend long in any one place.
Shortly after, Radha and Comrade KAS left for Colombo, and later, she went to
China Shanghai to study acupuncture medicine. She requested
pictures of our children to keep as a memento, and we had a photo taken at
Ashoka Studio that remains a cherished memory.
Rasathi gifted Buby a dress that Rasathi had sewn for
her. The saree I wore was given by Comrade Maan Muthiah's wife. This is the
best saree I have ever owned. I wore it until it changed its original color of
yellow. It was made of yellow fabric with black border. It was the only nice
garment I had, and I wore it until its color faded. I will also talk about my
friendship with them, as they often traveled to Malaysia. These memories remain
vivid in my mind.
Our three children—Sathiarajan, Sathiamalar (Buby),
and Satheakeerthy—were born during this time, but they didn’t receive proper
care or nutrition. Comrade KAS would leave in the morning and return at night.
I would prepare dinner for both of us. During the days when my younger sister
came to visit, she would cook and bring something special for us. My brother
was still studying, and all of this added to my stress. I started gaining
weight and had difficulty walking. Dr. Somas, who lived nearby, prescribed some
medication for arthritis, but I still couldn’t walk properly.
In Jaffna, caste discrimination was rampant.
Government officials would overlook many incidents, and caste-based oppression
continued. It was during this period that a major protest took place in
Mattuvil, demanding the rights of the oppressed castes. On October 21, 1966, the
protest emerged amid these tensions, as the Communist Party organized a rally to
emphasize that caste systems must be dismantled and equal justice must prevail.
The planned rally in Chunnakam was significant, and
had been a stronghold for leftist ideologies since the time of Comrade V. Ponnambalam. The party office there
proudly displayed the party flag, a symbol of their presence and influence in
the area. Figures like comrade S. T. N. Nagarathinam and their families, who
owned a shop, had a notable influence in the region. Many books have been
published about this uprising, and I encourage everyone to read them to
understand the historical context 'disintegrate the caste system and let equal
justice flourish' better .
During the 1966 October uprising, prominent comrades from the
youth movement of the Party such as D.D. Perera, M. Muthiah, Balan Pasupathi along with K. Suppiah, M. A. C. Iqbal, K.
Sivarasa, S. K. Senthivel, T. Tharmalingam, K. Rasaiah, K. Sivajnanam and
Iragunathan stood in the forefront. Comrades K. Daniel, V.A. Kandasamy, Dr. S. V. Seenivasagam, and S. T. N. Nagarathinam played significant roles
with Comrade K. A. Subramaniam. A large public meeting was held in Chunnakam on
November 25, 1966, presided by Comrade K. A. Subramaniam, where key figures
like Comrade N.
Shanmugathasan, S. D. Bandaranayake, Subair Ilankeeran, M.K. Anthanisil and
others including Comrade S.K. Senthivel spoke passionately about the
cause.
I have many anecdotes about S. D. Bandaranayake and how he treated my family
and me with care, which I will share later. The atmosphere during the October
uprising was charged with determination, as we marched to break the chains of
caste oppression, and I am eager to discuss these experiences in detail.
19.
Observations by Bandaranaike on
Caste Violence -Written on 19 June, 2020
After the 1966 Uprising took place, protests against
caste discrimination, incidents of violence erupted everywhere in tea shops,
where patrons were served tea in cups while others were forced to drink from
discarded containers. Access to public wells and bathing facilities was denied,
and people faced restrictions on entering temples. Festivals were disrupted as
chariots were turned away from certain streets, and communal burial rights were
denied. Segregation in public cemeteries continued, with designated areas
assigned based on caste. These discriminatory practices were pervasive in
schools and healthcare.
In this context, S.D. Bandaranaike, a former MP from Gambaha,
visited Jaffna several times in 1968 to witness the caste oppression and the
suffering of marginalized communities firsthand. Accompanied by a Buddhist monk
and a few Sinhalese comrades, he was guided by Comrade KAS to various affected
locations, providing him with insights into the struggles of the oppressed.
One might wonder why there was no concern from Tamil
parliament representatives from the northern region?. Those in power seemed
indifferent to the atrocities faced by marginalized communities. S.D.
Bandaranaike took a personal interest in the plight of the affected, and his
visit to a house that had been burned down remains a poignant memory.
He later recounted these experiences in parliament,
creating a significant impact on the discussions surrounding caste
discrimination. The aftermath was reflected in the electoral outcomes that
followed. Not all upper-caste individuals were villainous; rather, only a few
with extreme attitudes engaged in acts of violence.
One such incident involved a comrade, Maan Muthiah,
who faced violent opposition from upper-caste individuals, forcing him to
relocate from Chankanai. His relative visited my father, conveying the
hostility he encountered and expressing that KAS, who was involved in local
activities, should not interfere. My father, a man of timid disposition,
cautioned, “Why does KAS need to engage in such unnecessary work? Those
upper-caste individuals will act as they wish; it’s better for you to focus on
your family and not get involved in such conflicts.” I never shared this with
KAS, as I doubted it would alter his approach.
During S.D. Bandaranaike's visit to Jaffna, he came
to the house we rented in Kalaiyadi. Observing my struggle to walk, he brought
a herbal remedy leaves called ‘Mudak
Koththan’ and advised me to mix it with Coriander leaves and consumes it.
Since I was learning Sinhalese at the time, I communicated with him in that
language, which brought him joy. His medicinal advice proved effective, as I
eventually recovered.
S.D. Bandaranaike publicly discussed the arson
incidents in parliamentary meetings, significantly impacting the discourse on
caste discrimination. His remarks and the resultant media coverage compelled
those responsible for these acts to retreat and adopt a more subdued stance.
There’s a saying in our country that goes, “If there’s no one to ask questions,
the one who’s in charge will act as they wish.” This reflects the growing
awareness and activism within the communities.
The situation was exacerbated by various protests led
by comrades like K. A. Subramaniam, K. Daniel, V.A. Kandasamy, Dr. S. V. Seenivasagam, and S. T. N. Nagarathinam during the October Uprising.
These events brought together people from various backgrounds, united in their
struggle against oppression.
In the two years we lived at the house of Mr.
Ekamparam Siva Pakkiyam, many comrades visited us, including comrades N.
Shanmugathasan and Neervai Ponnayan. Others like Thiru Gnanamurthi (E. T. Moorthy), S. T. N. Nagarathinam, S. Yoganathan family,
Nellandaith Comrade Kumaraswamy family, Comrade S. Kathiravelu (father of
Minister Douglas Devananda) who was head of the
petroleum corporation, Comrade S. Sivadasan, Comrade V.A. Kandasamy, N K. Raghunathan, Comrade
K. Daniel, Comrade K. Suppiah, Comrade Mathakal V. Kanthasamy, Comrade M.A.C Iqbal,
Comrade Kansoor, Comrade Salim, Comrade Subair Ilankeeran Family, Comrade T. Tharmalingam Family, Comrade R.K. Soodamani Family, Comrade K. Rasaiah, Comrade Balan Pasupathi Family, Comrade Nallappu,
Comrade P. Kathiresu, Comrade Chinnathambi and
many more comrades.... , comrades came and went. How many comradeships? We
worked together with hopes for the future in a less comfortable home.
Among them Ms. Saroshini from Mattuvil is the most
prominent sister who stood out. She worked in handlooms... saved a little money
and graciously offered it into my hands. She knew that Comrade KAS was
participating in the procession and getting sick....may be one of the reasons.
Various friends and comrades joined us during this period. The comradeships we
built were based on shared ideals and mutual support.
Note: Comrade S. D. Bandaranaike was born into a wealthy
family and is a relative of S. W. R. D.
Bandaranaike. During his time studying for higher education in India, he claimed to
have met notable figures like Subhas Chandra Bose and Rabindranath Tagore. He was knowledgeable in
agriculture and herbal medicine. After World War II, he entered politics and joined the
newly formed Sri Lanka Freedom Party (SLFP), campaigning for S.
W. R. D. Bandaranaike. He was elected to Parliament in 1952 and re-elected in
1956; however, he did not accept the Minister position due to disagreements
with S. W. R. D. Bandaranaike regarding the Sinhala Only Act. He joined the JVP (People's Liberation Front)
in 1971 against the SLFP government led by Sirimavo Bandaranaike. Our friendship with S. D. Bandaranaike and his family continued
throughout their lives. I visited him with my family and Comrade K. Suppiah a year before his passing.
At 96 years old, he had lost his eyesight. Seeing him in that condition caused
me great pain. I need to write a personal note about him.
Following the events after the 1966 October uprising, I will continue to share
about the challenges we faced during the JVP period, the threats we
endured, and the struggles of a caste-ridden society.
20.
The Growth of the JVP -Written on
25 June, 2020
In 1969, we had to go to Colombo for two reasons: to
bring Comrade KAS and to see off Radha, who was departing for her medical
studies in China. We were also invited to accompany them to the airport. I
traveled by train with my children and brother. My brother dropped us off at
Comrade Shanmugathasan house in Kollupitiya before
heading out on his journey. At that time, he was studying at Peradeniya University.
After Ms. Radha's arrival, since there were no other
children in the house, she played with my children as if they were her own.
They played a game called “Kannaipothi” (Blindfolds). In this game, one person
closes their eyes, while the others try to catch them. Despite many years
passing, it feels as if it happened just yesterday. The children laughed and
enjoyed playing, asking for more and more.
Two days later was Dr. Radha's departure day. We got
up early in the morning and made our way to Colombo Airport. After checking in
the travel boxes and passport, Radha came over to us, picked up child Keerthy,
and bid farewell to everyone before heading inside. All of us went upstairs to
the departure area. Since my children had never seen an airplane before, they
were excited and shouted joyfully as the passengers boarded. Before leaving,
they waved goodbye to everyone. Afterward, we returned to Comrade Shanmugathasan's house in Kollupitiya.
Comrade Shanmugathasan showed great affection and care for us, which was
comforting.
In the evening, he offered to drive the children to
the Galle face beach. There were many colorful
kites flying in the sky, creating a beautiful sight. Some kids played ball
while others rode horses. Our children also got a chance to ride the horses.
Before heading home, we enjoyed ice cream and bought balloons. The sunset over
the western sea was a magnificent sight, painted in shades of red and yellow
that words cannot describe. I have never enjoyed such natural beauty, and it
wasn't just captivating for the children; it was wonderful for the adults too.
As the children were having fun, their laughter was infectious, lifting
everyone's spirits.
When we returned home, child Keerthy began to cry,
saying, “I lost my slipper!” In such a crowded beach, where could we possibly
find that tiny slipper? Keerthy, who had been quiet until then, expressed his
feelings. We were assured by Comrade Shanmugathasan and Radha that it was okay,
and a new, valuable pair of shoes was bought for him the next day. Comrade
Shanmugathasan would often jokingly say that it was his influence that brought
Keerthy to speak for the first time.
Comrade KAS's sister, Ms. Sivanesam ( Sella Akka), who was a
close friend of mine, lived in Avissawella with her family. Her husband Mr.
Chinnathambu was working at the Avissawella police station. When we planned to
visit, Comrade Shanmugathasan offered his vehicle and
driver to help us. Within an hour, we reached their place. Mr. Chinnathambu
showed us the way to their residence and then left for his duties. Sella Akka
(Sivanesam) prepared idiyappam and sodhi for us. We ate and returned
to Colombo, taking the train back to Jaffna the following day, reaching our
home. The happiness of bringing Comrade KAS home and Keerthy starting to speak
was wonderful. Thus, the days passed.
In 1970, the JVP (Janatha Vimukthi Peramuna) movement
rapidly spread among the Sinhala people across the country. Some of its members
came to Jaffna, met with the Communist Party, and requested their support. S. D. Bandaranaike also aligned with the JVP.
As a result, the police began to harbor suspicions against the leftists.
One Monday morning, a kind acquaintance of mine, who
was a police CID officer, came to our house and calmly said, “Your husband is
under surveillance. If the police catch him at home, they will arrest him and
send him to Colombo.” I will continue with the story as it unfolds...
21.
Police Raid -Written on 4 July,
2020
The movement known as the JVP (Janatha Vimukthi
Peramuna) was founded on May 14, 1965, by Rohana Wijeweera, who broke away from the Sri Lankan Communist
Party (Chinese faction). The JVP announced its commitment to socialist equality and
conducted several political classes. Influenced by these, many educated,
unemployed rural youth and students joined the JVP in large numbers. They began
secret preparations for an armed revolution.
In March 1971, the ruling Sirimavo Bandaranaike government became aware of
the JVP's secret weapons stash. As a result, they started arresting members of
the Ceylon Communist Party (Maoist) aligned with China. My husband, who
promoted people's liberation and people's politics aligned with Marxist principles,
did not join Rohana Wijeweera. However, the police did not differentiate
between them; they considered all of them as armed militants. The arrests of
comrades like Premalal Kumarasiri, S. D. Bandaranaike and a few others due to their involvement with the JVP raised
suspicions. When a police officer came to inform me, both I and my children
were filled with anxiety. It felt like “the rain has fallen, but the dirt hasn’t
been washed away.”
I didn’t mention the police officer's visit or that he
studied with me to anyone. That day, while the elderly woman Aunty Pakkiam from
next door was visiting, I only shared this information with her. She offered
comfort. Aunty Pakkiam held a deep affection and respect for my husband.
Everyone trying to show themselves as a local dignitary expressed
dissatisfaction about having a Communist living in their village. (I have
mentioned this individual before.) I was fearful of him. Three houses away from
where we lived was Dr. Somaskandar’s residence. His yard was quite spacious,
with paddy growing well, which spilled over into our yard. Directly behind our
yard were thorny bushes and a small mango tree. If anyone was hiding inside, it
would be undetectable from outside. The fences were old and in disrepair. In
our rented house, we had a private well, so we would fetch water from the
elderly woman's house. Even better water would come from the village wells when
my brother or my elder sister’s son visited.
Our house was empty during the day. During this time,
due to my husband’s secretive life, the children sought friendship. Hence, all
the neighborhood kids would play at our house after school. There were Rasan,
Buby, Keerthy, Kones, Kedhis, Kanthan, Mangales, Bhavani, Ramani, Malika,
Ritchy, Thasan, Pulendran, and Nirmalan. The leader among them was Ramani
Nadesan. In that well, they would toss in leaves, salt, and chili powder and
play around, though they cared very affectionately for my children. I would tell
many interesting stories. However, there was a fear that when the police came,
these children would make it difficult for my husband to hide.
That day was a weekend, and after many days, my
husband had come home. I was hurriedly cooking while carrying firewood. My
mother was also visiting. I didn’t tell her anything. Suddenly, a police jeep
arrived in front of the house, and several officers jumped out. Their arrival
was delayed... My husband ran away and hid behind the house. The children stood
confused, unsure whether to follow their father or face the approaching police.
The layout of our rental house allowed visibility of everything happening
outside. (Today, that place has been demolished and replaced with a new house.)
The police surrounding the house didn’t recognize anyone. The inspector who
arrived asked, “Are you the wife? Are you a teacher? Do you have three
children?” converting what he knew into questions. My brother, who had brought
my mother here, took our eldest son Rasan with him. Bhavani was also present.
Police counted them as three.
“Where’s your husband? Where did he go? If he’s
involved in treasonous activities, we have orders to shoot,” he said. I
replied, “I don’t know anything. He came today. I was cooking to serve food.”
To that, he said, “We will catch him anytime. When he comes, tell him to
surrender to us. Otherwise, we will shoot him.” That day, my mother was
visiting, and she kept insisting, “You go and bring KAS back.” As she said
this, the little girl Bhavani held the baby on my shoulder. The police
confiscated all the books, newspapers, and albums that were in the large room.
Keerthy and Buby were stunned and hid behind me. There was a hope in my mind. I
thought, surely a good, genuine person would not be shot by these men. Even
though I had melted into his personality for fifteen years as a comrade and
wife, whenever trouble arose, I would pray to Murugan and Bhadrakali. Even if
he knew this, he never intruded into the spaces I had. I stood firm, feeling as
if divine beings were with me, affirming my faith in protecting my husband.
My mother’s anger disturbed both my children and me.
She was worried about her daughter and grandchildren. For her, her world
revolved around us. With police surrounding the house and the same police who
had taken my husband away returning, my husband was not with them, so my mind
settled.
How did he escape? Who saved him? The ongoing police
threats... I will continue...
22.
Children's Struggles -Written on 9
July, 2020
The police took away the albums, publications, and
some newspapers from our house and left. The two children, who had been stunned
until then, began to cry out “Appa (Dad)… Appa (Dad)” due to my mother’s
encouragement. Gradually, neighbors started to come in. After sending them off,
the elderly woman Aunty Pakkiam from next door came. “Teacher… don’t be afraid.
Your husband is a brave man. No one can harm him. He has cut the thorny bushes
with a stick. He jumped and ran away into the paddy field. He has said not to
come here for some time,” she said. (The comrade often shares this moment with
his comrades, highlighting the affection that Aunty Pakkiam's motherly love
held for him.)
After this, it became common for the police to visit
frequently. As a result, my younger son Keerthy stood on the table and started
saying, “I’ll take the ants and climb the tree to throw it on the policeman’s
head.” The young comrades visiting the house encouraged him. I, however, was
filled with fear. In the following days, some comrades began to live secretly
in different houses instead of coming to our house, and they, along with
comrade S. T. N. Nagaratnam, lived a clandestine life
for nearly two months.
During this time, I received orders from the
Department to go to Vadaliadaipu until the results for my Sinhala language
proficiency test were secured. In the morning, Keerthy was sent to a teacher
named Thavamani, who conducted a care center called “Nursery”. Comrade P. Kathiresu helped to send him on his
bicycle. I, along with my child Keerthy, return home... Baby, our daughter,
used to sleep on the steps of the rented house after her Nursery , exposed to
the sun, with her hand resting on her head, tears pooling in her palms. Who
could I tell these miseries to? My elder son Rasan stayed with my sister.
Meanwhile, my sister married a mathematics teacher named Sivasubramaniam, whom
she loved. (He was a teacher for advanced level students at Jaffna St. John’s
College.) Comrades did not visit our house anymore. My leg pain returned. During
the few months when I could not walk, I was bedridden and had to stay at my
mother’s house. Buby was a toddler, and we transferred her to the Pannagam
Meyhandan Maha Vidyalayam (PMMV) where I studied too. My sister had given birth
to her elder son. My mother was not in good health. I was also there to trouble
them without support.
One day I told Buby to check if the milk on the stove
was boiling, but I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I saw the elder son Rasan bring
a large stool for his sister Buby to stand on top to reach the cooker height
but she failed. I watched them cry. Rasan’s task was to wash all the clothes.
Meanwhile, the stories from my mother and relatives deeply affected my mind. I
did not want to think back on those days.
The youngest son, Keerthy, was five years old. One
day, Comrade P. Kathiresu came and said, “Comrade KAS
wants to call Keerthy. He said he would be back in a few days,” and asked for
clothes for Keerthy. Rasan prepared those clothes. My family was terrified.
They wondered why someone hiding would call a little boy. I couldn’t do
anything either. We gave a little money that I had to send him off. He went
with the joy of seeing his father, whom he hadn’t seen for a long time.
In 1971, when I secretly sent him to meet his father
in Colombo, I learned later through their stories that his father KAS had
changed in appearance. It was later revealed that Keerthy was taken secretly to
Colombo to meet imprisoned comrade Shanmugathasan. Keerthy was also sent with
Radha to pass a secret letter to comrade Shanmugathasan. At that time, comrade
KAS was transfigured differently. Even Radha could not recognize him at first
it seemed.
Attached is the photo taken while Keerthy was in
Colombo. This shirt was stitched from pieces of cloth and given to Keerthy by
Louis ‘Aiya’. There, in the Cotta road, Borrella, a comrade named Louis ‘Aiya’
was running a tailoring business near the party office. Upon seeing the child,
he felt an urge to give a gift to him. He, too, was someone who had struggled.
He joyfully stitched a beautiful “shirt” for the child. “If you thank me daily,
it is just like taking it as a favor,” this “shirt” was safely preserved for a
long time. When Keerthy saw comrade Shanmugathasan in prison and communicated
necessary information to him from comrade KAS, it increased Shanmugathasan’s
interest in Keerthy. (After comrade Shanmugathasan returned from prison, he
bought a big Rocket toy for Keerthy when he returned from Albania. It was a
three-tiered Rocket toy that opened with a flick. Keerthy kept it as a great
treasure possession.)
After a few months, realizing that the authorities had
found no truth in their investigation, they seemingly abandoned their search.
My workplace transitioned from Wadaliyaddaippu to the Ganthiji’s organization
near my former school PMMV for a short period and then to work at the
Tholpuram. My elder son Rasan went to Chulipuram Victoria
College with my sister who was a teacher there at that time. The work of
transferring Buby to the Pandatheruppu Ladies
College was also done. The wife of comrade Mathakal V. Kanthasamy was a good friend of mine.
We had developed familiarity due to collaborating on events organized by the
Progressive Writers’ Association and the Mothers’ Association. Comrade Mathakal V. Kanthasamy was particularly attached to
comrade KAS. Both of them insisted on transferring Buby to school. We enrolled
Keerthy in the nearby Balwadi school, situated close to the Tholpuram
Vikiniswara Vidyalaya. There were many children there. Keerthy couldn’t forget
his classmates, who studied with him. He would go and return with them every
day. I will continue...
23.
Commotion at the Rented
House-Written on 15 July, 2020
According to the work transfer arrangement of spending
nearly five years in every village, I had to move to Pannakam near my former
school PMMV for a short period. I woke up early in the morning, cooked, and
took the food along with the two little children in my arms... I had to cross
the large empty dry field known as “Kayappanai” (Meaning Palmerah without any
fruits). The rain had flooded it completely. The children couldn't hold onto
the waist-high grass, and the wind was swirling, soaking us and making my body
shiver. I enrolled Buby in the Pannakam Meikandan school near my workplace. My
elder son, Rasan, had gone to Chulipuram Victoria
College with my sister. For several days, I had crossed that Kayappanai field,
drenched in tears. There was no one to share my worries with. I had no desire
to speak. Everything was “him” to me. I didn't know where he was or how he was
doing.
On the right side of that Kayappanai field was an
abundant large well. Whenever I see it, I remember the 1955 Tamil movie story of Nalla Thangal. See! What a shame this
is...! Just for a moment..... just a glitch, then it's gone! “Oh! What misery
this is…!” Just for a moment, the tumult in my mind vanished. “Amma! I think
something pricked my leg. Please pick me up,” cried the child Keerthy, and that
cowardly thought of that moment disappeared from my heart. I told myself,
“You’re doing this for a purpose! No harm will come to you anymore.” ... “You
have saved the job you are looking for and become permanent! You won't suffer
any kind of damage for the rest of your life". … After all, “pain is
required for victory,” right?
During the few months when I could not walk, I was
bedridden and had to stay at my mother’s house but Buby and Keerthy were
distressed. My sister had a little child, so I had to go to another place. A
girl named Ms. Thaiyalmuthu, who was a student of mine at Pannagam, had
unlimited love for me and the children. She would worry about seeing me unable
to walk around. Her father was a bullock cart driver with five children. He was
an affectionate person toward me and my children. I, along with my two children,
stayed at their house for a week. Rasan was staying at my sister’s house. None
of these details were known to the comrade KAS.
In those days, there were no telephone facilities like
today. It was unknown where he was until he came and told me. Due to not
passing the Sinhala language exam, the teacher who worked at Tholpuram was
fired by the government. This deeply saddened me. Like me, she also had three
children. What would she do? “The government's hen's egg, breaks the citizen's
stone” is a saying.
I was ordered to take over responsibility from her.
Accordingly, I went to Tholpuram. .. At that time, the Police authorities had
realized that there was no truth in their investigation, they seemingly
abandoned their search for the comrade KAS. He came back to support, and we
prepared to move again to the house with the help of comrades Kansur and P. Kathiresu. When the police were
looking for my husband, he had been in hiding for several months, and the
people of Tholpuram were aware of it... It seemed to be common knowledge that
renting a house in that village was difficult. A man named Mr. Sivachithamparam,
who studied with me, said that his mother Parvati had two houses and that he
had already told them about us. We went to see the 2 houses. It was a spacious
house with a public well in the middle. After passing that, on the left side
was a newly built house in the shape of an ‘L.’ If we went further back, there
was an old single-room house that we could walk into. The comrade KAS liked
this old house for its inner remote location. The rent was ten rupees. Since
there was a well, no one else would know about our movements. It had a large
yard and an outdoor toilet. However, I did not like it because the well and the
toilet were very far away. It was hard for me and the children to walk to the
toilet with buckets of water. Despite the old house, the safety of his presence
was important, so we chose this house. Thus, we secured a place to stay.
With the help of comrades Kansur and P. Kathiresu, all the items from the
Sivam teacher house arrived at the new house via a lorry. When we moved from Karainagar to Pandatheruppu in 1966, the
comrade KAS fixed the beds and tables individually... But due to the attack on
May Day in 1969, my husband lost the use of his shoulder joint, making it
impossible to loosen or tighten the bed’s nuts with a spanner. We had only
Rasan with us. He was studying at Victoria College. We enrolled Keerthy in the
nearby Balwadi school, situated close to the Tholpuram Vikineswara
Vidyalaya and transferred Buby to the Pandateruppu Ladies’s College. We arranged
for her to go by a school van of Mr. Seenivasagam ( We used to call him China
Uncle). In the meantime, I got the accumulated money that was on hold for the
Sinhala Exam. We settled some loans and bought a big bed.
The year before this... he lived a secret life in the
small villages of... Mullanai, Vlan, Ilavalai... So we went to those places to
say thank you. Our house toilet was at the back and there was a big house
nearby. But their toilet was also close to ours. They can see our house through
a hole in the fence. The details of who is who are not known. One day comrade
KAS hurriedly said, "Mani ( It is to me )…. Police Inspector Rajeswaran's
house is in the back. It is like a story where a thief hides in a place without
knowing it belongs to Police. Still, comrade KAS lived without identifying
himself. The government suppressed and oppressed the JVP movement by killing
4,000 youths. Thus, the police department's search operation came to a halt. It
was a relief. Even so, the comrade KAS continued to remain in hiding without
revealing his identity. However, other comrades gradually began to trace our
whereabouts and started coming. I will continue...
24.
Own Land-Written on 21 July, 2020
There was only one family living near our house with
an elderly father called Arumugam Appu, mother called Thangamuthu, and a
middle-aged daughter called Ponnamah. They were engaged in selling dried
peanuts and doing manual labor. The other houses were quite far away from us.
The common well was next to a garden with a big tree. When the children want,
comrade KAS would narrate tales to them.
During that time, comrade S. Yogananthan was about to marry into a
relatively well-off family in Colombo. We had a lot of respect and affection
for him. We also went to see the bride. On his wedding day, we experienced a
joyful atmosphere after many long days.
During that time, ideological conflicts within the
party began again. Many Tamil and Sinhalese comrades came and discussed in
meetings. To my knowledge, comrade V.A. Kandasamy was one of the most loved
and respected comrades, especially by comrade KAS. One time when comrade KAS
and he visited our house, comrade KAS mentioned that he carried him in his arms
because he couldn't walk from the bus stop. He was someone who had organized
his whole life as a full-time party employee without getting married. I always
held him in high regard. He showed immense affection for my children. During
those days, youth would come to listen to him speak. The fear of separation was
highlighted through the visits and stories of comrades. When I asked comrade
KAS if he had any issues in the party, he said, “The struggle within the party
can only be understood through discussions aimed at carrying forward the
organization for the good of the people. The existence of these discussions is
indeed correct.” My only worry was whether there would be a split.
One morning, on the porch of our house, comrade KAS
had written, “A policy without practice is blindness; a practice without policy
is foolishness.” Same day Comrade V. A. Kandasamy came alone. After inquiring
about our well-being, he gazed at the backyard and porch.
“Oh! Has comrade KAS written this for me?” Comrade V. A. Kandasamy asked me. I didn’t think to
get any information from them. I had never done that. “Just say you came. Take
care of the children,” comrade V. A. Kandasamy said before he left. For some
reason, tears welled up in my eyes.
Due to the JVP problem, comrade Shanmugathasan was in jail. At that moment,
a few comrades like Watson Fernando, Rosario, Ramaiya, E. T. Moorthy (comrades from the Red flag
trade union), H. L. K. Karawita, and D. A. Gunasekara along with Neervai
Ponnaiyan, V. A. Kandasamy, Karthikeyan Master, and
comrade P. Kathiresu, had separated from the
party, claiming comrade Shanmugathasan was to be expelled. Comrade KAS did not
accept that. Their conversations in my ears echoed the blame directed at the
leadership for the impact of the 1969 May day anti-legislation procession. I
never asked comrade KAS about it until the end. Later, they operated under
another name as Communist Party of Sri
Lanka (Marxist–Leninist).
As this happened within the party, conflict began to
escalate between castes in the Chankanai village of Nitchamam. Comrades like T. Tharmalingam (Tharumu), Nallappu,
Vikinaraja, Sinrasu (Comrade S. Palani’s brother), Balan Pasupathi, and K. Rasaiah would visit frequently.
There were signs of a resumption of police harassment.
During that time, comrade KAS’s childhood friend Sillaiyoor Selvarajan, brought a tape recorder
with radio through BBC Anandi. Because of that, Rasan started listening to
world news and film songs. The poem below in tribute to Comrade K A Subramaniam
was read out as funeral oration by the late Sillaiyoor Selvarajan a close
friend and a leading Sri Lankan Tamil poet:
“Comrades who have gathered
here
To recall in a
cascade
Thoughts of a
great man called Maniam (KAS)
His life of
bravery, his conduct of humility
His broad
outlook based on service,
To pay tribute
to that immortalised soul,
Allow me a mere
ten minutes to sing of my man.
Yes, I
arrogantly referred to him as my man.
I called him my
man
For there was
such intimate fellowship between us.
Forgive me if I
was wrong.
I said so since
I was one who shared and lived among friends
In the warmth
of his shelter with his wife and children
And comrades
who united as one in the policies of struggle.
Forgive me if I
was wrong.
Our friendship
budded in my school days
Then we ran
free. We were mere lads
Who parted
company
In our
adolescence, unaware of the revolutionary sweep,
Not knowing
that we will meet again
To merge
through struggles for rights that would dominate,
Through arguing
the case for the oppressed and
The class
struggle of the workers,
In political
debate and in battles for cultural thought.
We met again in
battlefronts, on the same side.
I met at St
Henrry’s College, Ilavalai
Maniam, the
meticulous student
Who preserved
silence, with little time for chit chat,
A man of
mystery,
An underground
fighter who lives on after his death,
A leader who
breaks his silence at the head of a mass rally,
A hero who did
not sing and swear only to surrender,
A hero who
achieved things without compromise.
Poetry stammers
to describe that joy.
A silent
tribute for Maniam (KAS)–
The fighter who
refused to be silent
And spoke up in
struggle for the masses?
A silent
tribute in place of a battle cry?
Forgive me, I
cannot!
We have been
captivated by the communist way
Along the path
of Marxism Leninism.
We met. We
spoke. We embraced the path
And entered the
battlefield on different fronts.
I, in the front
of art and literature, and
He, in the
field of relentless action in struggle.
Having consumed
the poison that
Emerged in the
churning of the cement factory struggle
To feed the
ambrosia to the folk*
He continued in
struggle in the hartal,
In the militant
demonstrations for equality in education,
To dedicate his
efforts to working class struggles,
To lend his
shoulder to the oppressed in caste conflicts,
To lead the way
like the flame of the lamp
Amid
ideological confusion in the worker’s unions,
To identify the
issues by scientific analysis
Without losing
heat by communal violence,
To work like a
tusker and
Struggle with
character to the end with relentless militancy,
And to lead a
life true to the definition of a martyr.
I am a friend
of K.A.
Subramaniam, my man,
The
personification of friendship,
The able master
of egalitarianism.
Poetry stammers
to describe that joy.
I recall the
Comrade Maniam (KAS)
Who identified
the principles that prevent filth
From
infiltrating art and literature and,
When I among
others was tempted,
Stood behind to
warn me,
“Hey, Selva, do
not be baffled”, and show me the way.
Poetry stammers
to describe that joy.
As the times of
close relationship
Cast their
shadows in my mind and soak my thought
Poetry stammers
to describe that joy.
For me to sing
of the times
When Maniam and
I discussed in privacy,
The warm
hospitality of his dear wife,
The sweet words
of the three tender children,
Sathiarajan,
Satheakeerthy and Sathiamalar,
Calling me
‘Uncle’
In a tone akin
to the comfort of a cool spring,
I do not have
the words.
Poetry stammers
to describe that joy.
The friend of
the dispossessed, we have been dispossessed of you.
Maniam(KAS)! My
Marxist salutations to you!
Farewell
Maniam! But
The golden
moments of happiness I had with you,
The golden
moments in which we shared
With sweet
drinks and our majestic confidence in
The desire to
make a new world,
They have not
gone away.
Your little
boys, your little girl, your son-in-law
And so many
more whom you had aroused before you went.
Those are
golden moments, tender golden moments.
Farewell
Maniam(KAS)! When you return
Your task would
have been done.
The thoughts
that you had,
The scenes of
your great dreams
Would all have
been realised.
Farewell my
prince! When you return
With the desire
for equality,
Communism would
have blossomed on earth.
With aching
hearts we would await your
Return from
leave to see that new world.
Maniam(KAS)! My
Marxist salutations to you.” -Sillaiyoor Selvarajan 1994
* Note: Refers to Hindu mythology where the Devas and
Asuras churned the celestial ocean of milk with the celestial serpent as rope
to extract its ambrosia, and when the serpent spat venom Lord Shiva swallowed
it to save all living beings.
At the same time, comrade Shanmugathasan also provided a big Rocket
toy for Keerthy when he returned from Albania. It was a three-tiered Rocket toy
that opened with a flick. At that time, foreign goods were rare. This led to
them being featured in the Chulipuram Victoria
College pre-centenary Exhibition. Meanwhile, my parents decided to give equal
shares of the land I was born into to my sister and brother. This caused some
concern for my father. I didn’t argue with him.
The hidden reason for not giving it to me may be that many comrades come
to us with different social and economical status. The police were also
searching for my husband very often. This was an unsettling life. I preferred
to live without anyone knowing about it. What was the situation? Carrying the
children like a monkey carrying its young, I struggled with the kids. My father
often expressed worry about this. Later, under his request and insistence, my
brother bought a piece of land for me in 1974.
“My daughter ‘Mani’ (It is about me), who nurtured and
supported us in our troubles,” my father would tell relatives and neighbors.
From the day the land was bought, we put up a fence and cleared the bushes in
the yard. The previous house neighbors Arumugam Appu and Thangamuthu also did
various cleaning jobs in the land for us. However comrade KAS occupied with his party works
without showing any concern or attention to the land. “This is my preferred
life with nothing to lose,” comrade KAS would say. When asked why the children
should study, he would emphasize the importance of education and how it impacts
society, the nation, and the world.
I will continue about the arrival of a group of youths
named N. Raveendran, A. Chandrahasan, S. Thevarajah , Yogeswaran, Dayalan,
Kriti, Velmurugan.....
25.
The Birth of Sathiamanai -Written
on 29 July, 2020
The calendar reminds me that it’s been a year since I
started this series. For some reason, sharing all these experiences with all of
you is not just about conveying many truths; I journey through my past, crying
and laughing, sometimes feeling like a young woman, and experiencing many
emotions.
I am grateful to the loving hearts that valued and
supported my memories. The land measures four plots and costs 6,000 rupees, but
I only had 3,000 rupees from my brother. The excess amount was given to me as a
jewelry gift by my sister, which I had purchased from a merchant named
Muthukumar with money that my mother saved each month during that time. The
white stone ring was never worn by her; its beautiful shine kept it unused. The
merchant, Muthukumar, took back that jewelry and with that money, we managed to
finalize the deal. When purchased, there was an old well, three coconut trees,
and four areca nut trees. My parents said, “Mani (It is to me), the money
earned from your labor is going to waste for rent. It would be better to build
at least a mud house to live in.” So they constructed a thatched mud house.
In these activities, the comrade KAS was not involved.
One day, he went to Colombo and we thought it would take three or four days for
him to return. Meanwhile, on a good day, my father said we could boil milk
there to move into the thatched mud hut. Agreeing, I took the children and went
to boil the milk and prepare pongal. My father insisted we must sleep there on
the first night. A small earthen pot raised to a certain height was there.
After going around, I got struck by the idea. A small room had a big courtyard
and other small doors, including a kitchen. They managed to make it a beautiful
‘home’ inside, even if it looked shabby outside.
On the smooth land, I spread a mat and prepared to
sleep with the children. Although I felt regret at doing such a thing without
the comrade KAS, I reassured myself that he would not accept such traditions.
That night, suddenly, the comrade KAS came back and called out “Rasan!” The
three children, who had been lying down, jumped up and ran forward. I was
startled by the speed at which they walked. With a pot of pongal, my father
handed it to me and said, “Give this to him to eat this!” Unable to keep up with
them, I fled.
This incident is something I can never forget. If the
children do something wrong, they will face the consequences themselves. That
day, I was also with them on our knees. Somehow, we managed to calm him down
and made him laugh. Then he regretted
that we left my parents alone in the house. He then asked the children what
name they would like to give the house. Elder son Rasan suggested
‘Sathiamanai,’ which everyone liked. That small mud hut surrounded by thatch
with limited ventilation became our ‘Sathiamanai.’
The well, where some plants grew, was referred to as
the ‘weeding well’ by the sellers. After stirring the well several times, Mr.
Boolokavaathiyar came on the weekend and pumped water with his water
pump....went down inside to remove sludge and algae. We poured a lot of gloreen
into it, ensuring it became a proper ‘clean water well’ for drinking.
Another situation led to a conflict between the two
castes in Nitchamam. The higher castes began to harass the oppressed people
with the help of the police. As a result, comrade Nallappu had stayed at our
house for a few days while in hiding. When Thai Pongal arrived, comrade Nallappu
brought sugarcane, bananas, vadai, and pongal. He said we would celebrate next
year at Sathiamanai for the children. He played with my children, who became
babies again.
One day, a large number of young men from a
neighboring village visited our home. Among them, I recognized a few, including
Yogeswaran, whose aunt was my student. Through that, I had a close relationship
with his family. Ravi, whose house was directly across from mine, was very
quiet. I had heard he was a terrible student. I didn’t expect him to come to
our house because I knew that his father was a staunch supporter of the Tamil
liberation movement (TULF).
Others like Velmurugan, Thevaraja, and Krishnadas were
new acquaintances. Dayalan was the son of the teacher Samy Vathiyaar. I came to
know that Chandrakasan was Mr. Alagaratnam's son. They had come to visit us,
looking for comrade KAS. He wasn’t at home that day. I thought it would be nice
to have them with us. A large group of young men had come, which would have
encouraged comrade KAS. I thought comrade KAS would be very happy with their
arrival and their new plans for the party. Later, their visits became frequent.
They would spend a long time asking many stories and matters. Ravi had just
completed his studies at the Skandavarothaya College. Yogeswaran was studying at
the university. Chandrahassan had graduated as an architect. He was a relative
of Ravi. Thevaraja was studying at law college. They were all students. During
this period, Krishnadas, Dayalan, and Velmurugan were searching for jobs.
During this time, comrade KAS was very cheerful and energetic. The visits from
the youth occurred almost every day. Many Sinhalese comrades would also visit
during that period, including Samal De Silva, Ratnayaka, and Gandhi
Abayasekara.
I will continue about the assassination of Comrade
Nallappu, the youth boycotting the 1977 election at Kalayadi, their fighting
and imprisonment.
26.
Election Boycott Actions and Their
Reflections-Written on 3 August, 2020
In Nitchamam, comrade K. Nallappu was a poor farmer.
He is my beloved brother, a diligent worker with a strong physique and a
compassionate nature. He was cherished by those who knew him. These are not
exaggerated praises or traditional accolades. He was a ‘human being’ loved by
those who had interacted with him until today. He had taken a plot of land,
supposedly belonging to the upper castes, on lease to farm. This lease was also
affected by the caste-based oppression prevalent at the time. With the help of
the police, those with wealth and influence began to harass him. This led to
ongoing conflicts.
Once, he had a direct confrontation with a police
officer, and afterward, he began living in hiding. During that time, he stayed
at our house for a few days. He supplied the vegetables he cultivated to the
markets through a cart driver from the Pandatharippu area. The police learned about this
and, by hiding in the cart, they discovered his whereabouts. When the cart
driver realized the police were in the cart with him, he fled into the nearby
palm grove. Tragically, that loving youth was shot dead by a policeman. The
impact of this loss haunted our family for a long time.
Comrade KAS was always seen with a clean-shaven face,
but following this incident, he stopped shaving and kept a beard for many days.
He had only grown a beard twice in his lifetime—once during this time, and I
will discuss the other in 1989 later.
The death procession of comrade Nallappu caused great
commotion in the town of Chankanai. Many tributes in his memory still
resonate with my children, as they read them aloud with enthusiasm. In the
verses of Puthuvai Ratthinathurai... Here is a poem about
comrade K. Nallappu:
> “By the bank of the stream, where the red sorrel
grows,
> In the garden untouched, a hibiscus blooms...
> While reminiscing about you,
> We never thought a crow would snatch our dear
child.”
My elder son Rasan was deeply affected by this event.
I have attached what he wrote about comrade Nallappu:
---
What My Elder Son Rasan Wrote About Comrade Nallappu
We had their memorial book. Later, after our
relocation, members of the National Arts and Literary Council of Sri Lanka
safeguarded many of our books. They might still have it. Here’s a part of the
poem I wrote that day as Tamil Mangai…
After my thoughts expanded… {Excerpt: Tamil Mangai}
> "After my thoughts expanded, feeling the rush
of emotions,
> I remembered you, brave Nallappu.
> Would slandering stop the struggle?
> We shall become those who walk the Marxist path.
> You showed history that political power is like the
barrel of a gun.
> By your death, you revealed
> That due to the merciless actions of the armed
forces,
> We were all born and grew up
> With the love of a person named Nallappu,
> To say, 'Let the child be cherished’...
> Killed and born again in the grasp of ideology,
> The life of the strong and full man remains,
right?"
During this period, Ravi, Thevar, and Chandran’s
visits became medicinal for comrade KAS. The 1977 election season began. The
Pandatharippu village was a significant voting bank for the Tamil United Liberation
Front.
Despite some minor disagreements, Mr.A. Amirthalingam’s neighborhood too. Should I
even say? In the 50s and 60s, although the Sri Lankan Communist Party
participated in elections, they later became inactive with the cry of
“Parliament is a den of thieves.”
In this situation, the Sri Lankan Communist Party
decided to boycott the election. However, the youth of Pandatharippu wanted to
hold a public rally to boycott the election too, comrade KAS insisted that no
problems should arise and that we should not disturb the goodwill of the
village people.
But does young blood know fear? They attempted to
prevent people from attending campaign meetings held by the elders of the
village. In this regard, they organized an awareness meeting for the people.
They conducted many progressive plays, exhibitions, and discussions. Even
during the night, when Ravi had just joined the teaching profession, he
returned to the village for this reason. Initially, comrade KAS tried to stop
this opposition, but due to the situation escalating, he directly went to the
field. To protect himself, he kept a revolver gun with him. I was always
fearful of this. He kept the gun hidden from the eyes of the children.
At that time, Ravi’s maternal uncle, Shanmugalingam
Master, and other close relatives opposed this arrangement. During the ensuing
scuffle, the gun fell from comrade KAS’s waist. The situation had escalated so
much that comrade KAS called the youth to retreat. It was not a matter unknown
to comrades that he could reclaim the gun. Those who took the gun probably
didn’t have sufficient knowledge about it. As the trigger was pressed, a
fragment struck a small boy nearby.
The police were informed, and they reported that
someone had shot him. Understanding this, comrade KAS did not return home on
Tuesday 19 July 1977 night. The youths—S. Thevarajah, Dayalan, Ravi, and
Yogeswaran—had all gathered at our home to meet comrade KAS. When I was
preparing tea for them inside, the police surrounded our house with a guide. I
will continue...
I have written
this above note through the voices of the youth with comrade KAS. and, based on my observations. The detailed
note is provided below by Nadesan Raveendran.
---
“1977 Elections and Our Boycott Actions – Their Reflections”
by Nadesan
Raveendran
The Tamil United Liberation Front (TULF) faced the
1977 parliamentary elections, presenting the demand for a separate nation. At
that time, our village’s supporters faced issues regarding the Amman temple.
Our village, previously regarded as Amirthalingam’s territory, faced
significant turmoil during this critical time. They could not conduct even a
small discussion because of the divisions among them.
While they were weak during this time, our party was
actively working. Most of the youth in the village joined our youth
association. Others also remained with our support stance. Many in the younger
generation in the village agreed that we should organize a public rally to
boycott the election. When the youth association made this decision, I was not
present. I had just joined the teaching profession in Punduloya.
When I returned to the village and met comrade KAS, he
said, “The youth association decided there is no agreement with the party’s
Northern Provincial Committee regarding the boycott; please reconsider.” At
that time, I was the only party member representing our village. This issue was
discussed in the Chankanai branch of our
party. They had expressed that it was not a suitable time to hold the first
public rally of our party in your village.
With these instructions, I again proposed calling a
meeting for the youth association in our village. A large number of people were
adamant that the public rally should be held on Tuesday 19 July 1977. Since a
majority decision was made, the party did not intervene later. As the
arrangements for the public rally were being made and the stage preparations
were progressing, the confusion among the TULF members escalated, warning us
that “blood would flow.”
They all loved me dearly. However, we had ideological
differences. When the situation worsened, Krishnadas and another comrade went
to seek advice from comrade KAS. I went to Nitchamam to meet the party comrades
in Chankanai.
With comrade T. Tharmalingam and a few other comrades, we
discussed. We concluded that we should halt the arrangements and announce that
the meeting would be postponed to another day. I returned to the meeting venue
and explained the situation. Krishnadas shared what the conversation had been
like with comrade KAS.
“We suggested you cancel the meeting, saying it would
happen as anticipated; you were eager to hold it. Now, you must decide whether
to retreat out of fear or not,” comrade KAS stated, adding that our comrades
felt that retreating would be wrong.
Many comrades were engaging with great determination
in their work... The time for the meeting was approaching. Understanding that
they would conduct the meeting without yielding to their threats, those rowdy
relatives came in as drunken troublemakers, starting to instigate violence. The
confrontation intensified. Our youth association comrades were successfully
repelling their attacks.
I stood a little away from the public rally ground
with a group; at the forefront of the confusion were my maternal uncle and
another relative. They could not attack me, and as they were withdrawing, my
attention was drawn to them. At that moment, comrade KAS and the Chankanai comrades arrived at the public rally ground.
While our comrades were positioned to overpower the
enemies, they had no intention of engaging in the fight. However, in the
confusion, the rowdy relatives seized the opportunity to wrestle them down, and
the gun hidden under the belt fell to the ground. Understanding the situation,
our comrades decided it was best not to stay there and retreated.
Reclaiming the fallen gun or attacking the enraged
troublemakers was not a priority for the Chankanai comrades. Our only goal was to progress as
Communists, advancing with our own strength. Later, fearing they would have to
hand over the gun respectfully, they took it and gave it back to us.
Those who took the gun approached the local shop to
operate it. It did not fire when they attempted to do so. “They brought a toy
gun to play with,” someone commented as they pressed the trigger, and the
mechanism malfunctioned, sending pieces firing to the ground. A stone that flew
from the ground hit a nearby child, Master Sinniah Poologam’s hand, causing a
bleeding injury.
They took the boy to the hospital, and reported that
he had been injured due to our gunfire. We knew that a report had been made to
the police. However, I did not believe they would connect the dots back to
comrade KAS. We went to his house to discuss the matter with him. Based on
prior experiences, he likely understood that he would be implicated in the
report, so he did not come to his home.
We were uncertain, waiting for his return. Then, a
jeep arrived. It was evident that capturing him was politically significant for
the police. Five officers opened the door and asked, “Where is KAS? Who are you?” We
replied that we were those who had come to see him.
“What's your name?” a police officer first asked
Dayalan. He hesitated, appearing to take time as he casually answered,
“R…a…m…n…than.” By doing so, I understood he shouldn’t disclose his real name.
When I was asked, I replied, “Nadesan.” Then, Thevar also gave a different
name. Yogeswaran revealed his actual name. The fight took place when he had
gone to fetch the comrades who were coming to the public rally from the bus. He
must have thought that his name would not have been mentioned.
Immediately, an officer said, “This name is
registered,” and called Yogeswaran. Another added, “There are four people
registered with KAS. We will take all four.” As they prepared to board the
jeep, a villager who had been called to point the way to our house indicated to
us, saying, “These are the people.”
Once taken to the police station, they began to
question us, starting with me, “What is your name?” They pretended to threaten
me, but instead sought clarification. I stated, “Oh, my full name is Nadesan
Raveendran.” I thought that revealing my full name was the reason I wasn’t harmed.
Later, I realized that when we were apprehended, the family members of comrade
KAS had gone to nearby Mr. V. Rajsundaram Sir's house and told him about the
situation. Because of his recommendation, we avoided being attacked.
The four of us were detained for more than a week in Jaffna Fort Jail and released on bail before Mallakam Magistrate Court on 27 July 1977. During the interim period,
the election was held in Sri Lanka on 21 July 1977, and the four of us who were
arrested, whose votes were intended to contribute to boycotting, were being
drawn into the electoral reckoning. The TULF members had seemingly altered our
votes through impersonation to their candidate.
We remained in custody for a week until we were
released on bail, after which comrade KAS had also gone into hiding. The report
from the doctor stated that the boy, Master Sinniah Poologam, had sustained
injuries not from gunfire. Additionally, since they had not received sufficient
evidence to testify against us regarding the gun being “respectfully” returned
to the Chankanai comrades, the case was
dismissed after a year-long delay.
In this incident, comrade KAS and the Chankanai comrades had ensured that we did not abandon
our fight alone; if they had engaged in battle that day, our village drinking
community would have been left with nothing. They wouldn’t even have attempted
to make it a routine. By treating our retreat as a weakness, the Tamil Eelam
Movement had previously lodged complaints against us in the “Sri Lanka Police.”
With the fury subsiding, we began to navigate our
lives, and as days passed, the awareness that we could joke around with the
Chankanai comrades became apparent to
the warriors of our village. The comrades respectfully returned the gun they
had given us, allowing us to continue our experiences with confidence.
I have repeatedly stated to many people in various
circumstances that “the reason I could continue to thrive as a Communist and
survive is due to the comrades from Nitchamam and Chankanai !”
Salutations to Nitchamam!
- Nadesan Raveendran
27.
Fourth World Tamil Research Conference
-Written on28 August, 2020
The Fourth World Tamil
Research Conference held in Jaffna, Sri Lanka, was made possible
through the efforts of the separatist leader. The conference was initially
scheduled to take place in Sri Lanka in 1972. However, when the United Front, a
socialist coalition, came to power in 1970, the Sri Lanka Progressive Writers'
Association aimed to organize the Tamil Research Conference by bringing
together those in power who had re-emerged. Yet, this plan fell through.
Government representatives planned to hold the conference in Colombo. However,
despite strong opposition from the government, a committee led by Professor S. Vithiyanandan decided to host the
conference in Jaffna in 1974. A large number of people attended from every
village. Scholars from Tamil Nadu and our country participated, along with
researchers from countries like Singapore and Malaysia.
I was filled with eagerness to take my students to see
the conference. During those days, comrade KAS had a lot of political work to
do, so he told me to take the children along with the students. Accordingly, we
all set off for the final day’s event. Due to the heavy crowd on the bus from
Karainagar to Chankanai , we got off at the Ponnaalai junction and took a bus to
Jaffna from there.
That day, it was drizzling lightly. To avoid the rain,
we took shelter in a sari shop. After a short while, we heard a loud explosion,
similar to a bomb blast, and saw crowds running in all directions. There seemed
to have been a major incident. I felt a heavy responsibility to ensure that all
those children were handed over safely to their guardians. The shopkeepers,
known for their long-standing business under the name 'Ragumania,' arranged for
a lorry for us. My eldest son was just a small child at the age of eleven plus
years.
Some tried to help the lorry driver, but their
conversations and demeanor were not proper, leading us to complain. Because of
this, we stopped them and boarded the vehicle with two helpers, and we all
reached the village together. We felt relieved to hand over each child to their
guardians.
The next day, the newspaper reported that “due to the
collapse of an electric pole and the trampling by crowds, eleven participants
in the conference died due to various actions, including police gunfire.”
Comrade KAS mentioned that the name of a student from our neighborhood,
Kesavaraja, was included in that report. We froze in shock upon reading it. He
was a very mischievous boy. Mothers in the village wailed as they mourned,
believing they had lost their own children.
The children from the Tholpuram Middle School were
recognized for their talent and good character. Several students who had worked
at places like the Valadi Middle School and the Ghandi Magan Memorial Center,
where I had worked a few months ago, would often visit us, unable to forget us.
Among them, some are living abroad, while others like the Nagapuri Kovil
families, Bhagavathi Chellar, Pushparani Muthukumar, Valliammal Chelathurai,
Sriraanjani Ramamoorthy, Sothimani Kathirvel, Pavalamalai Murugesu, Ponmalar,
Mahalakshmi Vaithilingam, Thillainayaki, Sakunthala sisters, Selvanayaki,
Arundhavanayaki, Saraswathi Ayyadurai, Satgunavalli, N. Saraswathi, and N.
Annam (this child was unjustly shot during the IPKF period), Shanthanayaki,
Ranjidevan, and Susheela Thavaraasa, along with a few others, continue to be
notable figures in education and cultural sectors even today.
Among my former students, two have passed away. Nine
are living abroad. Among those who have remained as family friends since then
are the late Mr. Sivapragasam and Annavoodi’s children: Vijayalakshmi, Vijayakumar, Vijayarani
(Ponnar Teacher), Vijayamala, Vijayaranjani, grandchildren Ambika, Kannan, Dr.
Tharani, all of whom share deep love and affection for our family.
Mr. S. Vijayakumar is known throughout the Jaffna
district for his willingness to do all electrical works by receiving phone
calls from others. His son has recently excelled in the G.C.E. A/L exams,
bringing us great pride. Among those who flourished as students are the
Nagapuri Kovalar family and the Ranjini family, who continue to thrive in
friendship.
In the late 1970s, Ms. Vijayalakshmi
Sivapragasam left for Singapore in search of work, driven by the
hopes of bettering her life and supporting her family. Her journey was not just
about earning a living but also about carrying the love and warmth of home with
her, even across the seas. When she returned, she brought with her a simple yet
deeply meaningful gift for Rasan—a shirt. It wasn’t just a piece of clothing;
it was a symbol of her love, her sacrifices, and the bond that distance
couldn’t weaken. For young Rasan, that shirt was more than just fabric. It
became his treasure, a prized possession he wore with pride and joy.
It was the only valuable shirt he owned, and he wore
it everywhere—so often that, over time, it began to show signs of wear. Yet,
even as it frayed and faded, it remained a testament to his gratitude and the
significance of Vijayalakshmi’s thoughtful gift.This
memory of the shirt stands as a poignant reminder of the love that binds
families, the sacrifices we make for one another, and the joy found in even the
simplest of gifts.
The business owners of the technical company
"Maples," Krishna S. Raghulingam and Chandrika Raghulingam, and their
children, Dr. Vishnupriya and Aravindhan, are also exemplary individuals. Those
born and raised in Tholpuram have contributed significantly to creating
enduring historical events and activities in their birthplace. Among them are
Meesai Narayanan, the master builder of the Karainagar Koval property, and the
late Mr. Sellaiya, known for importing screens from India and promoting historically
significant drama, music, and theater performances.
In addition to his teaching duties, Mr. K. Chinnathurai, the retired teacher, also used to
conduct free lessons for local students in his home, and every Friday, he would
perform puja at the Sri Chinnamman Temple, reciting the Thiruvasakam and Thevaram. He served as a spiritual leader
with dedication.
Another noteworthy figure is Mr. Murugaiya, known for
his ability to perform in dramas from a young age, who gathered the village
youth and trained them to perform historical plays in front of audiences in the
temple grounds. He was a well-respected teacher, and he had his fair share of
experiences with me.
The play "Kundhiyin Selvan," portion from Mahabharatha directed by him, was
performed one Shivaratri night at the Sri Chinnamman
Temple. When the mother let her child Karna float down the river in a basket,
the heart-wrenching words she uttered resonated deeply within us. During that
period, the sorrowful songs rising from Murugaiya’s performance echoed with
great emotion. He is a figure remembered fondly by many.
Among his companions is M. Sadacharam. Mr. Murugiahhas
been actively involved in showcasing his talent wherever he has gone, even
after leaving his native land to live in Montreal, Canada. Local governors have
expressed their admiration for him, with his achievements appearing in
newspapers.
Likewise, his wife, Mrs. Visakapoosani, is very
talented. Her siblings, along with their talents, include Banker Kugapoosani, a
teacher (whose name I have forgotten), Thulasi, Chailoli Pavan Kandiah, and
Gomathi. They have all excelled in education and various disciplines.
Similarly, the children of Murugiahand Visakapoosani have excelled in
education, music, dance, science, and mridangam.
Their eldest son, who has received a scholarship to
study in Russia, is Mr. Murugiah Narayana Moorthy, who has worked in various
capacities, including the Singapore National library and broadcasting service
after studying in Canada.
Once, during my time in Singapore, he successfully
organized an event called "Kaalachakra" at the Singapore National
library. It was a moment of great pride for me to see him translate and convey a
Russian language lecture delivered by a visiting Russian professor into Tamil.
His sister and brother also continue to shine in education and arts.
The elder sister, Jagadambikai Krubanandamoorthy,
Lalithambikai (in Canada), Sharathambikai (in Germany), and Visagathasan (in
Canada), have all made their mark in the fields of music and dance. Their
children continue to contribute to history in meaningful ways.
Every day, Mrs. Kugapoosani Ramalingam, a retired
banker, shares stories on social media that resonate with our experiences. A
few days ago, she recounted her time with the late Dr. Thambiah, who translated
the Thirukkural into Sinhala, showcasing the
importance of cultural preservation.
The master builder Meesai Narayanan, who constructed
the house for Karainagar's Koval, is also remembered fondly. Through his
lineage, we have seen remarkable individuals like Sarva Aishwaryam, who was
born as a daughter of Mr. Sellaiya and later became the life partner of Mr. K. Chinnathurai Master.
Their children, including Nandapalan, Nandavathi alias
Mathi, Latha, and Jayavar, are well-respected in the community. Tragically,
Nandapalan, an excellent mechanic and driver, was unjustly killed by armed
assailants.
I must talk about Nandavathi alias Mathi who is living
in Kandy. In 1993, when Rasan invited
Keerthy and me to visit him in Singapore, we were faced with the daunting
reality of not having enough money for flight tickets. With Keerthy still
studying and all our jewelry already pledged in pawnshops, the situation felt
impossible. It was then that Mathi stepped in with an extraordinary gesture of
generosity. Without hesitation, she lent us her own jewelry so we could secure
the funds needed. Her selflessness gave us the means to make the journey,
fulfilling Rasan's wish to have us by his side. True to his word, Rasan later
sent money to retrieve Mathi’s jewelry, ensuring her kindness was honored and
repaid.
Ms. Mathi’s generosity did not end there. On 4 March
1994, when my granddaughter, Dr. Shriranshini
Satheakeerthy, was born at the Peradeniya Teaching
Hospital, Mathi was the first to hold her and feed her water. It was a moment of
profound love and care, symbolizing Mathi’s unwavering presence in our lives
during both joyous and trying times. Her actions are a testament to the power
of kindness and the strength of the bonds we share with those who go above and
beyond to support us. Mathi will forever be a cherished part of our family's
story, her selflessness acts a reminder of the love that sustains us.
The old tales also bring forth the memory of Mr.
Kanda, a healer who helped villagers recover from illnesses. His descendants,
such as Yogeswaran and his sister Goma, have continued to uphold the family's
legacy.
The stories and legacies of our community continue to
flourish. While our connections have evolved, the essence of our shared
experiences remains vibrant. The bonds we have forged through education,
culture, and support endure, enriching our lives and the lives of future
generations.
To this day they come and see me as 'Teacher'... Mr.
Nataraja, the son of Krishnar Master, whom we fondly call Thiaku Vathiyar, had
requested many times to come and address the Tholpuram Sarvodayam organization of which he is the head. I
associate myself with the people of that town for a few years. Those students
treated me as their relation. They still interact today. My granddaughter Dr. Subhara Raveendran started her childhood
education at Sarvodaya which is very close to our Sathiamanai. I used to carry
her there on weekdays. The sarvodaya relationship that started from then
continues even today.
In the 'Pokkanni' public area, we have organized
sports events, provided primary education through the Sarvodaya movement,
facilitated community engagement, and offered music lessons, with everyone
working together harmoniously. The social structure and moral values of this
village are truly remarkable!
Continuation to Follow…
28.
Son’s ‘Sirupori’ Signature Magazine -Written on 9
September, 2020
I remember the year we lived in Tholpuram was 1975. I
don't recall the exact date in the month of Aadi (July 2). One evening, our
neighbors informed us that "the Mayor of Jaffna, Mr. Alfred Duraiappa, was shot and killed in
front of the Varadaraja Perumal Temple in Ponnalai." The next morning, the
newspaper reported that “as usual, on Sundays, the Jaffna Mayor would come to
the Vishnu temple in Ponnalai for worship, but armed youths shot him dead. The
police are conducting an investigation.” At that time, I was unaware that there
might be a connection with Sundaram and Chandathiyar, who were
close to my husband. The J.V.P. was instigating unrest in the south while the
north was experiencing this turmoil, which left my mind troubled.
By the end of 1975, we had gradually settled into this
Sathiamanai. My front door neighbor, who was known as Mr. Kandiah Nagarasa
alias Selvam, helped transport our household items in two trips using his
bullock cart. Our Sathiamanai was located in a very narrow lane. My father’s
friend, known as Mr. “Appachiyar”, lived with some comfort but was later
afflicted by illness, leaving him in poverty. The wooden sculptures on the
front porch of his big square house were made by my father. After Mr. Appachiyar
passed away, when his second daughter was to be married, my father purchased
this land for me. I have gathered a separate chapter on the history of
Sathiamanai and will write about it later.
While Sathiamanai was still a hut, my father did a
second milk boil for us to move in. Comrade KAS noticed that
"Neerttu" (pumpkins) was hanging there at the corner from the roof.
Upon seeing it, comrade KAS cut it down with a stick and threw it down. When I
asked, “Why did you do this?” he replied, “This is all superstitious nonsense.”
This action caused my father great distress. “It won't allow any of that cursed
near the houses we build. No homeowner would allow it to be cut and thrown away.
What kind of nonsense is this?” my father lamented.
Consequently, a few days later, I found it difficult
to walk and had to stay in the Moolai hospital for treatment. “You are fighting
with a man whose work has put you in this condition,” said my father worriedly.
During this time, my elder son, Rasan, built a small hut where he could study.
Every day, my comrade KAS would read the Island newspaper and wanted Rasan to
translate it into Tamil. Rasan and Keerthy would fetch water for the torn
coconut and flour, and my daughter Buby was placed in the girls' hostel at the
Pandateruppu College due to her academic success. We could hardly bear a few
days’ of her separation from us. To ensure that our daughter would grow with a
unique character, we decided to place her in the hostel. Even though we were at
a distance, we all mourn together at home.
Days went by, and the 1977 elections arrived. It was a
time when the Leftist Communist Party boycotted the elections. When the
elections came, it was like a wedding in the northern Tamil community, filled
with enthusiasm as they worked day and night on campaign activities, posting
election notices on walls, organizing speakers for public rallies, and
canvassing door to door. Months passed. In the last election in the Vattukottai
constituency, Mr. Amirthalingam was defeated by Mr. A. Thiyagaraja. However, in the 1977
elections, Mr. Thirunavukkarasar won with 71% of the votes. Mr.V. Rajasundaram, who lived near our house, also
asked for votes. He received only 873 votes. Even today, it is said in the
village that the number of people who dined at his house was more than the
number of votes he received.
This election helped release our youths from jail and
ensured that comrade KAS. was not
imprisoned. Although I felt immense gratitude for that, I too joined in
boycotting that election. Since I lived in Karainagar, I had known Mr. A. Thiyagaraja, who was a good man, but he
suffered a crushing defeat. My elder son Rasan gradually began writing some
political articles. He started a donation box in his hut to raise funds for the
party’s newspaper ‘Tholilali’. He rallied the friends who visited our house and
conducted a march around Sathiamanai. Comrade KAS, myself, Ravi, Devar,
Chandran, Dayalan, Kruthi, Velmurugan, Surendran Sundaralingam, Buby, and
Keerthy, along with many others, marched shouting slogans. Due to the poverty
of the time, there were no means to capture photographs.
Many of them, except for comrade KAS and my elder son
Rasan, are still around today. They must share this experience. Comrade
KAS. nurtured our children in such a way
that all three of them could point out every country on the world map. My elder
son Rasan speaks and writes about the qualities of these places and their
political situation. Suddenly, he developed the desire to start a handwritten
signature magazine. That is “Sirupori.” I will continue with that.
29.
Office of the Magazine at
Sathiamanai -Written on 16 September, 2020
We decided to settle permanently in Chulipuram
Sathiamanai from Tholpuram. If there is land to build a house, we can obtain a
government loan. However, they will deduct from the salary every month. If we
were to do some gardening, we could purchase a water pump at a subsidized rate.
Comrade Markandar from Nitchamam needed one. I went, signed the loan collateral
bond papers, and bought it for him. His brother-in-law is comrade S. Palani. I will refer to him as my
brother. He showed love and concern for me and the children after comrade
Nallappu. Comrade S. Palani cut the palmerah trees from
comrade Markandar yard and brought them for Sathiamanai roof. Comrade S.
Palani's family played a pivotal role in Marxist-Leninist activism, with every
member actively involved in the struggle for justice in Jaffna. His brothers,
including Comrades S. Rasathurai, S. Sinnathurai, and S.
Veerawagu, were key contributors to the movement. Two brothers, S. Nallathambi
alias Sinrasu and Balasingam, now living abroad, were also field fighters.
Another brother comrade, S. Thuraisingham of the New Democratic
Marxist-Leninist Party, was abducted on 11 January 1991 and murdered by LTTE.
Comrade S. Palani lost his youth in jails and
his family's sacrifices, including abduction, imprisonment, exile, and loss of
life, underline their deep commitment to the cause of equality and justice.
To build a house, we needed a loan to buy cement and
sand. At that time, comrade KAS asked the children, "What should the house
Sathiamanai look like?” The children suggested various shapes and names. My
elder son Rasan suggested the name ‘Sathiamanai’ earlier and now he came up
with a simple plan: three small rooms and a porch.
At this point, we could build only one room. We
decided to start construction based on Rasan’s design. We had to break stones
from the nearby place for construction. We could manage the costs of buying the
gravel this way. We started breaking stones for ‘Sathiamanai.’
Immediately after the 1977 elections, Comrade K.Suppiah took Keerthy with him to
Hatton, where he was working full-time with the New Red Flag trade union. On 18
August 1977, widespread rioting against Tamils
erupted, orchestrated by UNP thugs. Trapped in Hatton during the violence, they
sought refuge at the home of Dr. Radha Thabirajah for their safety. After the
riots subsided, Keerthy returned home safely with Ravi, but he had missed
nearly two months of school as a result of the unrest.
However, it was only in the hut that the procedure
took place. Rasan built a small hut with a thatched roof and called it ‘Koddil’
(meaning ‘Little Hut’). It contained a small table, a bench, and a donation box
for the party magazine ‘Thozhilali’ (Worker). One day, he organized a meeting
to start a ‘Readers Circle’ as “Thozhilali
Vasakar Vattam” and publish a handwritten magazine. Friends Ravi, Chandran,
Devar, Kruthi, Dayalan, Suresh, Buby, Keerthy, and I, along with comrade KAS,
attended. There was a disagreement about the name. In the end, the name ‘Sirupori’ (meaning ‘Mini Spark’)
suggested by my elder son Rasan was approved. Chairman Mao had explained the impact of this, “A
small spark can create a huge forest fire.”
Buby and the other members were selected as the
magazine editors. From that day forward, ‘Sirupori’ was published every month,
just like ‘Thozhilali.’ Kruthi drew the front cover illustrations, while
Chandran wrote poetry, and Ravi contributed short stories, with articles
written by Rasan as well.
By 1977, my daughter Buby had reached the appropriate
age. I had to wrap her in cloth and send her to school quickly. That day, I had
an accounting audit at the station. It was a challenging situation for me as I
couldn't stand with my daughter. My sister had taken leave from college to come
and help. Many relatives gathered at the house, creating a commotion. My sister
was trying to prepare a traditional meal with curry while also cooking an
eggplant dish in the clay oven. My daughter, who was accustomed to simpler
foods, refused to eat anything, saying she didn't want anything but coffee.
They shared a special dish called ‘Pongal’ made with
boiled rice, a lot of coconut milk, and offered it to everyone at home and in
the neighborhood. I returned home just in time. On the fifth day, after
preparing the milk, we were getting ready to send her to school. During this
time, our grandmother visited and engaged me in all sorts of stories, poems,
and paintings. Some friends and a few relatives, as well as six of our
teachers, came to visit. Some party comrades, including K. Daniel, S.T.N. Nagaratnam T. Tharmalingam (Dharmu), and M.G.M Gunam
from Karainagar, along with our dear Ammamma (Mrs. Nagaratnam Jagannathan),
came with garlands made of flowers and adorned the child.
The ‘Aalathi’ (traditional ceremony) also went
splendidly. Mrs. Paripooranam
Rajasundaram (Pari Aunty) came to bless Buby. Pari Aunty was considered to be the best
elite of our village. My sister’s family and my aunt’s daughter’s family were
present. All my students came too. At lunchtime, one of our teachers said, “I
need to rush home,” and left. It was only after she left that we learned,
“There is a woman from Nitchamam in her land picking chilies as paid labor. If
the land owner eats with labor, what will happen to her honor?” she said after
leaving.
Sister Pushpam was also a relative of that teacher but
they didn't delve into what caste the visitors belonged to. That one person's
actions stayed with me for a long time. I thought about how the majority
Sinhalese people, often said to treat other Tamils with contempt, are really so
good. I only saw love when they came home. When I mentioned this to my comrade,
he said, “You have only seen our comrades. Hierarchy exists everywhere. We are
trying to change this. When everyone else joins us then only this can be
resolved,” he said. I will continue...
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30.
“Kandan Karunai” Play -Written on
23 September, 2020
Although it was written by N. K. Raghunathan, the
contribution of young Padmanathan and the art group ‘Amabalathadikals’ (Outdoor
dancers) in staging the play “Kandan Karunai” in various villages is
noteworthy. “Kandan Karunai” was a Thaalalayam drama that was staged multiple
times. It was designed as an awareness campaign against caste oppression. The
performances by comrades, the music, and the stage setting evoked emotions akin
to watching a movie, raising social awareness among the people.
We traveled to many places where it was staged. The
children would perform in homes. When it was held in Nelliady, we stayed at comrade Sivagnanam’s
house, who was a Railway Station Master. At that time, my elder son Rasan had
an eczema allergy on his leg, causing wounds all over. Comrade Sivagnanam’s
mother prepared an oil for him, which helped heal his condition.
Those relationships continued even through many
divisions. Nelliady comrades Sivagnanam, Sivarasa, Bhaskaran, and Sivam are remembered
fondly to this day.
In 1975, comrade KAS, Sinhala comrade Gandhi
Abeysekera, comrade S.K. Senthilvel, and Sinhala comrade
Ratnayake visited China. Wherever they went, comrade KAS’s letters were a
source of knowledge and social concern. He would start reading every day early
in the morning, and he always had a small notebook or magazine in hand. Like him,
my elder son Rasan also had a keen interest in reading and writing.
During the visit of comrades Gandhi Abeysekera, S.K.
Senthilvel, and Ratnayake to the People’s Republic of China in 1975, comrade N. Shanmugathasan visited us with Radha when we lived in
Sathiamanai hut. He asked, “Oh! Is this the house built by comrade KAS?” There
was affection and compassion in his words. It had been five years since I had
seen Radha after her marriage. After so long, she was joyful to see the
children. All three had worked hard to build this house, and it showed. They
had lost their childhood innocence due to the intense situations they faced.
Days passed quickly, and once again, a rift developed
within the party. This affected not just me but everyone at home profoundly. I
presumed it was merely a disagreement about principles. I thought,
"Surely, comrades must have read all the books about
disagreements..." My heart sank at that thought. Comrade KAS was
tirelessly involved as usual. I really didn’t ask him about it. I had read that
a comrade K. Balathandayutham and his wife had parted ways
due to ideological disagreements within the party in India. I thought it
wouldn’t be right to burden my comrade KAS with more difficulties. However, my
elder son had a keen understanding of everything. He would tell me some things.
Comrades like S.K. Senthivel, K. Thanikasalam, S. Navaratnam, Vanniyasingham, K.Suppiah (New Red Flag Trade Union).
Comrades from Nitchamam, and Kalaiyadi would come and go. Initially, I had no
information about the Sinhala comrades.
During this period, comrade S.K. Senthilvel married his sister-in-law. A
big celebration was organized by an engineer who was a relative of his, with a
large hall built for the occasion. We stayed at their house and returned home
the next day. To forget the pain of party separation, I received a transfer
letter from the Government to hand over Tholpuram Weaving Center and takeover
the Moolai Weaving Center. I took over the responsibilities of the center under
Mrs. Kamala Mahalingam.
Each time I went to a new center, I faced the
challenge of nurturing and bringing together the students, only to be
transferred again. I will continue...
31.
The Wonders of a Meaningful Life
-Written on 2 October, 2020
Comrade KAS tirelessly worked to build and nurture the
new party. Sinhala comrades were also
involved, with some coming from Southern Lanka. The “Thozhilali” newspaper had
ceased, but the “Pattali” newspaper emerged. Subsequently, the “Thozhilali Vasakar Vattam” was renamed
as “Pattali Vasakar Vattam” by my
elder son.
For the first time, in 1978, the Communist Party of
Sri Lanka (Left) was established. Comrade K.A. Subramaniam was elected as the General
Secretary. The party grew by uniting old comrades across not only the Northern
Province but also various parts of Sri Lanka, with many new comrades committed
to political and literary pursuits. The National Arts and Literary Council
flourished, and its Tamil magazine, “Thayaham,” began to emerge again, connecting
progressive writers. The editor, comrade K. Thanigasalam, worked closely with
comrade KAS to write editorials for it. Initially, the party started running
first called 'Patali' and later 'Sempathakai' newspapers. Comrade KAS sought
assistance for edits and proofreading from both me and my elder son.
The party’s “Vasantham” bookshop also struggled with many issues. The
bookshop was located in the building of writer K. Daniel along Muneswaran Road
Jaffna. In this regard, many letters from writer Daniel were sent to comrade
KAS. Some of these letters still exist. This caused a lot of distress for him.
At one point, Marxist books and progressive works were thrown out onto the
street. They floated in the rainwater all night long. This act raised questions
about the value and affection I held for writer Daniel. He had given us two
silver pots for our wedding. Those were the most valuable items we possessed.
However, I was hesitant to use them after this incident. This is the truth.
Yet, I didn’t share any of this with anyone.
At the same time, to help with stencil typing for
Roneo printing, comrade Madhakal Kandasamy donated a typewriter to the party
when he returned from Radio Peking. For our generations, the
Roneo machine provided copying technology as photocopiers were yet to be
invented. Stencil duplication was a low-cost printing method that worked by
forcing ink through waxed-paper stencils onto target paper.
At that time, the party faced many challenges, but
comrades who didn’t give up operated with confidence. Ethnic hatred and Tamil
sentiments were fueled among the people. The party grew by speaking of
nationalism. Meetings, processions, and literary gatherings continued.
Encouragement and guidance from intellectuals like poet E. Murugaiyan, A.J. Kanagaratna, Sriramanokaran, Petroleum
Kathirvelu (father of Minister Douglas Devananda), and professors K. Kailasapathy, S. Thillainathan, M.A. Nuhman, and S. Mounaguru, S. Sivasekaram played a vital role.
After the passing of comrade KAS, at its second
national congress in 1991, the party changed its name to “New Democratic
Party.” Later, in June 2010, at the 5th All-Sri Lanka Congress held in Colombo,
it became the “New Democratic Marxist
Leninist Party.” Today, comrade C.K. Senthivel serves as its General
Secretary.
For the past forty years, our party has fought and
worked with the feeling that every individual should overcome inequalities to
achieve their basic rights. I have witnessed those who have a thirst for
knowledge and a desire to live as role models in my homeland. This has led me
to understand that a life devoid of extravagance and accompanied by genuine
support for others is indeed a profound blessing.
From the day I began my studies in my birthplace, I
realized the importance of contributing positively to society. When I looked
back at how comrade KAS lived after losing his job, I pondered whether I could
support a single individual, a family, a community, or a nation in this
journey. This led me to recognize the incredible impact of those who dedicate
themselves selflessly.
In our village, there was a notable individual in our
village named N. Senathirajah, who published wonderful new ideas under the
title “Desa Oozhiyin” ( Servant of the
Nation). He would paste these writings on walls of colleges and
establishments like the Post Office etc. However, many would pass by, saying,
“What a fool who doesn’t know how to live.”
This leads us to understand the truth behind the
saying, “A solitary tree does not make a forest.” A single individual, along
with their family and loved ones, naturally lives as part of society. When one
individual ventures out for social service, the world often mocks them as “a
fool who doesn’t know how to live.”
From the historical books we read, we see that those
who impart valuable ideas and awaken societal consciousness often face poverty,
illness, suffering, and challenges in their personal lives. Throughout their
lifetime, they might not be able to advance these goals. Out of a hundred
thousand, one may use their ancestors' wealth for social transformation. Some,
with their spouses' cooperation, engage in a certain level of good deeds.
Others live peacefully, believing “as long as I have enough for my family, I
won’t bother anyone.”
Thus, the lives of people born into this world take
many forms. To be continued...
32.
The Political Shift of My Eldest
Son -Written on 23 October, 2020
The English newspaper "Red Banner" and the Tamil
newspaper "Sembathagai" began to be published properly. Comrade KAS
was actively involved in these tasks and in bringing the party to the people.
He would rise early at four in the morning to write. Frequent letter exchanges
took place. In 1979, comrades K.
Thanikasalam (editor of the magazine “Thayaham”) and KAS visited the
People's Republic of China. Wherever he went, the letters written by comrade
KAS stirred global awareness and social
consciousness.
Comrade K.A. Subramaniam wrote to me about their
journey to Kunming in Yunnan Province, China,
near the Vietnam border, from December 1 to 6, 1979. “Mani- (For me
Valliammai), We stayed in Kunming, a city in the Yunnan Province of China, on
the outskirts of Vietnam. You know the war that occurred here at the China-Vietnam border, right? We visited several
places. One-third of the population in this province belongs to 22 ethnic
minority groups. There are many opportunities to learn here. This is where the
largest stone forest in the world is located, similar to one in Italy but much smaller. Daily, thousands
of people, including foreigners, come to enjoy it. It is filled with natural
resources, various gardens, and ancient art represented in buildings and
paintings, with a variety of grains, rice, and fruits.”
In 1980, my sister Lakshmipillai moved to Nigeria with her 3 children, where her
husband was studying. My brother married on his own in 1974 in Trincomalee and had been working there.
My parents wished to maintain the house they built, so they stayed there. My
parents would occasionally visit us at Sathiamanai. My children would take care
of their needs. Particularly, my younger son Keerthy stayed with them. After
seven months, my sister returned to Sri Lanka with her family at the time of my
father’s passing. My mother also passed away seven days later.
I often wept when listening to my mother recounting
the story of Nalayini who is said to have even carried the disabled husband in
a basket to a prostitute's house when he wanted to visit her. My mother endured
everything for my father in her life. My beautiful, educated mother not only
lost her sense of self in her final days but also her awareness. These memories
have lingered in my mind. I would feel ashamed when my children looked after
me. I was not like that. The limited economic resources, lack of relationships,
and the political backdrop altered my life. I noted this in the earlier
chapters.
After completing the final ceremonies for my father
and mother, sister and brother returned to their respective homes. Both Rasan
and Keerthy would light lamps and pray at the home where my father and mother
lived. At Sathiamanai, we could only manage to build a one-room house with
loans. The salary began to decrease. If we had electricity in the house, we
could install a motor for the children’s education and the garden. Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master next door provided us
free of cost with the connection for two electric bulbs to illuminate the
place. For us to connect to electricity, we would need to install five posts,
which would require money for the connection. I pawned my ‘Thali’ at the bank to get the connection. We had nothing else. I
had a few jewels belonging to my sister. With the hope of recovering them when
my sister returned, I pawned her ‘Thali’
without asking for her permission. By installing the motor, we could produce
coconuts, papayas, mangoes, bananas, and various vegetables, and we believed we
could recover the jewels.
The joy of “the children are studying” was immense. My
daughter, after achieving excellent marks in the fifth-grade scholarship
examination at the Pandateruppu Women’s College, had the opportunity to stay in
the hostel. Over time, due to some hygiene issues in the hostel, she returned
to study from home. When the principal collected a certain amount for her
studies, she received it. With that money, Buby delightedly presented a blue
bicycle to her father, comrade KAS. Keerthy had moved from Chulipuram Victoria
College to Tellippalai Mahajana College with the help from
comrade KAS’s brother Mr. A. Ilangai Nayagam.
The neighbors praised, “What’s happening to you,
Teacher! Is it good fortune? Rasan will go to University next year. Buby is a
scholar. It seems Keerthy is going to get a scholarship.” They would also
quote, “A boy’s poverty lasts only till he is ten.” But the earth was not
forgiving.
My eldest son began to shift his political
perspective. I was unaware of this. When liberation fighters sought political
advice from comrade KAS, he would solely listen and mingle with them. I viewed
him as just a small boy. He, who had excelled in the NCGE (National Certificate
General Education), began to come home late occasionally, and he seemed to be
losing interest in his higher education in the biology field. His friend, Dr
Bhavani Gnanachandramurthy, joined the medical faculty.
But... Rasan! The neighbor, Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master's son Paran,
remarked, “If you had let him take Political Science, he would have become a
brilliant student, just like his father , always speaking about politics.”
Indeed!
While Rasan was in the seventh grade, he started a
handwritten newspaper called “Sirupori.” Krishna Dasan would draw
its cover. I had mentioned this earlier. The newspaper included writings about
the situations in India, Sri Lanka, Vietnam, China, and Russia. If my husband
and I had been school teachers, we could have guided his studies. Many of those
who served as school teachers are always attentive to their children’s futures.
Those who work in remote locations or engage in other activities to support
their families often find that their lives are dictated by their circumstances.
Whenever I went out to work, I heard that friends like
Balamortay Sivam Gandhiyam Santathiyar, Sundaram Sivasanmugamurthy and others
from PLOTE came to visit Rasan. In a
house like ours, two houses down, Manonmani Teacher's friends would gather to
chat.
I only learned these details later. I was busy with my
work, and comrade KAS was preoccupied with party duties. Moreover, the riots of
1981 began... My period of trials was just beginning. To be continued...
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33.
Sundaram was shot dead by LTTE -Written on 31 October,
2020
National political sentiments were being fractured
along ethnic lines and politicized. Small incidents, searches, and arrests
occurred frequently. The TULF members held an election campaign meeting for the
district council at the Jaffna Nachchimar temple. During this time, police
officers on duty became targets of gunfire, resulting in the deaths of two
individuals. Following this, on the night of May 31, 1981, in the early stages
of the violence, major markets, commercial establishments, the 'Eelanadu' newspaper
office, and the public library in Jaffna were completely set ablaze. The
destruction extended to Chunnakam and Kangeyam. Over seventy thousand rare
books were burned in the Jaffna library. Our comrades actively protested
against this state violence.
For three months, I took leave from work to care for
my father and mother, who were both unwell and eventually passed away. I
resumed work afterward, but my focus on the children diminished. They, too,
suffered from declining health, and so did my comrade KAS. Government employees
went on strike and had stopped calling for work. As a loan was being deducted
monthly at the rate of Rs. 80 from my salary, I felt that I had fallen into a
significant predicament. The income from coconut trees I had planted earlier
aided me in managing this situation.
In Sri Lanka, farmers engaged in food production were
exerting significant effort in growing tobacco, onions, and chilies, earning
the Northern Province the title of “wealthy province.” Among government
employees, those earning Rs. 300 lived in families without any other source of
income, caught in the dilemma of “neither asking for alms nor accepting alms.”
Building our Sathiamanai house was not just a physical
task—it was a testament to our resilience and resourcefulness in the face of
challenges. With limited means, we took it step by step, using whatever
resources were available to make progress.
The roof was put together with cheaply available
Asbestos sheets, while the windows were temporarily covered with empty coni
bags, a creative solution that shielded us from the elements. Though the house
stood without a main door for some time, it became a home—a space filled with
warmth, determination, and the will to persevere. Every brick laid, every
corner built was a labor of love and hope. It wasn’t perfect, but it was ours—a
symbol of what we could achieve together, even in the hardest times.
Gradually, as circumstances improved, so did the
house. What started as a humble structure transformed into a place where
memories were made, challenges were overcome, and life was lived fully. The
Sathiamanai house remains a powerful reminder that strength and perseverance
can turn even the simplest of beginnings into something extraordinary.
In this context, my brother Mr. A. Ponniah faced an
unexpected and troubling urinary issue while reading Masters Degree in the University of Jaffna that he couldn’t comprehend.
When he was examined at the Jaffna Teaching Hospital, it was determined that
“the spinal cord in the lumbar region had been damaged, resulting in this
issue.” Immediate surgery was required, and arrangements had to be made for
blood donors. Consequently, our entire family had to rally together, leading to
a four-hour operation. A catheter was inserted, and he remained in the hospital
for two weeks before returning home. During this time, I took leave from work
to care for him. He continues to mention this situation to this day. My
sister-in-law, who was employed in Trincomalee, would visit on weekends.
I recall a photograph
which was taken in 1981 at the front of the entrance to the 'Sathiamanai' which
had no doors. My eldest son Sathiarajan, also known as ‘Meera Master’ of PLOTE with
the eldest son of my brother, Ponniah Lambotharan, who was born on 06 Jan 1974
and joined LTTE as ‘Viji’ in 1988 at the age of 14 years and my comrade K.A.
Subramaniam. Later all 3 had different political ideologies and passed away
now. Early 1990 IPKF was preparing to leave Trincomalee, with its allied groups
preparing to decamp with them. That was the situation at the ENDLF camp in Uppuveli. The camp
had a number of cadres who had caught a debilitating tropical infection and
were convalescing. The LTTE attackers came by sea including our child
Lambotharan (Viji). Hardly meeting any resistance LTTE killed over ten ENDLF
members groaning in sickness, loaded the captured weapons into boats and set
off. One of the heavily laden boats capsized - it being the north-east monsoon
- and about 22 LTTE men were drowned and then killed by IPKF. Only two senior
persons survived and our beloved child Lambotharan was killed in Uppuveli
seashore by IPKF at the age of 16. I looked after him as a baby at Sathiamanai
and was very upset that he joined LTTE even after knowing what happened to
Rasan.
As time passed, I would walk from Chulipuram to
Moolai. My legs were always in motion. Meanwhile, my eldest son began meeting
with liberation fighters, claiming to go to his grandmother’s house to light
lamps and using that as a cover for his encounters. He became a guard for the
initial fighters throughout the day. In the morning, he would return home in
the evening, hang up his gang. My younger son, without saying anything, never
mentioned any of this to me. There was hardly any time to talk with the children.
My comrade KAS would only come home at night. Days turned into weeks, and my
well-studied son, who had performed excellently in his studies, failed to
qualify for University. This brought tremendous sorrow.
While running for work, I began to worry that I might
lose my children’s education. Comrade Paramanantham was the manager at the
Colombo Continental Hotel, and he would visit our home frequently. He urged me
to enroll my daughter in Chundukuli, where his wife worked as a
chemistry teacher. Their home was in Chundukuli. To prepare for the morning
journey with my daughter to Chundukuli, comrade KAS. left for Jaffna.
On that day, 2nd January 1982 in the morning,
dedicated liberation fighter comrade Sundaram , was shot dead at Chithra
Printers by LTTE. Upon hearing this, comrade KAS turned back with daughter
instead of going to Chundukuli. This event affected everyone deeply. The
Marxist consciousness and doubts were stirred by comrade Sundaram, who frequently visited and
nurtured relationships. My eldest son Rasan became extremely upset because of
this. At that time, I didn’t realize the impact of this situation.
Days went by; it was also Navaratri. The ninth puja of our family deity,
Bhadrakali, was to be performed at our house. We would do it ourselves as we
always did before my departure. After I left home, my sister managed the
ceremony. After she moved to Nigeria, my brother would send the money for the
arrangements. I thought I would manage it.
My children and I prepared rice, lentils, milk,
firewood, pots, and banana leaves, and we went to the temple. I called Rasan,
“You go ahead; I’ll join you shortly.” But he didn’t come to the temple. By the
time the puja finished around eight o’clock at night, it was nearly nine by the
time we returned home. Usually, after the Navaratri or Thiruvempavai puja, we would share temple
offerings with all our neighbors. That night, since Rasan was not home, Keerthy
and I went to neighboring houses to distribute the offerings. Everyone would
usually invite us for meals during the auspicious time of their festivals. In
those days, we didn’t have the convenience of mobile phones to contact
everyone.
Even by midnight, Rasan had not returned home. I was
filled with dread. Where could I search for him? I felt as if I had been
blinded and was in a daze. What should I tell my comrade? My daughter and I
were crying. My younger son Keerthy was constantly going in and out. Whenever
we hear the sound of a bicycle, all three children would run to greet comrade
KAS usually. On that day Rasan was not there. “Did the children eat? What
happened today?” was the usual question from comrade KAS, to which my daughter
replied, crying, that she hadn’t seen her brother. To be continued...
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34.
The Disappearance of My Eldest Son
-Written on 10 November, 2020
When we realized that Rasan was missing, we began to
cry together. Comrade KAS was at the edge of the garden, silent for a while. I
called Keerthy and asked if he knew anything about Rasan’s whereabouts. He
seemed uncertain, saying, “He will come.” However, comrade KAS didn’t have
dinner that night. Early the next morning, Rasan entered through the side of
the house.
“Why, Rasan?” I asked, unable to express my fear and
concern. “What did Dad say?” was his response. My son stood in the garden,
talking with my daughter. I went to them and urged, “You both should go and
explain things to Dad and ask for his forgiveness.” He replied, “Why? They are
big people. You are just kids. Their politics are different... Dad is on the
right.” My son Rasan added, “You won’t understand. I won’t come back to this
place again.” “Oh, brother…” the others
started to cry softly, and he quietly went inside the house.
I told my comrade, “They say he’s lying down somewhere
in hiding, scared.” I spoke this falsehood as a typical mother, trying to
shield my son’s mistakes. But his actions changed. Every day, he would
translate significant news, including the editorials from the *Island* English
newspaper. He was responsible for ensuring that water was provided for the
newly planted coconut, mango, and banana trees. Keerthy took care of all these
tasks for his elder brother.
Hiding my son’s mistakes from my comrade was a
significant error. Time passed, and Rasan’s political involvement caused me
distress. I feared that the police might come searching for my husband,
followed by the army searching for my son.
In 1981, following the attack on the Aanikottai police
station, military personnel searched for Sundaram, who was known as Sadasivam
Sivasanmugamoorthy, Ganapathipillai Kadirgamanathan, and Ganapathipillai
Sivenesan. They arrested many people in our village, including Arumugam Sheyone
from Pannankam.
In 1982, the Jaffna-Karainagar Road became a pathway
for the naval base. One evening while I was walking to work on the
Jaffna-Karainagar Road, at the junction of the Paanavetti, the Navy patrol was
attacked. Following the attack, military vehicles began arriving in our
neighborhood, leading to the arrest of many, including Mayilvaganam Chinniah,
who owned a bicycle shop near the Chulipuram Bhadrakali temple and a student
Ganapathipillai Mayilvaganam from Chulipuram Victoria
College.
By July 1983, an attack was conducted against army
personnel traveling on a vehicle in the Jaffna-Tirunelveli area on July 23.
Thirteen soldiers were killed in that attack. This incited violence not only in
Colombo but also against the Tamil people living in the hill country. Among
those arrested were Tamil political prisoners such as Thangathurai and
Kuttimani, as well as several others, 3 from our village, including a child
Ganapathipillai Mayilvaganam, Arumugam Sheyone, and Mayilvaganam Chinnaiya. A total
of fifty-three Tamils were killed. The nation was in turmoil. Should I say
more?
My eldest son completely withdrew from home. This made
my comrade deeply worried. He began to blame me for my son’s actions. In turn,
I shifted the blame to my youngest son Keerthy. We were engulfed in tears. I
saw a wall poster that read, “The way to change is to bear arms with strong
hands.” It bore my son’s signature! Did I not know my son’s handwriting?
Another poster proclaimed, “To the Tamil mothers laboring for the nation, will
you not offer a son to the cause?” This was seen by anyone passing by that
road.
My comrade must have discovered those signatures.
While we thought that national unity could bring liberation to the people, my
son believed in fighting for rights divided by ethnicity. What a massive
discord this created within our household! With the attack on the Batticaloa
prison and the recruitment of fighters... To be continued…
35.
The Jailbreak in Batticaloa
-Written on
I had forgotten to mention two other individuals who
influenced Rasan during his college life. Both Vadaliyadaippu Sotheeswaran
alias PLOTE Kannan and Suresh alias
Surendran Sundaralingam were top students and leaders of the Scouts Division at the Chulipuram Victoria
College. They used to visit our home to read books owned by my comrade KAS.
Initially introduced by Sundaram and Chandathiyar, I later
understood that their purpose for coming was to discuss political matters with
my brother. Their conversations may have influenced the leftist leanings of the
*Puthiyapathai* ( New Way ) movement.
Kannan and Suresh were mainly responsible for legally
printing and distributing Sundaram's *Puthiyapathai* magazine.
After Sundaram's assassination, both of
them went missing. Later, Kannan revealed that Rasan had sheltered him safely
during that time. Rasan’s political stance caused significant distress, not
only to me but also to the understanding within our household. This deeply
troubled my comrade.
Students from our village said that Rasan was
attending political classes at Chulipuram Victoria College. Subsequently,
stories began to circulate about Rasan giving speeches at several schools in
the area (nearly all schools in the Jaffna district), temples, and community
centers, and about several youths fleeing their homes. I learned that students
from Vattukottai Jaffna
College were among those who attended Rasan's political classes, and soon after,
all students of Markandu Kannadasan alias Venkat’s class went to India for
training. Among them were Kanthan, son of my classmate Poologavathy, followed
by Paramaguru Ganadevaguru, son of my classmate Pannagam Amudavalli, and Sangarathai Sasidharan, Sivakanthan, son of
Nagalingam Master, Sithankerney Sivachandran, etc. went. Not only
that, most of the PLOTE soldiers who had completed their training were killed
by the Sri Lankan Navy along with a boat in the Indian Ocean. Not even a body
was found (there is an unsubstantiated story that this was due to betrayal by
LTTE ). Among them, many were acquaintances. The pains of agony are
indescribable. I remember a poem I wrote earlier. I recalled that poem I had
written:
> "Father and mother will not permit,
> Because of a decision taken by yourself,
> By praying to Sundaram, guided by Chandathiyar...
> Having severed ties with misfortune...
> Devotedly serving the Tamil cause...
> Every thought and action moving forward without
hindrance...
> Having endured contempt, loving the freedom...
> In the ominous prison, a fortress of darkness...
> Years and ages have passed!
> In the evening light, leaving a loving home...
> Without going to meet comrades, waiting on the
path...
> Leaving to study, turning the tide of fate...
> Loving liberation while being labeled as guilty...
> With the accusation that they conspired for the
‘Tamil Nation’...
> Was it only my son? Thousands more...
> Families, relationships, all gone to waste..."
A relative told me that there were dozens of sandals
left at my parent’s home. Those traveling to India by boat were not allowed to
enter the boat with shoes on. This was a story my youngest son shared. I
wondered what would happen if the military saw that pile of sandals. I was
worried about Rasan. His friends were displeased with me, wondering if I had
said something wrong. They said that all those sandals were taken away in a
sack by someone.
On September 23, 1983, the jailbreak in Batticaloa took place. Following the
Colombo and Welikada prison
massacres on July 23-25, 1983, Tamil political prisoners who had escaped were
transferred to Batticaloa prison. Among them were 41 political prisoners who
planned to escape. With the help of arms smuggled in from outside, they escaped
in groups. Taking advantage of this opportunity, 150 inmates who were
imprisoned for other reasons also escaped. Notable among those who escaped were
Douglas Devananda, Ramalingam Paramadeva, Panankadai Maheswaran, S.A. David, Manikkadasan, Parandhan Raajan, and many
others.
Two individuals who greatly aided from outside for
this escape were ‘Parthan’, also known as Rajasathurai Jayachandran, and
Ramalingam Vasudeva. One day, Rasan brought both of them home to confirm that
his father was not at home. He said they wished to meet my husband. I felt this
was a source of joy, but also a source of great anxiety. I offered them water
and then shared about the political disagreements between my husband and my
son. I figured they might have already met my comrade. I still don’t know anything
about that.
However, later, Rasan’s friends told me that he had
worked hard to save those who escaped from the jailbreak and sent them to Tamil
Nadu. Recently, Rasan’s friend Sriharan Sivasingaraja shared details about this
jailbreak. I will include it here; take a look… https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10159033644236111&id=581066110&sfnsn=mo .
The Batticaloa
Jailbreak
The "Batticaloa Jailbreak" was an incident
that involved the rescue of political prisoners. This jailbreak was not only
remarkable and terrifying but also liberated many detainees who rejoined their
respective liberation movements. The jailbreak was seen not merely as a
military operation but as an action that would inspire a wave of enthusiasm
among the people. Moreover, the people perceived it as a rescue operation for
the lives of the political prisoners associated with all movements and a unifying
action for the movements that had been advocating for unity.
Many who were released during this jailbreak are no
longer alive today, while some continue to live as witnesses. Now, returning to
the fragment that was released by Pulaththin, despite all these characters and
contributions, the details of the jailbreak were shared unofficially by other
movements. As mentioned before, the distribution of pamphlets began. The
contents of these pamphlets faced several criticisms and refusals, and the
leadership that would decide remained uninvolved. Printing pamphlets became
complicated due to the imposition of curfews, disturbances, and fears. However,
we had to find a way to print and distribute them among the people.
The pamphlet texts came to me in handwritten form. I
was given the responsibility for printing them. As the curfew was imposed, no
printing presses would be open. How could we print these pamphlets under such
pressure? While I was pondering this, I received information about a printing
machine that was operated by foot in a secluded area. This printing machine
belonged to a private resident, and its location was discreet, making it
naturally a safe place, away from the main roads.
The owner agreed to do the printing work for the
pamphlets. He would provide the ink and paper required for it and pay the
required wages for the work, promising that no one would interfere with this
work during those days. However, he insisted that I would be responsible for
operating the foot-driven machine since it was not electric. He explained how
to operate it.
While we were printing in his secluded printing press,
he remained cautious, ensuring that the operation took place without any
commotion or disturbances. For two whole days, he entrusted us with the
responsibility of printing, ensuring that no military informants could report
us.
Finally, the pamphlets were printed and packed into
bags. After the darkness fell, we moved them to a safer location before their
distribution. He was fully aware that this was just a small contribution to a
greater cause. He conducted this printing work without any pressure or urgency
from any organization. He considered it his contribution towards justice. The
payment he received was merely a fair portion of his labor.
Now the pamphlet bags needed to be transferred from
his house. During a dark evening, they came, arriving on bicycles. They also
left with pamphlets containing revolutionary ideas.
On a bleak evening, they were coming. The newcomers
arrived on bicycles. The bundles containing the pamphlets changed hands. The
leader of the group was someone I had never seen before. A few bystanders stood
at a distance and seemed to be looking at me. Even though I knew about him, I
had never met him directly, either before or after that time in Sri Lanka.
However, he was arrested by the Sri Lankan government in 1984 and imprisoned.
The very movements that had arisen claiming to fight
for the liberation of the people had turned into oppressors. They offered
oppression to the people, who were yearning for unity among the various
factions. All movements revealed their fascist faces by committing greater
massacres against other groups. After the massacre of the Sinhalese public in
Anuradhapura, which had been orchestrated by India, the Sri Lanka-India Accord
was signed on July 26, 1987, and in the following months, he was released. Thirteen
years later, in 1995, he came to see me in another country. Unlike today's era,
there was no communication technology back then. He was searching for me with
only my address.
“Golden flowers
bloom and shine brightly;
May the
honorable patrons have good fortune.
The esteemed
nobleman from the renowned land,
May the vine
grow near the entrance."
Just like the small scholar who guided Thamipran to my
house by giving an answer to his son, I too reached my residence when he
arrived and confirmed that it was indeed the correct place. Seeing children
playing nearby, I recognized that this was indeed my home, and he introduced
himself as the son of my neighbor. It was astonishing because he recognized my
face in the dark from a distance, identifying it even after 13 years since we
last met. This was the first time I was seeing him in person.
Having married, he lived very close to us in the city,
recognized as a refugee by the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees.
Later, he moved to our city. Time passed. After staying temporarily in Canada
for some time, he returned to Tromsø, Norway. During his journey to India, he
stayed at my house as a stopover before going back to his previous city. He
informed me that he planned to go to Chennai in the coming days.
I sent him by boat to stay at my house as a stopover
on his journey to India and then to his previous city. From there he bids
farewell saying that he will be going to Chennai in the next few days. Then
comes the news of his death in a car accident in Chennai (25 August 2001).
However, before that, I received news that he died in a car accident in
Chennai.
On the day he was to depart by boat, I learned that he
had taken them to a famous hill station via the cable car and had sung the song
“I want to live like that bird” from M.G.R's films, enjoying the moment. You
can listen to his voice from the 17th minute here: [link](https://youtu.be/dEBDUZxaMmk ). - Sriharan Sivasingaraja
October 31, 2020
Despite the rise of nationalist sentiments in the
country, my comrade continued to rise early as usual to work on party affairs.
Meetings with comrades continued. I was frightened as helicopters flew low over
our house two or three times. The next day, our house lights suddenly went out.
When I woke up and looked outside, the military had surrounded us. It was hard
to believe what I saw.
Our house didn’t have doors. The saying "Long
doors should also be opened with respect" applied here. Even the dog
didn’t bark. We had a dog named ‘Kittu’ and a cow named ‘Pattu’. (On Thai
Pongal 1983, we gave a lot of sugar pongal, and Pattu died. My neighbors said,
“It came for the head... It left with the cow.” They believed Pattu was
protecting Rasan from dying, which made me feel somewhat relieved.)
The military had come, stopping their vehicle's engine
and pushing it forward by hand. Therefore, there was no noise. Surrounding
military personnel began calling out, “Sathiarajan Subramaniam,” and “Meeran
Master.” At that moment, I realized that the name 'Sathiarajan' was given by
comrade V. Ponnambalam not the only one belonging
to my son. Army knew everything about the people who had come and gone from
India.
My comrade spoke about his political stance openly.
The military officer who came later also discussed his political views
differently. He might have been a Muslim; his speech sounded that way.
Moreover, until I handed over my son to them, the military made my comrade go
to the military camp once a month.
I didn't know what to do. My comrade’s distress caused
me great pain. Where is my elder child, who showed so much promise? Is he
eating? I was crying, and the military rummaged through the torn books at the
Sri Lanka Broadcasting Corporation, which had a letter for Rasan regarding a
job offer. My comrade, upon looking at it, remarked, "He seems to be very
active now... You wouldn't know if you asked him. Do you remember the story of
the thief who bit his mother's nose?”
I concealed some things, but that day, I truly knew
nothing. My days passed in housework and cooking. I would cut down green
coconut leaves and cook only after heating them on the stove.
I kept returning to seek blessings from the goddess of
the temple. The military was suspicious. After a little while, my neighbor Mr.V. Rajasundaram came over and said, “Don’t
be afraid. Keerthy can stay with me and study. Just be careful with your
daughter.”
That evening, Ravi had escaped from the Punduloya riots and came home. Keerthy
told Ravi everything that had happened. My comrade's worry upset Ravi too.
"If you have to go to the Elepantpass military
camp
as per the Army’s demand, then I will come as a companion," said Ravi. To
be continued...
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36.
Father, the General Secretary!
Son, 'Meeran Master'! -Written on 12 December, 2020
Hundreds of young people from our village began to
leave their homes. When children went missing, parents ran to our house without
realizing the political conflict in our home. If they had understood it, they
wouldn’t have come, right? I am still trembling in anguish, unable to allow my
comrade to hear their grief. I wonder if my eldest child has eaten? If he has
slept? I am struggling to figure out whom to complain to. As soon as they
arrive near our courtyard, some are seen with their heads lowered.
Comrade KAS went to the Elepantpass military
camp
one day a month a few times with the help of Ravi and used to sign as per the
Army’s demand. Many have gone abroad due to the unrest. During a video
discussion with comrade Devakumaran (Kumar) in Italy, he spoke about the role of diaspora
conversation he had. Comrades S. Thevarajah and S. K. Senthilvel were also present. I
consider that discussion to be of great importance.
“Tamils who have left Sri Lanka should unite with
Sinhalese comrades there to protect the unity and independence of the nation.
Otherwise, the truth is that they have gone due to economic difficulties. Fine,
they might have taken that situation, but in the future, they should work for
the country's welfare and freedom. But I believe they are committed to that
cause. Kumar has already come back for the second time. He has experiences from
Italy. There have been real changes happening in Italy. Economic and social
developments have also taken place. Those who have gone from here must
contribute to building up the Italian economy and safeguarding its freedom
while also playing a part in protecting our country’s freedom and building its
economy. For that, they must involve the youth of Sri Lanka there by providing
them with education and enlightening them about the country’s situation to be
of service.” The video link for this is available on the 'Sathiamanai' website.
(https://sathiamanai.blogspot.com/1982/06/?m=1 )
In early 1984, I had the opportunity to interact with Professor S.
Sivasegaram when he stayed in Sathiamanai to participate in Professor K. Kailasapathy’s memorial meeting was
organized by the National Arts and Literary Association in Jaffna Veerasingam Hall before he leaving for a
foreign country (UK). Professor S.
Sivasegaram later wrote about it and also in 1994 he visited us when we were living
in Kandy.
In between, Rasan had visited India a few times. They
can reach the Tamil Nadu coast in fifty minutes from our village, Thiruvadinilai beach, using fast boats. The
Indian and Sri Lankan Navy/Coast Guard is the only threat. On one of those
visits, Rasan came to see me along with Rajendrarah Vasantharajah, a friend
from Trincomalee, known as 'Chrishti' who was killed later in Vavuniya while escaping
from the military patrol. They didn't stay for even five minutes. I couldn't
even serve them tea. There was more fear about the arrival of the father than
the worry that someone would come to arrest them. I shared the same feeling.
After he left, I cried. For a while, there was a time when parents spoke
proudly about their children, who had gone to fight. Until then, deaths had not
been significant.
During this time, Janarthanan, popularly known as
Vadaliyadaipu 'Jana,' was killed in a motorcycle accident. Kamala, a teacher
who worked with me, lived nearby. Rasan said he conducted the final rites for
him. I often remember the beautiful little boy, reading the novel 'Veeram Vilainthathu' (How the Steel Was Tempered) by Nikolai Ostrovsky while lying on the ground.
During this time, comrade Kadiravelu, a former officer
of the Petroleum Corporation (the father of Minister Douglas Devananda), had stayed with us for a
while. Because of that, comrade KAS also spent more time at home. I had special
affection and respect for him. I considered it a blessing to have had the
chance to take care of him like an elder brother. In reality, he was someone
who gave me support and love when I was alone without any help. Since both he
and my comrade were at Sathiamanai, Rasan stopped visiting the house. Here,
comrades were discussing both unprincipled practices and policies with me.
My comrade also critiqued the determination and
dangers involved in India providing training to freedom fighters. Some young
people listened closely. Some did not accept it. The Sri Lankan government
showed initiative in planned settlements. During this time, the party began to
spread throughout Sri Lanka with the new comrades, including S. Rajendran, who
had worked at the hill stations.
In 1984, the first National Congress of the Sri Lanka Communist
Party (Left) took place. On September 2 and 3, 1984, the first national congress of
the party was held, during which comrade K. A. Subramaniam was elected as the first
General Secretary of the party.
The government’s law and order administrative
structures deteriorated. Thieves, criminals, and evil forces attempted to take
advantage of this situation. They used the names of movements. At that time,
the people were only familiar with the names of certain movements. Many members
from the movements were unknown to the people. It was a time of clandestine
operations. It was rare to see those wandering around with “I am a movement”
throwing a “law killing” at someone. When I think of it, my stomach churns. My
son is not the only one; many children of many mothers have flown away from
home. Parents who cannot speak out are crying inside. Many have dropped out of
school, why... many have even dropped out of university. Some families have
only one child. Where have they gone? Is it within the country? Or to India...
no one knows. Along with that, some people have stirred up a ruckus. The saying
was that “If the parents are government employees, their jobs will be at risk.”
If that were the case, many of the fighters’ parents, especially mothers, would
be government servants. Even Malaysian youths, who heard the news of the
killing of Tamil political prisoners at the Welikada Prison on the radio, renounced
their families and left their country to India and joined the Tamil Liberation
Movements. In some houses even girls have gone like that. My comrade's cousin
brother's daughter from Chulipuram also went to India to join the
movement. His mother came home for the first time. But he was understanding and
generous. Thousands of youths from northern and eastern provinces left to
fight. A few months have passed like this...' Some powders are coming from
India. "The government is going to kill Amy to catch them," said the
commoners. In the meantime, the November month announcement came. I don't do
any kind of work at home after Rasan leaves home. On that day, I was expecting
that 'perhaps 1984....Karthikai Vilakeedu (November Illumination) Rasan may
come home'. Because from the day when he was a small child... along with my
father, Rasan used to cut the banana peel beautifully for the presentation...
under the lamp. A warehouse is cut and coconut oil is left inside half of a dry
coconut and burnt. Throughout the day they cut thorn sticks, wrap them in white
cotton cloth and dip them in a bowl of oil. Look for big oysters and take
them.... They are special lamps for Ammi and Ural. They melt the rice flour
and dip their right hand into it and sign the doors singing 'Mavili ... Sangli ... Varusam Orukka Vaa,,,
Vaa..'. It will be a happy illumination night for the boys and girls.
Just as we thought... Around seven o'clock in the
night, along with Rasan, came a friend named Ponnambi ( Suhan Kanagasabai, present-day live in Paris). I gave them bananas and porridge.
Rasan split the porridge in two and said, 'One mouth for brother, one mouth for
sister'. At that time the electricity suddenly stopped.
After a couple of minutes, when the power came back
on, they hurried away saying, "It's a good omen." That day was the
last day that Rasan came to Sathiamanai. His friend, Suhan Kanagasabai, who came with him, is still
living in France. He is still in touch with us. During the same period in 1984,
six LTTE infant militants were abducted and killed in Chulipuram. Later I
clarified in 1988, my son Meeran Master said about the incident... "He had
no direct connection with the incident and said that if he had known, he would
have prevented it." All those who died in this incident were very close
friends of our family. We share in their family's grief.
In this period, on December 11, 1984, curfews were
imposed 72-hours in the northern Jaffna District, Sri Lanka, including
Piranpattu, Pandateruppu, Mathagal, Valikamam West, Vaddukoddai, Araly,
Chankanai, Moolai and Chulipuram. To be continued...
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37.
Meeran Master was Arrested
-Written on 8 January, 2021
On that Karthikai Vilakeedu day, not just our house, but also
the house of Ms. Vijayalakshmi
Sivapragasam in Tholpuram and my neighbor Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master’s house, he visited
with Suhan Kanagasabai. At that time, Rajasundaram
Master had told Rasan not to stay here and the Army intended to roundup this
area soon. Moreover, the next day, he came to our house and conveyed this
message.
On December 11, 1984, early in the morning, the Sri
Lankan army imposed a 72-hours curfew that included our village, as well as
Mathakal, Chillalai, Piranpattu, Pandateruppu, Valikamam West, Vaddukoddai,
Araly, Chankanai, Moolai, Vadakampirai, Chulipuram Victoria College, Paralai
Murugan Temple, Thiruvadinilai, and all the surrounding villages.
Keerthy was at Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master's house studying.
Since Rasan had already given instructions, there was confidence that he would
be safe. Because of that, although we were somewhat less fearful, there was
still a certain anxiety within me. Suddenly, my comrade asked, “Is Rasan in the
village?” I replied, “Yes, Keerthy said so. ” That was all I heard apart from a
half word. Earlier, there had been a report in a newspaper about a Jaffan
University’s medical college student from Vavuniya named ‘Lavan’ who was
arrested and stated in his testimony that he had contact with ‘Meeran Master’
and that he was translating the book ‘Mao’s Military Strategies.’ Surely, my
comrade must have seen that news. But he didn’t say anything about it. That
memory suddenly resurfaced.
People said that the leader of the PLOTE organization,
Uma Maheswaran, was standing nearby in
Chulipuram. On that day, the comrade was at home. After making a meal from our
land products murunga (drumstick) curry and fried plantains, I was distressed
and unwilling to eat. There was no calm on my comrade's face either. This may
have even been my astonishment.
Around seven o'clock in the evening, Ravi came to the
house. This greatly angered my comrade. “Running around like this will have
serious consequences. Why have you come?” he asked, concealing the familiar
reply. Ravi did not say anything. Keerthy had already informed about Rasan
coming that evening. That’s why Ravi ran
to know the situation at home in such a panic. They were all young men. Though
he was a teacher, his age raised doubts. “The whole village is in turmoil. Stay
alert and remain at your home; that is the safest option,” we told Ravi.
Night fell. The next day was marked by an increase in
severe searches and killings. On that day, Gunathilakam Bhaskaran, who was
running to protect university students, was shot near the Tholpuram market. He
was in a state where he could not be protected with injuries. Even then, that
evening, his brother tried to save him, but he died. On the same day, during an
opposing protest in front of the Paralai Murugan Temple, Kandiah Ainkaran was
shot. Son of my friend Mrs. Ranjitham Kandiah. He was arrested with injuries
and died without receiving treatment in custody. On that day, several outsiders
also died in our village. Many from our neighboring village who were moving
towards our village were caught in the rain and flood, many died without
treatment, injured.
Thirunavukarasu Jagadeeshwaran and Kathiramalai
Nandeesan died in the vicinity of the Amman Temple on the third day. Not only
them, but more than 21 people died on that day in our village. The sounds of
unrest were heard in the middle of the third day. On December 15, 1984, the
curfew was lifted at 7 a.m., and the outsiders began to move a little. Everyone
came to inquire about Rasan. All the days he spent were filled with meetings at
schools, temples, and community centers.
Because of that, the people treated him like their own
child and inquired about him through one another. The entire villages were
filled with cries of death. No one knew who died, everyone was searching for
their relatives. There were cries about the injured, where are the prisoners?
There were no answers to the questions. Would the missing be found? Many had
wandered about like lifeless bodies in the village for several days. The next
morning, a girl who studied with Rasan at the college came with a message from
Mullaitivu saying that a child from their home had been shot near the third
junction. She came to know the truth.
Later, it was said that Ponnavadi Jnanakanesh, known
as ‘Babu,’ was shot and killed while being transported in a vehicle. He was
born to a family with three or four girls. A tall, handsome boy who studied at
Jaffna Hindu College. I wept uncontrollably. It was said that in the very
incident of Babu’s death (before reaching Chankanai junction), “Azhiyathagolam
and Vasanth (from Chunnakam) were injured. Palamottai Sivam (Periya Mendis),
Vijayapalan (Chinna Mendis), and Gopu (from Chulipuram) narrowly escaped.”
Keerthy came and informed me in the evening.
“Everyone knows Rasan is missing; no one knows
anything,” he said. I felt fear. Where to go and ask? Ravi came. All three of
us laid our burdens on him, and he left to make inquiries.
Some friends of Rasan came and said, “He was standing
there, he was standing here.” When Rasan last came home, he was wearing
something like a white sleeveless vest. He showed it to his brother and sister
and explained, “This is a Bullet Proof Jacket.” It was a fabric similar to
banana stem fiber. I touched it as well. The next day, a young man came to the
house wearing the same Jacket. Buby wept and asked, “Where is my brother?” He
pointed at him and said, “He brought this.” At that moment, we realized that he
was also searching for Rasan.
On the fifth day, evening we heard the news that
“Someone was shot by the army in the fields of Paralai, and blood was lying.”
With this news, Buby and Keerthy rushed to Paralai. They went in the morning
and returned in the evening. When they returned, their hands were stained with
blood. They brought with them a cut piece of grass soaked in blood and placed
it in the lower part of the house, saying, “This is brother’s blood.” For the
first time, my comrade cried.
“Where is my child? What happened? He cannot be dead,”
said my comrade. For me, I had a fear. For two days, we had been crying
non-stop. My comrade usually listens to the news on the radio at night.
In the news, it was announced, “The person known as
‘Meeran Master’ who is connected to the political activities of the People's Liberation
Organization of Tamil Eelam, Subramaniam Sathiarajan, has been arrested.” Buby
continued to weep until she went to see Rasan. I had the fear that my son might
have died, but the thought that he was alive somewhat comforted me. However,
the punishments he would face filled me with dread. The pain inflicted on my
child, who first showed me many difficulties, was immense.
In an environment where I couldn’t share anything with
my comrade, I toiled alone. Yet, I held onto the thought that Rasan would be
freed one day and immersed myself in temple worship.
Several young men, along with Rasan, had life
experiences in the army camps of Kuranagar, Fort, Pallali, and later in Pusaa,
Welikada... the prison life of various jails...
To be continued...
38.
Another Son Jayamanokaran
Saravanamuthu Gave his Life to save My Son, -Written on 20 January, 2021
After the December 1984, 72-hours curfew, we did not
know where my eldest son Rasan was being held by the Sri Lankan army after he
was captured. The college principal Mr. V. Rajasundaram, who lived nearby, comforted
me, saying he could find out. Accordingly, in late February 1985, we learned
that Rasan was imprisoned at the Kuranagar army camp along with several other
young men. (Even a good person like Mr. V. Rajasundaram was kidnapped and destroyed
by armed individuals; they did not even give his body back, which I will
explain later.)
Those who went to see the prisoners were required to
provide their name, address, and identification card, and to obtain a letter of
permission from the Jaffna Government Agent office. Based on that, one day, the
principal Rajasundaram Master, my daughter, and I set out in a hired vehicle.
The principal’s younger son Paran and his wife also came with us to see Eye
Doctor Kannuthurai. After instructing us to stay in the vehicle, Principal
Rajasundaram said he was going to the Jaffna Fort camp. We were disappointed,
thinking we might see Rasan. While we waited for him at the hospital, some
thoughtless people scared us by saying, “The army is bringing Rasan in a mask
to show their hideouts here and there.”
I had never moved this Palalai Pillai without wrapping
him in my arms. The priest, who was a scholar, learned Sinhalese among us (Sundaram, Santhathiyar, Guhapusani...
and a few others). He could recognize the tears I left behind. When he saw the
army outside the fields, he got out of the vehicle and stood alone to save
Rasan, sacrificing himself, Jayamanokaran Saravanamuthu. (His comrades call him
‘Comrade Rangan’ and affectionately ‘Aadu’.) He was from Mathakal. He studied
with my daughter Buby. We placed the grass soaked in his blood in front of
‘Sathiamanai,’ saying, “This is my son’s blood.”
That Jayamanokaran, who kept Rasan alive for another
fifteen years, I still remember today... Three months passed. The army did not
come to our village. If Rasan had shown up, the half-constructed housewives of
our village would have climbed the army camp with me. Most likely, someone from
each house had gone for training. No disaster occurred. Realizing that, the
villagers began to come closer again. I felt deeply troubled, reflecting on the
silence and concealments that had filled him.
In March 1985, the mothers of Tamil youths detained in
army camps were given permission to visit them. Moreover, they could only enter
the camp with a letter of permission from the Jaffna government official. Even
Principal Rajashundaram had difficulty doing that. Each had to obtain the
government official’s permission themselves. The principal stated that there
was a government charge against my son for having stolen the official’s
vehicle. My son’s comrades said he had stolen it for the use of the leader of
his movement. I attempted to meet the government official several times, but it
was unsuccessful. I had to take a letter to register our identity card number
at the office. There were many mothers like me present there.
Our neighbor Mr. Velupillai saw my distress and said,
“You stay in the house; I will take care of it.” Even that did not work out.
After a long effort, I finally got the letter from the government official. I
was planning to go alone to see Rasan but my comrade insisted on taking Buby
along. How could I bring a beautiful young girl to the army camp?
My comrade said, “She must bravely face this world and
live. This is her opportunity. She is intelligent and brave; she will be safe
with you. Take her along.” My work was in the small industry division of the
Sri Lankan government. Our monthly salary was paid through the head office
located near Chundikkuli. Our income and expenses were
submitted there. In any case, I had to go to the Chundikkuli office twice a month. Buby would
also go to Chundikkuli for her studies. But we had no
knowledge of Kuranagar in between.
The bus route number 782 Karainagar bus left early in
the morning, reaching Jaffna city, and again, we would have to board a small
vehicle to go back to the office, tightly packed, getting off at the school
near the bus station. The visits to see the prisoners were only possible on
weekends, and only two people were allowed. That street was deserted. The
desire to see Rasan made me forget my foot pain from walking along Mullu kampi veli (Army’s Fence) towards the Kuranagar camp. There, we were
still instructed to stop the vehicle a certain distance away, and after
arriving at the army office, we had to provide details such as the visitors’
details, and submit the letter from the government official to be allowed to
see the prisoners. There were food stalls and water bottles placed nearby.
Whenever we heard the sound of helicopters, we would
hide in the shade, and we could see the landing and takeoff of the large
aircraft up close. The dust raised by the swirling winds along with it brought
tears to our eyes.
After a long time, names were called one by one for
visits. After receiving permission, my daughter and I were taken to the back of
the building. This building was a multi-story structure built under a
resettlement plan by the housing division. That’s where the soldiers and
prisoners were. Another mother, like me, was there. She said she was from Kokkuvil. A few others were present;
they were there for other matters. After some time, Rasan was brought in by two
soldiers with weapons. Rasan's hands were handcuffed. Below his eyes, there
were some... circular burn marks, looking like they had been inflicted in half.
I did not ask about that. My beautiful, majestic child stood there, dejected
and unrecognizable, like a stranger. That moment has not left my eyes to this
day. A tremendous cry erupted in my heart. What were the tears of the three of
us?
No one spoke. Thousands of questions drowned within
the three of us.
Rasan requested us to take care of both father and
brother. In the time when there was no sound of the frog, many days passed,
“Rasan will be with you,” my comrade had left me. The oldest wealth of my heart
was Rasan, who had shown me much happiness. My mute friend, who sang loudly,
stood still in the hands of the strange soldier with a ‘mic.’
We had not brought any food items. We had no
information about that either. At any moment, he had a pen and a book. I asked
the child, “Will Rasan bring any books?” He hurriedly declined and insisted on
his sister’s and brother’s education. I understood what he was trying to
establish.
Where were you captured? What happened? Who else was
with you? Many questions arose without sounding. After a few moments, they took
Rasan inside. He did not turn back. I watched this happen four or five times.
Rasan’s friend from Tholpuram, who loved him
unconditionally, Ms. Vijayalakshmi
Sivapragasam, and Ms. Sinnaiya Gnambihai from the Pattharakali temple came to see
Rasan with me. We lay in wait, anxiously anticipating when the door would open,
saying, “Even if the sun scorches, even if the feet are worn out, we must see
the child.” They would show the first ones who came first. We are blessed to be
allowed to see the prisoners. Within that military compound, a branch of the
Sri Lankan bank was also operating. After the riots in 1983, the mothers of the
children who went abroad were there to collect the money sent by their
children. “This is our good fortune. Our child has escaped and is here to
collect the money sent from there,” I heard the voice of the mother of the
household saying.
At that moment, it raised a stir, but political
illiteracy was the reason behind our social structure’s incapacity. Without
properly applying that, politics is still conducted by putting forward
elections.
After three months, the prisoners were transferred to
the Jaffna Fort. The reason was that the Fort building was more secure than the
Kuranagar building, which was surrounded by ‘a ditch.’ There is an old saying:
“The government egg will break the housewife’s Ammi stone.” To be continued...
39.
In Jaffna Fort Prison with My Son
-Written on 9 February, 2021
On the weekend, as usual to meet the prisoners, we
went to the Kuranagar detention camp. It was only after arriving there that we
learned, "The prisoners have been transferred to Jaffna Fort prison." We woke up early in
the morning, prepared food, and set out to see Rasan, intending to return by
evening. The army's general announcement stated that we could see them on
Sundays, but they would call names only at appropriate times. This was conducted
in a disorganized manner. We were not allowed to bring food or clothing. The
child was very thin, which was painful for me. Neither my husband nor my son,
who were in politics, could lead a fulfilling life. Neither of them was
reported to have been sought after by the army for searches or attacks. My
colleague, Nagarajeshwary from Maviddapuram, was the brother of Master Nagaraja,
who was sought by the army. Later, he went to India. Santhathiyar the brother
of teacher Uruthiraschi had been around since the early days. Apart from that,
I did not know anyone else at that time. I did not share my troubles with
anyone. I had no time for that.
After a long wait, they finally told us that Rasan had
been transferred from the Kuranagar camp to the Fort. Then what? Just one road.
From the Jaffna bus station via the roundabout route... from the Mani Koondu (Clock) tower... heading
east... crossing the Rimmer Mandap entrance until we reached the Fort military
camp took over two hours. Every place we looked was filled with soldiers. There
were no civilians or any other vehicles. It was eerily quiet. Helicopters flew
over the Kuranagar camp. The public came to collect money from the bank. The
Jaffna Fort military camp was surrounded by ditches, and it was said that
crocodiles filled them. If any prisoners tried to escape, they would not be
able to get away from the crocodiles. That was the level of security in which
prisoners were held inside that Fort. Inside the Fort, there was also a hanging
tree where prisoners were once hanged. With such high security, the army was
confining prisoners within the walls of the Fort, and we approached the Fort in
the scorching sun.
I remember visiting
the Fort prison when comrades T. Tharmalingam, S. Palani, and Nadesu were imprisoned
during the repercussions of the caste protests in Jaffna. At that time, I felt
no fear. I had heard and read the stories of many prisoners who had been
detained there. Walking along, we showed our identification cards to the soldiers
on duty and went inside. Normally, mothers came to see the prisoners. But this
time, my daughter came along too. I was fearful for her safety. What if the
soldiers did something inappropriate? However, no one caused any disturbances
on that day. They seemed like ordinary children of poor families.
After entering, we showed our identification cards and
the letter of permission from the government official to the officer there,
receiving a ‘token’ number for visitors, and we sat in the waiting area. There
were two other people with us. We sat without any traditional greetings. They
would bring in the prisoners in a jeep from the inner side of the Fort.
According to the visiting number, they would call out the prisoners one by one.
Standing nearby were soldiers who understood Tamil, and I realized that most of
them belonged to the Muslim community. I can never forget the day I saw Rasan
in the Fort for the first time. A soldier standing with Rasan said, “Did your
parents say the mayor wants to meet you? I will bring him. Stay back.”
We stood there, looking into each other’s eyes. No one
spoke. A wave of grief surged within me. “Where is my child? What happened? He
must not be dead,” Rasan said. I too felt scared. As I watched Rasan’s face,
the soldier took a package from his sleeve. Oh! Is he going to shoot my child
right in front of me? I stood up in fear because Rasan's comrade Ketheeswaran
had told me that some people had been shot while trying to protect him when a
few individuals burned down the Nagavihara temple in Jaffna. Then, the army
killed him along with the captured youth. Rasan had shared this story with me.
Therefore, this officer’s actions raised my alarm.
Rasan’s expression was calm. “Mother, this weapon is
not ours; it’s a Russian-made pistol manufactured in 1984. Your son was holding
this. This vest is bulletproof. He was captured with these.” He told me he was
searching for my son at our house. I didn’t know what to say. Fear gripped me,
realizing the army had come into our home. Who can recall any faces? That
officer seemed to know everything. My daughter Buby stood there, crying.
Looking at her, he said, “Are you also from Palam? You are wearing a red and
black uniform.” That was the first time I understood the significance of that
outfit. Then he asked, “Was there any commotion when you came in?” The vest
Rasan wore, which he had brought from his body, seemed to have rolled on the
ground. It passed right before my eyes. When I explained this to Buby and
Keerthy, I left. It became evident that Buby would cry upon seeing that.
On that day, Rasan's comrades, who had loved him
unconditionally, were also present. He had been a wonderful son to me, someone
who had shown me sorrows, a true comrade who was once filled with joy and spoke
freely. His silence turned into a gaping void in my heart. A few weeks passed
after this event.
Later in the month of October, the Kanda Sashti
festival began. During this time, prisoners who were detained in the camps were
allowed to receive food only from their homes. They were allowed to eat
home-cooked food for the specified days of the festival, as permission was
obtained from the army officer.
According to the legends, the story of Lord Murugan is
one where the gods were imprisoned for refusing to carry fish under the orders
of the demons. Unable to bear the pain, they pleaded for Lord Murugan’s help,
and he fought against the demons. The Kanda Puranam also relates to this, and so
does the Kanda Sashti festival. Accordingly, bringing milk and fruits to give
away and providing vegetables on that day during the 1985 and 1986 Kanda Sashti
festivals were received by us.
We would bring boiled milk from the house next door
and prepare it with a little salt, then mix in vegetables and cook it. If we
could find fenugreek, bananas, or papayas, we would take those along too. This
exchange of information brought us closer together. To be continued...
40.
Letter Exchange in a Water Bottle
-Written on 23 February, 2021
Going to Jaffna Fort is extremely difficult. My
daughter and I were the only ones who got off the Karainagar bus to go to the
Fort. I later learned that some other mothers from Karainagar also came, after
their son Marin was released, they came searching for our house. Without
essential needs like hospitals, people do not come to Jaffna.
One day, I saw the burnt corpse of a youth hanging on
an electric pole. My hands and feet began to tremble. “Who is this child’s
parent?” The ones armed with guns had delivered death sentences to the people.
This filled me with anger and pain.
Next to the Jaffna bus station, near Pullukulam, is where we would arrive at
the Fort. However, we couldn't go that way. The hospital street, the Mani Koondu (Clock tower) street,
turning east, going down the second cross street, and then walking west would
take a long time to reach the fourth gate of the Fort. After showing my ID card
to the soldiers standing guard due to thirst, I had to enter. Many mothers like
me came there. Friendships began to form with them. It grew from one person's
visit across the prison boundaries, and later comrades imprisoned with Rasan
mentioned this. Notable individuals include EPRLF movement’s Thambirajah Subathiran alias Robert who was shot
dead on Saturday, June 14, 2003 by LTTE, Kumar (from Trincomalee), Kumar (from
Nuwara Eliya ), Guru from the TELO movement, Sothi from Karainagar, Maran from
the PLOTE organization, and others like Anbanathan, Thangavadivel, Ravi, and
Murali from the LTTE movement, who had lost their youth in prison with my son
and had worked together to safeguard the well-being of Tamil political
prisoners.
We discussed with the other mothers about sharing the
food items we would bring for the next week. After a few hours, they would
bring the prisoners in their vehicle and show them to us. They would only bring
one person at a time. They would take them back after about five minutes. We
could only see them every two weeks.
After Rasan was arrested, it was a cause of concern to
keep Keerthy in the village. Hence, in the heightened search for Rasan, Keerthy
was transferred from Tellippalai Mahajana
College with the help from comrade S.Sivathasan (Comrade KAS’s
brother-in-law) stayed at the Jaffna Hindu College hostel. At this point,
having Keerthy in Sri Lanka was a source of fear.
Keerthy was somewhat emotional. His childhood friend Vairamuthu
Shailakanthan (Sajakan)'s sister, Ms. Vairamuthu Chandramalar, was working as an
architectural draftsman in Colombo. When she visited the village, she said,
“Someone she knows is sending people abroad. If we could gather ten people, one
could go for free. We will send Keerthy with my brother. They can go there and
study.” I was struggling to provide for my family. The desire to take advantage
of an opportunity that required no money for travel crossed my mind. This
seemed like a good decision after being apart from my eldest son. But it was
clear that my comrade KAS wouldn’t agree.
After much struggle, my daughter Buby and I cried and
obtained comrade KAS consensus by giving assurance that Keerthy would continue
studying. We sent Keerthy with Ravi. Even though Keerthy stayed at my
son-in-law Ravi's relatives' house in Colombo for a few weeks after leaving the
hostel, they found no suitable travel arrangements. Hence, they both returned
to Sathiamanai. After that, Keerthy began studying from home with the help of
his close friend Sankaran Sivarathinam. Three months passed, and then in the
month of October, the Kanda Sashti
festival began.
In 1985, for the Kanda Sashti festival, permission was
given for milk and fruits to be sent from home, and on the sixth day, they
could bring and eat rice. My son told me that the army officer had issued the
orders. I had taken leave for that entire week. Milk and fruits were all we had
to eat. I woke up early in the morning and, after waking up Rajasathi akka, I
would boil the milk and pour it into the water bottle.
(Generally, milk is not obtained when the time changes
to early in the morning. The milk woman agreed to give me milk because of the
love she had for Rasan and the respect I had for her.) After boiling the fresh
milk and putting in various fruits and coconut, the last meal would be brought
back to him (as no weapons should be given or possessed inside). After five
days of fasting, there would be rice on the sixth day. On the first day, I
would provide food, talk briefly, wipe his face, and kiss him goodbye. On the
second day, I brought the milk in another bottle obtained from a neighbor,
boiled it, and, as usual, took fruits from our house—banana, mango, coconut
water—and additional fruits given by neighbors.
On the first day, I had given him a flask (water
bottle), which Rasan had brought back. When handing it over, he pressed his
sister’s hand and said, “Be careful with the water bottle. Be cautious.” After
passing the Fort gate, Buby said, “There must be something inside the flask.
Only by opening it will we know.” There would be soldiers on duty watching
closely. The soldiers, who stood guard behind tall fortifications, kept watch
diligently. Since it was dangerous if there were spies on the bus, we eagerly opened
it as soon as we reached Sathiamanai. But disappointment awaited us. All that
was left was sour milk, untouched and spoiled. We informed our comrade’s
household of our visit. After inspecting the bottle of hot water, he removed
the plastic bottom. Inside, a tiny piece of paper, neatly folded, fell out. As
they say, “Only a snake can recognize another snake's trail.” Slowly unfolding
it, it turned out to be cigarette rolling paper. It was a letter for his
comrades, written in secret code. We managed to deliver it to the intended
recipients through a friend who brought fruits to Rasan. In return, their
message and our love were exchanged the next day in the same manner — a
cigarette paper letter hidden in a bottle of hot water flask.
When my son Rasan was imprisoned, a small secret note
was hidden inside the base of a hot water bottle flask. (Later, in 1988, he
described how this was done: the military would use cigarette rolling paper and
sharp pens, draining the ink into one part to be used.) My comrade was deeply
concerned about Rasan's condition. Even though they stood on two different
ideological poles, Rasan was still a child who carried out his father’s duties
and instructions with respect. The suffering of the elder child, who first
showed signs of rebellion and was now enduring torture, pained my comrade.
On the 7th of August, 1985, our neighbor Mr. V. Rajasundaram, the headmaster, was
abducted by unknown individuals (TELO). No details about who they were or why
it happened were known. This brought sorrow and anger to all of us. The
confidence that once gave comfort amidst military arrests was now in question —
who is left for whom? This was the question that arose. My comrade and Rasa
were distressed, trying to find out the truth, but even after contacting many
people, the real situation remained unclear.
At the same time, guerrilla fighters in Jaffna had
installed a device that calculated the interval between shell sounds from the
fort camp and triggered a siren accordingly. Additionally, they began to
closely monitor military movements and lock the army inside the fort. The
military started using sea and air routes to carry out their operations,
becoming increasingly aggressive. We could see scars on Rasan's face from their
harsh treatment. The military allowed civilians to enter only because they thought
it would aid their strategy, but it didn't benefit them as much as they
expected. This made them even more furious. Some soldiers, even while smiling,
behaved coldly and indifferently.
During our time at the Palaly military camp, we
followed our routine of visiting the fort. It was only after entering that we
were told, “The prisoners have been transferred to Palaly for their safety.”
What could we do...? From there, I returned to Jaffna bus station, intending to
continue recounting the suffering and hardships faced at the Palaly camp.
41.
Palaly Army Camp to see my son Rasan. -Written
on 22 March, 2021
I woke up at dawn, hurriedly finished cooking, and
took my daughter with me to the fort camp. Once inside, they told us, "For
the security of the prisoners, we've transferred them to Palaly."
In 1966, I went to Palaly Airport with my children to
welcome Comrade N.
Shanmugathasan and Comrade S. D. Bandaranaike. Even when my sister was at
the Palaly Teacher Training College, I had never been there. I knew little
about Palaly. Many of my comrade's relatives lived in the surrounding villages,
but I had no idea what or where the army camp was. It was the first military
base established in Jaffna since Sri Lanka gained independence from the British
in 1948. The Sri Lankan Army set up headquarters for "Operations
Monty" in 1952 to prevent illegal immigration of Indian Tamils. Since
then, it had expanded into a large base with heavy security, and with the navy
and air force nearby, it became a major military complex. Rasan had been moved
there. I worried about new interrogations, new kinds of torture... What might
happen? What could I do?
From there, I returned to the Jaffna bus station and
boarded a bus heading to Kankesanthurai. At Kankesanthurai junction,
I got off and walked a long way. If you take the direct road, the camp is about
a kilometer away, but crossing paths through fields, ruined plantations, deep
water canals, and uneven terrain was exhausting. Along the way, people would
say, "This isn't the right path, take another route." My hands were
full with things I carried, and I didn’t have good shoes. I didn’t know if
there were landmines, but I wandered around with my little daughter. There were
no proper paths. After facing numerous military checkpoints, I finally got
inside, but they told me, "It’s past 5 p.m., you can’t see him now,"
and turned me away.
I had no money left to return home. I had used it all
up coming from Jaffna to Kankesanthurai. Who could help us now? I remembered my
husband's niece, Vellaiamma, was staying at a relative's house nearby. I asked
a boy from a farming family, "Do you know where the house of Mr. Ambalappillai
Thangarasa, known as ‘Pathiri’ Thangarasa
from Kollankaladdy, is?" He immediately
took his bicycle and went to find her. Within half an hour, he returned with
Vellaiamma. She understood my hesitation and generously gave me 50 rupees,
saying, "It's already late. You should go to Kankesanthurai junction, get
off at Tellippalai, and take the lorry to Chulipuram." She urged us to
catch the bus quickly, saying, "I’ll visit to see my brother-in-law next
time," and sent us on our way.
After traveling by bus and lorry, we reached Chulipuram and, exhausted, we arrived
home with no strength left in our legs. My comrade, Keerthy, and Ravi had been
worried, searching for us, thinking we were lost. We ate the cold leftovers
from lunch as our dinner. Days went by like this. Rasan spoke more optimistically
than before, talking about filing a case and discussing matters with Amnesty International in a way that even my
daughter could understand. Sometimes, soldiers would come by while mothers
waited outside, talking about the arrival of "food ships" and how
they hadn’t seen their relatives for days.
One day, after visiting the camp, we were a group of
10 to 15 people on our way back when a boy stopped us, saying, "The
officer wants to meet you. We’ve been told that you are coming here to meet
people and then informing the army." My heart raced, fearing what might
happen next. My daughter, agitated, retorted, "Yesterday, we struggled to
meet the prisoners, and now you’re spinning stories. We’re far from home and
can’t come here again." She spoke out fiercely. After a while, two men
arrived on motorbikes and asked, "Who said someone just joined the
movement yesterday?" I was truly scared. I had heard about women being
abducted and killed by the Tigers. Just as I feared everyone would blame Buby,
she stepped forward boldly, saying, "Yes, I said it. Is this what we do
for a living?" The other mothers quickly intervened, saying, "We all
said it, not just this child." That’s what motherhood is. The man, whom I
believe was Jaya from the Tigers, asked, "Are you Sathiarajan’s
sister?" I quickly replied, "Oh brother, she’s just a young child,
she spoke without thinking." He said, "I know your son. Whatever the
army asks, just say you don’t know," and allow us to leave. These are just
some of the stories.
During this time, my comrade’s health had worsened,
suffering from kidney disease and high blood pressure. He had collapsed several
times. The brutal attacks by the Police in 1966 and 1969 had physically
weakened him. Moreover, the sinking into narrow nationalism from striving for
an equal society also weighed heavily on his mind. With poverty at home, his
eldest son in prison, and his illness, fear consumed me.
On May Day 1986, the Ceylon Communist Party
(Left) led a massive rally from Nallur to Thirunelveli, despite the tense
atmosphere in Jaffna. Thousands marched in the scorching heat, chanting slogans
like:
- Workers of the world, unite!
- The working class should rule!
- Buddha preached nonviolence, but J.R. preached war!
- Where is the country heading?
- Who are the real terrorists?
- J.R. is a terrorist!
- Athulathmudali is a terrorist!
- Reagan is a terrorist!
My Comrade KAS led and addressed the rally, stating:
"Jayewardene and his cronies call for peace and calm in the streets and
the country every day in the newspapers. But when the democratic rights of the
people are denied, when justice is denied, and when freedom is denied, violence
is inevitable. The people have a duty to reclaim their rights. So if
Jayewardene truly values justice or wants peace, he must first ensure that
justice, freedom, and particularly the rights of the Tamil people are
recognized. Peace will only come when Tamil rights are acknowledged, the northern
and eastern regions are recognized as their homeland, and regional autonomy is
granted based on this recognition."
The video of this speech can be found here: https://sathiamanai.blogspot.com/1986/04/may-day-rally-speech-in-1986.html
At this time, Buby was preparing to study computer
technology at the Vaddukoddai Technical
College and during weekends at Jaffna University. My younger son Keerthy had
passed his engineering exams and was looking forward to university. Meanwhile,
Ravi had told my Comrade that he loved Buby and wanted to marry her. Comrade
asked, "Does Buby know about this?". I will continue with Buby’s
marriage...
42.
Daughter Wedding -Written on 18
April, 2021
In 1986, our neighbor's dog bit my comrade for the
third time, causing a wound that began oozing pus. On top of that, he was
suffering from edema, and the wound produced so much fluid that even the mat
beneath him got soaked. We admitted him to the Cooperative Hospital in Moolai, but with no money on hand,
he needed someone to stay by his side to care for him. Ravi, who understood him
well and could sense his needs without being told, provided that support, just
like a son. It was also school holiday time for Ravi, which made it possible
for him to help.
For Buby (my daughter), her father was everything. She
would sleep with him and wave goodbye at the doorstep when her father went out.
While others might act similarly, Buby’s enthusiasm and love were clearly
visible. Whenever her father’s bicycle bell rang, all three children would run
to grab the bicycle, with Buby leading the way. Ravi’s affection for Buby was
something even her colleagues noticed when Buby went on vacation to Nuwara Eliya, and they mentioned it to
her. After learning about this, Buby started throwing tantrums at home. Ravi
shared this with my comrade, who responded by asking, “Does Buby know about
this?” When Ravi said no, my comrade advised that Buby’s consent was essential
and encouraged Ravi to speak to her first.
Ravi’s cousin sister Mrs. Bhagavathi Ratnadurai was
concerned because Ravi had turned down several marriage proposals, often
complaining to us. I, too, told her that things would happen in due time.
However, I never thought of Ravi as becoming part of our family. As the
situation shifted, though, I started thinking that someone like Ravi, who had
helped us as if he were our own child, would make a great addition to our
family. It was then that I recalled the saying, “A friend in need is a friend
indeed,” and began considering a more formal bond with Ravi.
My daughter was studying computer science at the Vaddukoddai Technical
College, the first of its kind in Jaffna. It was my comrade who had encouraged
her to pursue this path, while Ravi also pursued his own degree studies,
balancing university and work.
On June 29, 1986, 33 PLOTE (People's Liberation
Organisation of Tamil Eelam) fighters returning from training were killed in
the waters of the Indian Ocean by the Sri Lankan Navy, their bodies never
recovered. Some believe that this happened due to a tip-off from a competing
militant faction. Among those we lost were many friends and comrades of Keerthy
and Rasan. The pain was indescribable. The editor of *Dinamurasu*, Mr. Ramesh
(Atputhan), and my comrade were sitting on the porch discussing something when
we received the news. How my comrade continued that conversation afterward, I
still do not know. With Rasan in prison, Keerthy studying from hostel, and our
dear Vairamuthu
Shailakanthan (Sajakan), who was like everything to us, also gone, we were
devastated. Sajakan had grown up with Keerthy and was considered family by us,
even staying with us during his school years.
Ravi must have felt the pain of seeing his esteemed
comrade sick in the hospital, and thinking about marriage as a lasting bond, he
must have felt that this relationship was not just a temporary one but a
long-lasting connection like "a thousand-year-old seedling." The idea
seemed right and compatible to me as well. The saying "fate and blessings
are written on the forehead" came to mind. A marriage where both families
understand and share common values would ensure lasting happiness. Keerthy had
great affection for Ravi, and the feeling was mutual. Keerthy joyfully
explained this to her sister, Buby (Sathiamalar). Meanwhile, Buby’s friends,
Nimal, Mohan, Jeevagan, and Kannan (‘NiMoJeKa’), spoke to Buby and highlighted
Ravi’s good qualities, gaining Buby’s approval. Though Buby was worried about
having the wedding without her brother, her father’s deteriorating health made
her agree, and finally, the marriage was confirmed.
The wedding took place on 19 October 1986, with poet E. Murugaiyan, the registrar of Jaffna
University, presiding over the ceremony. Comrade T. Tharmalingam from Nitchamam and Ravi’s
uncle Mr. Alagaratnam signed as witnesses.
Many university lecturers and party comrades attended
the event. PLOTE Vijayapalan alias Chinna Mendis, a comrade of Rasan, also
joined us, although, tragically, he was arrested by the LTTE two days later and
was later killed. Classmates of the bride from Vaddukoddai Technical
College, including ‘NiMoJiKa’ members, were also present. Close friends like
Vathani, Kanakes, Vanmathi, and Jayachandra had been there from day one, taking
care of the wedding decorations as if it were their own home.
Our relatives came from far and wide, including my
brother Mr.A. Ponniah’s family from Nilaveli. Friends of Keerthy, such as Ambalavanapillai
Nirmalathas, Sivarathinam Sankaran, Kandhasami Arunagirinathan, Markandu Kugathasan,
Vairamuthu Shailasutha (Keerthy’s childhood friend Vairamuthu
Shailakanthan's twin sister), Sachithananthan Vijayraghavan, Dharmarathnam
Rishindran, Anton Raviraj Selvarathnam ( Dominic) , Durairatnam Ambikaipalan,
and Saravanapavan Bavanchelvam, took care of everything as if it were their own
sister’s wedding. Many of the groom’s relatives attended the ceremony, offering
their blessings and participating in the wedding rituals.
In a symbolic gesture, Ravi’s other uncle Mr.
Shanmugalingam Master and my brother poured milk and blessed the groom,
treating him as their own. Similarly, Ravi’s paternal aunts and other women
performed the rituals for the bride.
Poet E. Murugaiyan led the tying of the sacred thread
(mangala naan), which Ravi then placed around the bride Buby’s neck. Ravi’s
sister Indira played the role of a bride mate during the ceremony. Relatives
like Mrs. Nagarathinam Nadaraja, Mrs. Pushpam Chandrahasan, and Mrs. Bhagavathi
Rathinathurai also played significant roles. Our neighbor, Kovil Mudali Akka
(Temple Owner), generously lent her jewelry for the occasion, saying,
"Keep it for a month and return it."
The elaborate preparations for the wedding, from
cooking snacks to managing the expenses for the wedding tent and decorations,
were carried out by our dear friend Mrs. Sivapakkiyam Kandaiya, who handled
everything with utmost care. The expenses were partly covered by pawning the
house, and my comrade entrusted the painting of the house walls to a painter
friend from Sithankeni.
After tying the sacred thread, poet E. Murugaiyan recited a blessing and
handed it to the bride and groom. A message written by my eldest son, who was
in prison, was read aloud by our family friend and prison officer, Mr. Madhavar
Markandu. The message was written on a small piece of paper smuggled out of
prison, a story in itself. Despite restrictions, prisoners would gather small
pieces of paper and pens discarded by the army and use them to write letters,
which would then be smuggled out. This was one of those letters. Had the good
times not explored the bottom of that boiling water bottle flask, this would
not have made it into history.
"A father who desired to uplift the working class
– a mother who followed in his path – a brother who shattered oppression – a
younger brother who lamented at injustice – a loving uncle and aunt – an
ambitious Uncle Aunty– a comrade of wisdom – and a supportive circle – born to
them as a child of great value, raised with love and affection, compassion and
kindness being your nature, confusion and hesitation never being your habit. In
a life where one stands for social change, your partner must continue his duty
in life. Among those we know, like Marx and Jenny (father/mother), may you too
achieve victory in life."
Thus, the congratulatory message extended. When Mr. M.
Markandu read aloud the secret wedding wish sent by the son, Rasan
(Sathiarajan), who was then imprisoned in a military fortress, during his
sister's wedding in October 1986:
The congratulatory message from poet Murugaiyan was as
follows:
"May health and prosperity always continue in the
life of Nadesanar's son, Raveendran. May sweetness and benefits spread, not
only in duty but also in education, knowledge, and research. Progress with
determination is highly desired.
* * *
The fragrance of Subramaniathar's (Comrade KAS)
service must spread, and the scent of truth from this house of truth
‘Sathiamanai’ must rise in an unmatched manner.
May happiness fill the earth, and may joy abound
forever.
* * *
Ravi, like the sun, will become radiant; before the
sun rises, the lotus will bloom, and the flower's face will shine. We must
cherish this opportunity and think of it; let them always gather in joy. May
they be blessed with strength, wealth, and children.
* * *
We praise the brilliance of the wedding
auspiciousness. By knowing the welfare of others, we see clearly with
intelligence, adorned with morality, we cherish enthusiasm, we cherish wisdom,
we cherish clarity.
* * *
May this day, which sweetens our thoughts, serve as a
symbol of happiness.
With the flower of love, mixed with the scent of Ravi,
let the juice overflow in the cup of life. Let the honey of life be enjoyed as
a symbol of Tamil joy... We spoke of the newness that comes from the union of
the newlyweds. Long live!"
With love,
On behalf of the assembly,
E. Murugaiyan, Neerveli. 19-11-1986.
43.
Within the same house, there were two opposing newspapers. -Written on 6 June, 2021
Amidst the sorrow of being separated from my eldest, the health
issues of my comrade, and the never-ending struggles, my younger son had been
accepted into the engineering faculty at
Peradeniya. My daughter’s marriage was completed, and as soon as Ravi
joined the Sathiamanai household and when I could say that ties with my relatives
had been restored, it brought me comfort. Moreover, when the young men who were
imprisoned with Rasan were released, they
frequently visited our home. Many of them were involved in the movement. We
began forming bonds with their parents as well. One such bond was
Mr.Vijeyaratnam, alias Sellakili Master’s wife, who frequently visited our home. It so happened that
during one of her visits, the wedding of comrade S. Thevarajah’s brother, Thevakumar,
was taking place. Under the leadership of my comrade, we attended the wedding of Thevakumar
and Vallinayaki, and the ceremony surprised her. Comrade
officiated the tying of the sacred thread (thali), and after the wedding, he
gave a speech.
In his speech, he said: "Today marks the
beginning of the second stage of their lives. Life is a struggle. The first
stage of their lives was their battle against social oppression and poverty,
which they each fought individually. Today, they are stepping forward to unify
their lives under the bond of marriage, to continue their life struggle,
supporting and relying on one another. At a time when countries and nations
around the world are fighting for freedom, revolution, and independence, may
your struggles unite with theirs. May your role in this great struggle for
world peace and the welfare of humanity be fulfilled."
Sellakili Master’s wife remarked, "I have seen
many weddings conducted in temples, officiated by priests chanting mantras I
could not understand. But today, what ‘Aiya’ (Comrade KAS) said were words
necessary for life. Thank you for bringing me here. I will tell my friends
about this."
During Operation Liberation in
the Vadamarachchi region, many people were displaced from their homes. Our poet E. Murugaiyan, who lived in Neerveli, faced this situation too.
His family, along with his two nieces, came to Sathiamanai. The days they spent
with us, more than a month, were delightful. They were vegetarians and brought
different kinds of vegetables, cooking delicious meals for us. Their daughter
‘Kuyil’ and the other two children took care of everything, not allowing me to
do any work. Their son ‘Navalan’ would sit next to me and ask me to tell old
stories. If I teared up, he would get nervous and ask me to stop. Even during
the cruel times of war, the poet Murugaiyan’s family remains a cherished
memory, and those days can never be forgotten.
On June 4, 1987, without Sri Lanka’s permission, the
Indian Air Force flew over and dropped food supplies to the people of Jaffna (Operation Poomalai). My comrade wrote in the
party newspaper, *Puthiya Poomi*, "We cannot allow the imperialist power
of India to trespass into our country." This angered *Eelamurasu* editors
Mr. E.R. Thiruchelvam and Mr. S. M. Gopalaratnam, who wrote in opposition,
claiming that the communists did not want India to support the Tamil people.
Soon after, in 1987, the India-Sri Lanka agreement was signed following India’s
intervention, and the Indian Peace Keeping
Force
(IPKF) entered Sri Lanka. Tamil leaders, along with the people, welcomed them
with garlands and rituals. But not long after, when the Indian military began
crossing its limits, fighting resumed. During this time, the Indian army
distributed food to the people. At home, there were hardships. Villagers stood
guard in line to get rice, oil, lentils, and flour, but Comrade refused to
allow any of these supplies into the house. As usual, the drumsticks and banana
plants from our garden sustained us. Nearby, Mr. Velautham’s wife, Rajeswari,
who had a large farm in Olumadu, was very attached to me. She knew about our
family’s situation and gave us a sack of paddy, which was of great help at the
time.
With Rasan being transferred to the Boossa prison camp, we couldn't even visit him.
My younger son, Keerthy, had started attending Peradeniya. The Liberation
Tigers and the Indian army continued their clashes. Bombs, gunfire, and death
spread everywhere. My daughter Buby was pregnant. We couldn't provide her with
proper food. My comrade encouraged her to read good books. Meanwhile, in
Jaffna, military forces bombed and destroyed all the newspaper offices. Mr. S. M. Gopalaratnam brought his files and came
to Sathiamanai. In that small house, on opposite sides, close friends with
opposing views wrote freely about what they believed was right. They would
sometimes argue, but the honesty and trust in their friendship were unshakeable,
even today. I re-read the note
journalist Gopalarathinam wrote about comrade KAS.
"In October 1987, after the Indian Peacekeeping
Force bombed and destroyed the *Eelamurasu* printing press where I was serving
as editor, the newspaper was printed for a few days from Tholpuram and
Chankanai. During that time, KAS sent word through our mutual friend, E.R. Thiruchelvam, asking me to come to his
home. When I arrived, KAS insisted that
I stay at his home. I joked, ‘What would happen if an editor of the Tigers’
newspaper and a China-leaning communist party member like you both got caught
by the Indian army?’ He laughed heartily. His wife added, ‘You gave him food
when he was in hiding in 1971. Now he feels it’s his duty to take care of you.’
KAS’s gratitude was unshakeable. When I criticized the communist party’s stance
on the Eelam liberation struggle in *Eelamurasu*, KAS responded through their
newspaper. When we met again in Tholpuram and discussed these articles, Gopu
remarked, ‘In our friendship, nothing can come between us, nor can it grow any
stronger,’ KAS said in a firm voice. That was the code of friendship that KAS
followed. His writings, rooted in different ideologies, offered great solace.
The truth and sacrifices will never be forgotten. He had written with this in
mind."
Amid this, bombs would fly over our house. During
those moments, we would run to Ravi’s village, Kalaiyadi, often taking only a
bucket that my comrade used for his nighttime needs due to his loss of feeling
in his legs. The bucket felt like our only prized possession, as other things
seemed insignificant. (Since my comrade’s feet had started to lose feeling and
developed wounds prevented him from walking outside at night, and because he
also had diabetes, it was difficult for the wounds to heal. My daughter Buby
would clean and empty the bucket.) Our dog Kittu would also accompany us, and
village dogs would join Kittu in fights. Buby would run, crying, calling out,
"Kittu, Kittu!" I would stop her, saying, "Please don’t call out
the dog's name! If you do, they’ll find out ( LTTE’s Jaffna leader's name was
also "Kittu" at that time) and
attack us!" During the time of the Indian Peace Keeping Force, the
hardships we endured were no small matter. Ravi’s parents welcomed us without
hesitation and supported us. His sisters treated Buby like their own, and seeing
this gave my comrade and me immense comfort.
I will continue about the love and intensity that
Rasan experienced while in prison...
44.
In Search of the Imprisoned Son: A
Love Story -Written on 5 July, 2021
We didn’t have any information about the Boossa prison camp. During that time, I had
shared my sorrows with people like comrade S. Kathiravelu and Mr. A.J. Kanagaratna, and I had even cried in
front of them. Comrade Kathiravelu (the father of Minister Douglas Devananda)
made efforts to send a complaint letter to Amnesty International. Meanwhile, Justice T.W. Rajaratnam from Tellippalai, who had
provided excellent legal advice and handled some important cases for the party
during critical moments, was urged to inquire about Rasan’s case. Since Mr. T.W. Rajaratnam was retired by then, his son
Mr. T.C. Rajaratnam took over the case and
refused to charge any fees.
Mr. A.J. Kanagaratna helped me to compile and
sent all the news to *Saturday Review*. Neighbors remarked that
Rasan’s father, who had always rushed to help others in times of trouble,
seemed indifferent to Rasan’s situation. But I knew of his love and concern for
his children. Even though he was angry at his son for choosing the wrong political
path, I could feel the pain of separation from his eldest child weighing on
him. Yet, he continued to write and speak passionately about national unity and
minority freedom.
During this period, one day, two girls who appeared to
be around the same age as our daughter, came to our home. Upon inquiry, I
realized I knew both of their families well. However, there seemed to be
hesitation in their actions. Just then, my daughter Buby arrived and said,
"Mother, she has loved our brother for a long time. He doesn’t know about
her feelings. She has been offering prayers and fasting in his name at temples.
She wants to send him a letter." Buby narrated the whole story in one
breath. Fear rendered me speechless.
That pretty girl comes from a scholarly family.
Although her mother was my comrade's relative, it was a very traditional and
orthodox family. Rasan's future was uncertain. When would he be released? What
would he do afterward? Would he continue the struggle? Or take up work? Would
he be like his father? Being born of a mixed marriage, caste prejudices still
lingered, not only in our village but also in our society. In a flash, a
thousand thoughts swirled in my mind.
I asked Buby, "Did you know about this
earlier?" "Yes, mother. A sister of * who studies with me told me
about it a month ago. I confirmed it with them, and they both assured me. Our
brother also had feelings for her, but her brother, being our brother’s close
friend, probably didn’t disclose it. But she asked to meet you, so she came
today," Buby explained.
Buby is a modern girl, courageous enough to face
anything. Her father had raised her to be that way. Had my comrade been home,
he would have given a thoughtful response. His absence was, in a way,
fortunate. It allowed me to freely ask the young girl the questions that arose
from my fears. I asked many doubts, including which zodiac star she was born
under. My mother was skilled in astrology, palmistry, and writing horoscopes.
Her stubborn faith in these practices had deeply influenced me. After my comrade
embraced Communism, he always believed in approaching everything
scientifically, but he never suppressed my religious practices, even if he
occasionally teased me.
After I had asked all my questions, I realized a
school teacher, someone who genuinely loved my eldest son, had come to see me
today. “He is a good boy, wise, and pure like camphor,” his friends used to
say. He was insightful and skillful, a bit mischievous but brilliant. He had
the same sweet voice as his father. I couldn’t help but feel a strange joy as I
realized I had never heard of such love in any book, movie, or story before.
The girl’s ability to stand on her own feet brought me contentment as a mother.
I plucked two sprigs from the tulsi plant and gave one to each of
them. Then I accepted the letter she had brought. The bottle of hot water flask
exchange was stopped at that time. I didn’t know where or how I would deliver
the letter, and I couldn’t bring myself to give her false hope.
A few days later, Rasan wrote from the
Magazine Prison, informing us of his transfer. We sent her letter as the
first one to him. His response and how the love blossomed will be continued…
Note: I initially wanted to let this story fade away,
but since many have twisted the truth with their imaginations and prejudices, I
thought it better to reveal the truth while I am still alive.
45.
Son Released from Prison -Written
on 2 August, 2021
Friend Mr. A.J. Kanagaratna (August 26, 1934 - October
11, 2006) was a dedicated figure in the English journalism field, a prominent
critic, and a writer from Sri Lanka. He excelled in various areas, including
English literature, Tamil literature, literary criticism, modern literature,
and drama. He was known for his significant contributions as a mentor and guide
to many young writers, generally referred to as A.J. The integrity and trust
that existed in that friendship continue to resonate today. I reread the notes
written by friend A.J. Kanagaratna about comrade KAS.
"In the current complicated situation, the
passing of comrade K.A. Subramaniam has added to the pressure on the left
movement in the Northern Province. Comrade Subramaniam fought for the working
people and the oppressed throughout his life. I don’t need to say much about
his struggle, as it is well known to many. Personally, I have lost a true
friend due to his passing. As I write this, his smiling face appears before my
mind’s eye. We used to talk about many things, including politics, openly. While
he never gave up his opinions, he was open to hearing others’ viewpoints. The
society he dreamed of has unfortunately passed away before him. However, thanks
to the efforts of people like him, the day that society comes into being is
drawing closer. When will that day be?"
We initially sent only the letter from that woman to
Rasan. Later, Buby spoke to her father, brother, and her husband about it. My
comrade might have thought that the links of the chain of caste connections
should be replaced with other connections. Although the continuity of his
family might have been an obstacle to Rajar's thoughts, he would prioritize the
union of two minds. Hence, there was no restriction in that affection. My
comrade told Buby to write a detailed letter to her brother. I believe that despite
having been sent previously, both letters reached Rasan together. He had sent
the letter separately on the same page.
In our correspondence, Rasan wrote about her noble
qualities and mentioned that it was inappropriate to disrupt her life due to
ignorance about her feelings. In her section, Rasan only inquired about her
studies, work, and the health of her family members. However, Buby integrated
the letter entirely with that girl’s correspondence. After that, he began
sending letters on his own. I thought that after a few letters, many of the
subsequent letters were indeed for her. Therefore, since her name was mentioned
outside, we started handing over the letters without breaking them open.
Meanwhile, a comforting reply had arrived regarding a letter sent to the United
Nations' International Forgiveness Commission, acknowledging that matter.
In the interim, Justice Vanam
Rajaratnam's son, a lawyer, Mr. T.C. Rajaratnam had filed a case for Rasan’s
release. Justice Vanam Rajaratnam (December 21, 1920 - January 15, 1994) was a
leading Tamil lawyer, judge, and politician in Sri Lanka. He served as the
chairman of the juvenile court commission, as a judge in the appeals court, and
as a member of parliament. The integrity and trust that existed in that
friendship continue to resonate today.
I reread the notes written by friend Vanam Rajaratnam about comrade KAS and wished
to share them with you. Some histories must be widely spread, right?
"When I started working as a lawyer, K.A. Subramaniam would ensure my attendance
in very challenging cases filed against workers and trade unionists, both at
that initial stage and thereafter. During that period, the government and
society subjected workers and trade unionists to great troubles. However, since
Subramaniam was an inspiring leader for everyone, we rarely lost cases. The
last case I attended on his behalf was related to temple access in
Chavakachcheri. High castes attempted to poison wells. Police assisted the
higher castes in preventing the downtrodden from entering the temple premises.
The downtrodden organized themselves and prevented the police from executing
this despicable, inhuman act. They even attacked the police. This was an
exhilarating case, and the higher castes protested outside the court."
"We won the case. Though the area was a place
where caste atrocities were committed, Subramaniam had prepared well for the
case. He was well-versed in politics and had his own political philosophies,
which he frequently shared with me. Despite some political disagreements
between us, it never hindered our fruitful discussions when we met. Subramaniam
was a caring friend. He would never fail to meet me when he came to Colombo. I
had the opportunity to meet his son. He was known as a family friend, a prudent
politician, and a person of integrity. I share the sorrow caused by his passing
with his family and friends. Subramaniam was a patriot, a humanitarian, and a
lover of the people, who tirelessly fought against the oppression faced by the
downtrodden throughout his life. He fought valiantly, and his life has
triumphed over death."
In the negotiations between the Indian and Sri Lankan
governments, the release of political prisoners and the surrender of arms by
militant groups were included. Therefore, the expectation arose that Rasan
would be released. Despite the Indian government and military committing many
violations and atrocities, it genuinely created a hope in my self-serving sense
of nationalism.
Last year, the unified May day was formed. Comrade
Annamalai of the Nava Sama Samaja party, Comrade A. Vaithiyalingam
of the Sri Lanka Communist Party (Moscow faction), Comrade S. Vijayanandhan,
and Comrade S. Thirunavukkarasar, all leftist ideologues, gathered in Jaffna
and conducted a very enthusiastic meeting at the Kokuvil public grounds.
Comrade KAS, who was very ill, spoke enthusiastically with a lot of energy in
his hands, sharing the joy that came from the unification of progressive
forces. Again, clashes began between the Tigers and the peacekeeping force.
Rasan was transferred from Magazine Prison to
Welikada prison. We were unable to go visit him. Nimal, who studied with
Buby, would send a sports magazine called ‘Sports Star' to Rasan. Other news magazines were
restricted, and thus Rasan's love flourished.
The agreement reached between Indian Prime Minister Rajiv Gandhi and Sri Lankan President
J.R. Jayewardene on July 29, 1987, aimed to resolve the issues of the Tamil
people in Sri Lanka. This agreement recognized Sri Lanka as a multi-ethnic,
multi-religious, and multilingual country, acknowledged the North-East as the
united homeland of the Tamil and Muslim peoples, and proposed the devolution of
powers through provincial councils, with the Tamil language recognized as an
official language.
On Tuesday, September 22, 1987,
political prisoners were released gradually from the prison,
facilitated through the legal system, and not just my son, but many young
people were released. My daughter, with her husband’s help, went to see her
brother. They were brought back by the Chandrahasan family, who had signed for
the highly sought-after young family. They were very affectionate and caring
towards Rasan. They kept everyone at the Kappithawatte temple and later left.
Rasan said he was emaciated. We couldn’t bring the released child home because
his life was in an unguaranteed state in Jaffna from LTTE. If the Tiger
movement’s members were captured, they would bite cyanide capsules and take
their lives. Other groups that were captured faced the military’s beatings and
tortures, and they exited with physical pain.
My son wouldn't sit in a chair for more than five
minutes. He expressed that he was suffering from a combination of discomfort
and knee pain, unable to walk without difficulty. Rasan’s girl also came with
the villagers, friends, and comrades to learn news from Buby. She might have
thought that she was the divine being for whom she prayed, as she held temple
offerings and holy ash in her hand, believing that the release was a result of
the divine. I also thought similarly. Even though united with my comrade, my
tumultuous emotional state kept leading me to seek refuge in God, and it was
that faith that kept me going.
After Rasan's release, he went to visit Mr. T.C. Rajaratnam to express his gratitude. He
mentioned that he had married a relative of late Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master, who married in the K.P. Ratnam family. This newspaper
clipping was included with Rasan’s savings. I have no information on where Mr. T.C. Rajaratnam is today.
I will continue with the details of Rasan's marriage
registration and the immense suffering that resulted from it.
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46.
The Unending Grief of a Son After
Marriage -Written on 29 August, 2021
After the marriage, I could not go see the liberated
Rasan. The mother’s heart ached, wondering if the child, who had borne physical
and mental wounds for three whole years, would get good food and care. Daughter
Buby came and, without fail, told every story. The woman would come to the
house occasionally. Days passed like this. Buby and Ravi shared everything
about how they saw Rasan for the first time at the temple. Those from various
movements were not only kind to each other but also knew about each other's
families. It was a time when they feared having a movement-related fighter in
their home due to the country's situation. Still, Chandrakanthan invited Rasan
to his home with love and fed him with respect, without any interruptions from
others, while Rasan stayed on the upper floor of the temple and the flat-roofed
house.
With the help of friends, he went to India to see a
family from Orattanad that loved him dearly. There, the relationship between
him and that woman blossomed through letters. He traveled with Palamottai Sivam
and Vaddukoddai Deni to Bombay. He sent us those photographs.
Later, he returned to Sri Lanka. With friends' assistance, Buby said that Rasan
had married that woman in a registered marriage. Although he was worried that
he couldn’t stand beside her, his heart was soothed by the distress caused by
the Tigers and the military. However, this did not last long.
That day was 1988 Vaikasi Visakam. The chariot festival at
Paralai temple. I usually fast on this day. I would let the wind carry all my
joys and sorrows to that ‘Vayal Veli
Samy’ (God of paddy field). As I finished lunch, a friend of Keerthy rushed
in and said, “* Akka * has died after
eating ‘Alarikottai’ (poison)...” This was hard to believe. Should
I cry for the deceased woman? Or should I cry for my son, who waited to
continue living with hope? Why all these sufferings? Why did the lives of the
children who wanted to live come to an end? A thousand unanswered questions
echoed in my mind. Buby and my comrade took the night bus to Colombo to see
Rasan. Actually Rasan hadn’t seen his father since he joined the PLOTE movement. My comrade was
going to see Rasan for the first time in this sorrowful time.
Buby was pregnant with a four-month child. After three
days, they returned to Sathiamanai. Buby was continuously crying. The news of
the woman’s death had reached the village through the newspaper, and many
people came to pay their respects. The reason was unknown, but I was also
bewildered hearing the half-baked stories from the visitors. The friend was
also in a confused state. Until now, I had not mentioned her name. However,
many who knew us were well aware of these matters. The economic situation, permanent
employment, and many reasons that contradicted the caste system might have
played a role. What do you think? The loss of the little girl for our family
continues to be an unhealed sorrow to this day. Rasan wore the ring adorned
with her picture until the end. The letters expressing his love and feelings,
written from 1981 to 1988, were carefully stacked in Rasan's bag. They are a
treasure. His brother Keerthy named his child after her. His love continues to
live with us today.
Letters
Due to some political disagreements, Rasan did not go
to the office of the movement he belonged to. Relatives were also hesitant to
keep Rasan at their homes. For a few days, he slept on the upper floor of the
Bambalapitiya Kathiresan temple and, with the help of Mr. V. Rajasundaram Master’s son, Paran,
finished the morning duties at a restaurant near the temple and returned.
Later, comrade S. Thevarajah took Rasan to Kandy. At that
time, Mrs. Kalalatchumi Thevarajah was teaching in Kandy. Since comrade E.
Thambiah was getting married, I went to Colombo with my cousin's daughter, Ms.
Gnambigai Sinniah, saying I could see Rasan too.
I saw Rasan after one and a half years. He had a long
beard. After much pleading, I got him to cut his beard and took him to the
wedding. What would he do now? He had no money, no job. There was no hope for
life. I returned to Sathiamanai, burdened with grief. After Mr.V. Rajasundaram Master passed away, his
helper had a daughter named Ms. Kanageshwari. With no father, she stood there,
her mother asking me, “I cannot take this little girl who has come of age in my
village and raise her. There’s no one I can trust more than you. Would you keep
my daughter in your house?” We were only drinking half a bellyful of porridge.
I said, “I can give that to your child. More than
that, I will send her to school and let her continue her education.” My
neighbor’s son Akhilan and Kanakam went to school together.
In the month of September 1988, Subhara was born.
Amidst the continuous suffering, the music of the child filled the silent house
with joy. The initials of Subramaniam, Buby, and Ravi combined to become
“Subhara.” I was so happy to see the comrade after a long time. The comrade,
accustomed to waking up at dawn, would carry Subhara with him. He would sing
songs about the moon, striking the roach against the wall. Knowing that
mother's milk was important for the child, he would go to the seaside to buy ‘Kili
fish.’ Due to the increasing military disturbances, party meetings began at
Sathiamanai.
Discussions about political changes to oust the Indian
Army were held. The violations by the Indian Army and the arbitrary actions of
the Tigers created fear. Electricity was cut off. There was a shortage of food.
Sudden explosions occurred. People began to set up camps in every house. Talks
about the presidential election began. Premadasa from the United National Party
(UNP) and Sirimavo Bandaranaike from the Sri Lanka Freedom Party (SLFP) were
said to be contesting against each other. I will continue with the presidential
election campaign and the threats from the LTTE.
---
47.
Presidential Election Campaign
Meeting and the Tigers' Threats -Written on 2 October, 2021
In 1988, amidst the prevailing conditions, my comrade
emphasized the need for an alternative government through the Sri Lanka
Communist (Left) Party to ensure that the Tamil-speaking people, along with the
entire nation, could find at least a minimal solution to the suffering they
were experiencing. Many members associated with the All Ceylon Tamil
Congress and progressive factions united with the belief that only a change in
government could drive back the Indian army and decided to support Mrs. Sirimavo Bandaranaike as the candidate for the
Democratic People's Power in the presidential election.
Those regarded as liberation movement activists also
lived in hiding due to the Indian army's lawlessness. This situation paved the
way for unity and understanding among progressive democratic nationalist
forces. Preparatory work for this began, and Comrade tirelessly moved about,
often needing to go to Colombo.
Previously, Comrade E. T. Moorthy lived relatively nearby, and
he would stay there. Despite having politically conflicting views, they
maintained a strong friendship. During Professor Kailasapathy's illness, my comrade
frequently visited him at E. T. Moorthy's home. Later, after
establishing a situation where he could stay in his trade union office, Comrade
started staying at the Ramakrishna Mission. It was well-maintained health-wise
for a very low fee. At one point, he was admitted to a Colombo hospital due to
health issues.
Comrades E. Thambiah, E. T. Moorthy, Kadiravel (the father of
Minister Douglas Devananda, my biological brother), and friend A. Kulendran
visited and provided food. When my comrade returned to Sathiamanai, he worked
energetically. Comrade KAS insisted on engaging with the people, merging politics
with literature. His early political involvement began with the establishment
of the Bharathiyar Festival at the Kilanai
Community Reading Center near his home. I have previously mentioned this in
detail in earlier notes.
One day, a couple arrived in a car that revealed their
elite status. I did not recognize them. My comrade identified them and said
that our Keerthy was in love with their daughter (Susithra) and had come to ask
us to stop it. Comrade replied very calmly, "You could have told this
directly to your daughter rather than coming all the way here." At that
time, Keerthy was in the village because Peradeniya University was closed due
to student protests. However, he remained inside the room. The relatives who
had suffered injuries from a strong attack at the Maviddapuram temple entrance protest were their
close relatives. "I have dedicated my life to breaking caste boundaries.
Whether I go back to my relatives or not depends on Keerthy's decision. I will
not break his love. Keerthy should think and decide," my comrade said.
This shocked me greatly. Perhaps Buby had already spoken with her father and
later with her brother Keerthy. The next morning, we began to operate as if we
had forgotten everything.
A few days later, Keerthy went to India with Comrade
Thevaraja's arrangements. The main purpose of that trip was to translate the
poems of the Hungarian poet Petőfi into Tamil, which were sung
with vigor to awaken the sense of rights in a nation suffering under foreign
oppression by the great poet Subramania Bharati. This was done by the
renowned writer K. Ganesh. Due to the prevailing conditions in the country at
that time, the handwritten document could not be printed for several years. My
comrade sent Keerthy, who was studying in Peradeniya, to the home of writer Mr.
K. Ganesh to work on missing sections. With the assistance of Comrade Balaji
from Chennai Book House ( Later renamed as South Vision Books), Keerthy also helped with
the necessary tasks for the publication by the National Arts and Literature
Association. At that time, Rasan was also in India, but there was no
information from him.
The date for Mrs. Sirimavo's arrival for the
presidential election campaign was set for December 14, 1988. Many comrades at
home worked enthusiastically. The next morning, it was decided to hold a
meeting at the Pandatharippu Hindu College grounds. I was preparing dinner for
all the comrades. Suddenly, there was a commotion. The woman from the
neighboring house exclaimed, "Thumpon and Vetri have come with guns. ‘Aiya’ and Buby have gone inside the
room. What is going to happen? Are they coming here?" I rushed to the
kitchen. The room door was slightly ajar. A gun was placed near the door. Ravi
was standing outside with a gun. I understood I couldn’t enter. I thought this
incident was happening joyfully because of the friendship with the Indian army
due to the differences with the Tigers. Moreover, since Thumpon had studied at
Buby's school, there was a friendship. Vetri was a small assistant in PLOTE
earlier and had come for Buby's wedding. I felt no fear regarding them.
However, I was scared that the Indian army might launch several attacks.
Eventually, comrades S.K. Senthivel, S. Thevarajah, S. Navarathinam, and S. Sivathasan stood nearby. After a few
hours, they came out and carried the guns with them. My comrade spoke with his
comrades in the compound. Thumpon said that "You must not hold the
meeting. ‘Aiya’, you are a good person, but we are the ones who killed ‘Poddar S. Nadarajah’. This order is from a
higher place. It came from the forest."
Buby cried out and shouted, "If you are getting married, they
should be at the wedding, and if you are dead, you should put them in a higher place,".
My grandchild Subhara was less than four months old. She was crying loudly.
I had already served food to the comrades. Only my
comrade had not eaten. In my anxiety, I could not offer him anything. I was
scared to ask him to eat. In times of curfew, Mrs. Sirimavo would come in the
early morning. It is said that my comrade told them, "This is a time
without communication facilities. We arranged this considering the country's
main need." Early in the morning, Mrs. Sirimavo would leave Colombo. The
meeting would surely take place. "If you shoot me, perhaps that would stop
it," my comrade reportedly said while Thumpon narrated the story of
shooting the ‘Poddar S. Nadarajah’. Later Buby persuaded my
comrade to eat the dinner and also gave him diabetic tablets.
They had to ask for permission from IPKF for the
meeting being held to drive out the Indian army. In the early morning, Comrade
got ready to leave for permission. One of the two white shirts he had was
slightly new. When Buby brought it, he said, "No, this should be worn for
the meeting; I will wear it later." After drinking the milk from the cup
and getting ready, he left. When comrades stopped him, he said, "You go to
the grounds and oversee the preparations. I will go alone." Buby cried
loudly and insisted on leaving with the same outfit. I had little agreement
about Buby going and leaving child with me. I was about to say something when
she began to cry. The father went ahead on a bicycle while she followed in
another bicycle. Not knowing that the milk cup was my comrade's food for the
day, I re-entered the kitchen to prepare breakfast. The comrades at home
gathered and discussed. I will continue with what happened next...
48.
Sirimavo Bandaranaike's Public
Meeting -Written on 6 March 2021
That day, I prepared food for the comrades staying at
home, unaware that the only thing my comrade had drunk in the morning was goat
milk coffee. I had posted about it earlier.
Until 1978, my comrade had boycotted all elections.
Mr. N.M. Perera and comrade Pieter Keuneman faced severe criticism for
the mistakes made by leftist leaders during Mrs. Sirimavo's rule from 1970 to
1977. Nevertheless, due to the blunders of the leftist leadership, which
abandoned the SLFP in the 1977 election, the UNP government subsequently violated
democracy by stripping Mrs. Sirimavo of her citizenship. The Sri Lanka Communist
Party (Left) supported the main opposition candidates in the presidential elections
of 1982 and 1988 against these undemocratic actions of the UNP government.
After my comrade and my daughter left on two separate
push bikes in the early morning, the comrades who stayed at home prepared to
leave for the gathering at the Pandatharippu Hindu College grounds. In the
meantime, Comrade S.K. Senthivel mentioned that Comrade S. Sivathasan also was unwell. I do not
know where Comrade S. Sivathasan went afterward, but he was
supposed to translate Mrs. Sirimavo's speech into Tamil.
At this moment, I remember what Professor S. Sivasekaram wrote in 1991 under the
title "Unity and Struggle":
"After 1977, the stance taken by the Sri Lanka Communist
Party (Left) regarding the main opposition candidates who contested the presidential
elections against the undemocratic actions of the UNP government and the
people's vote during the parliamentary dissolution crisis in 1983 served as a
good practical illustration of the policy of 'unity and struggle.' In a recent
context of extreme tension, the unity and action of all forces that can come
together has strengthened the party and patriotic progressive forces, enabling
it to continue to operate even today. The voting stance of comrade KAS was a
good practical illustration of the policy of 'unity and struggle.' The recent
extreme tension was due to the unity and action of all forces that can come
together, strengthening both the party and patriotic progressive forces, allowing
it to continue operating today. In this context, I consider the leadership and
proactive actions of comrade KAS to be very significant."
Furthermore, "anyone who does not consider a
comrade important, including any party member or those close to it, is not a
friend. Comrade KAS does not wish to put anyone, including party members, at
risk. In an environment where many consider revolution to mean violence and
unnecessary bloodshed, comrade KAS, who does not wish for any unnecessary loss
of life, believes that while sacrifices may be necessary for revolution,
avoidable loss of life should be prevented. This humanitarianism, distinct from
the worldview of other revolutionaries, has earned him respect and admiration
from those who may disagree with him."
On this basis, the Sri Lanka Communist
Party (Left)'s important members were not invited to this gathering to ensure their
safety and to continue strengthening both the party and patriotic progressive
forces. Time was passing. Only my child Subhara and I were left at home, along
with Akhilan's mother. Child Subhara was crying for her mother's milk. It was
hard to find milk. We were not accustomed to it. I was feeding her with rice
porridge mixed with water and had given her some boiled rice. She was flushed
and agitated while crying. After noon, Buby arrived. "Dad, didn't ask me
to come," she said and left alone. I asked her several questions.
My comrade had received permission after some delay
from the IPKF military camp in Sillalai to conduct the meeting, and it was
the right time to go directly to Pandatharippu Women's College (two helicopters
landed there). In the first helicopter, Mr. Rathwatte, who was later the Minister
of Defense under Chandrika's government, and other
security personnel arrived. They were welcomed by Mr. Alvaarpillai Kanthasamy.
In the second helicopter, Mrs. Sirimavo arrived with Mrs. Lenarol. I remember
having met Mrs. Lenarol earlier. In 1963, a women’s organization called "Progressive
Women's League" was established in Jaffna. A group from the Colombo
Women's Union, including Mrs. Lenarol, Mrs. Theja Gunawardena, Miss Nanayakkara, and a few
others came to Jaffna to establish a branch here. Mrs. Uruthira Kanthasamy
(Former Principal of Pandatharippu Ladies College) was elected as the
president, Mrs. Thangam Kanthagnani as the secretary, I was elected as the assistant
secretary, and Miss Chandrakanti Seenivasagam was appointed as a committee
member along with five others.
Mrs. Kalalatchumi Thevarajah and her son Janamagan,
along with their cousin, welcomed Mrs. Sirimavo. Kalalatchumi participated in
several struggles, joining the New Democratic
Marxist-Leninist party with her husband comrade S. Thevarajah. At the end of 1966, I was
transferred from Karainagar to Pandaterippu Panipulam village, where the house I
rented was owned by Mrs. Kalalatchumi's mother, Mrs. Thangamma. I have known
Kalalatchumi since childhood.
It is said that
the IPKF Lieutenant General A.S. Kalkat, met Mrs. Sirimavo in a traditional
manner and spoke with her. The audio/visual footage of this is available on
YouTube. Part 1: [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1gnfvz18l0](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1gnfvz18l0
).
For Mrs. Sirimavo's safety, Indian military vehicles
were not used; instead, Mrs. Lenarol and Mrs. Kalalatchumi escorted Mrs.
Sirimavo safely from Pandatharippu Ladies College to the Pandatharippu Hindu College grounds along with my
comrade. Although many, including Mr. Kumar Ponnambalam, had come to speak, due to
some issues, both Mrs. Sirimavo and my comrade were the only ones who spoke.
Mr. Mothilal Nehru from ATTC translated Mrs. Sirimavo's speech. Comrades S. Thevarajah, Mrs. Lenorol, Mr. Kumar Ponnambalam, Mr. Rathwatte, and Mr. Alvaarpillai
Kanthasamy were all present on stage.
In his keynote
speech, my comrade said, "What is the problem of the Tamil people? We are
here not for personal ambitions or anything else; we stand together with all
forces that fight for a solution. We believe that Mrs. Sirimavo Bandaranaike
will attempt to remove the Indian army." The audio/visual footage of this
is available on YouTube. Part 2: [https://youtu.be/pdL3Gnucs2U](https://youtu.be/pdL3Gnucs2U
).
Hundreds of people filled the entire ground. When Mrs.
Sirimavo said, "As soon as I come to power, I will remove the Indian
army," it astonished the Indian military personnel surrounding the crowd,
which was a testament to the suffering the people had endured.
After the
meeting concluded successfully, Mrs. Sirimavo, aware of the issue, invited my
comrade to come to Colombo in a helicopter with her. My comrade refused.
When the Indian
army told my comrade that they would provide him with security, he replied,
"This meeting was held to remove you. I will take care of myself,"
and he left. The audio/visual footage of this is available on YouTube. Part 3:
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2KVpoHA0CU](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2KVpoHA0CU
).
After observing all of this, Buby stood back and
waited. Ravi came after a long time. He seemed very tired. Since I learned
everything from Buby, I did not ask anything. That night, we had no information
about where my comrade was. All we could hear outside the house was the barking
of dogs. The next morning, an unfamiliar person came and inquired about my
comrade. When we said we did not know, he replied, "You must inform us if
you find out."
On the second evening, a letter arrived from my
comrade, brought by his common friend Mr. Pavalam from Sillalai. It stated that he was safe at a
friend’s house and needed to change his place. They were somewhat related to
LTTE, however their respect and love towards my comrade protected us. Later,
Buby and Akhilan kept going back and forth, checking on my comrade’s health. In
the meantime, once again, Thumpan came and inquired. After nine days, comrades
took my comrade to a party comrade's relative's house. From there, my comrade
decided to go to Colombo. To be continued...
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49.
I met my elder son after the 1988
Presidential election campaign -Written on 5 October 2021
1988 Presidential election campaign, which was
unprecedented in Sri Lankan electoral history, as it became impossible to send
even one election officer to some polling stations. Mr. R. Premadasa took the oath of office as
President on January 2, 1989, having secured 50.43% of the votes.
I had mentioned that my comrade had stayed at the
house of a friend living in a place called 'Pavalam' in Sillalai due to the arbitrary actions of the
LTTE (the Liberation Tigers of Tamil Eelam). One of the two brothers, who were
the sons-in-law of the Pavalam family, was a supporter of the LTTE. My comrade
had left his bicycle somewhere there and stayed safe. My daughter Buby, who went searching for her father, had
come home for her three-and-a-half-month-old baby. However, Buby was worried
about her father's ill health.
Party comrades wanted to ensure the safety of their
comrade. Accordingly, Comrade S.Thevaraja accommodated him at the house of his
close relative, Mr. Satkunam, in Aanaikottai, and after a few days, sent him to
Colombo. My comrade stayed in a very modest lodge in Colombo. Later, with the
help of a few friends at the Colombo Ramakrishna Mission, he was able to stay for a lower fee
than the daily rate. During that time, comrades like E. T. Moorthy (from the Red Flag Union),
Kathiravelu (father of Minister Douglas Devananda, my non co-born brother), E.
Thambiah, A. Kulenthiran, and Alwarpillai Kanthasamy were very supportive.
At this time, a letter also arrived from Mr. Velautham Nallanathar alias Raghavan (RR), a close friend of Rasan
from the Maldives, Male Prison, who lived in my
neighborhood. Despite political disagreements, my comrade showed great love and
concern for him. It brought relief to his family and friends, who were
suffering without knowing details about him, to know that he was alive. Comrade
later mentioned some of the difficulties he faced in Colombo, while some were
told by other comrades and friends.
Mr.V. Divyarajah (Now in Canada) went and sang songs
like "We Will Create New History," discussing national developments.
Many comrades visited him. My comrade felt the unresolved pain while speaking
with Mr. Uma Maheswaran at the Ramakrishna Mission
Hall. My comrade inquire about Rasan’s comrades who died or were arrested in Maldives in November 1988, such as
Vasanthi (Manivannan from Vadaliyaddaippu), Mr. Velautham Nallanathar alias Raghavan (RR), and others, while hiding
his pain regarding political situations. Following an illness that night, he
was admitted to the Kumaran Ratnam Hospital
in Colombo by the administration of the Ramakrishna Mission. Afterward, he was
transferred to the Colombo General Hospital based on Dr. S. Ramachandran's advice. During the days
when the University of
Peradeniya was closed, my friend Mrs. Ranjitham Kadaiah’s son Sudhaharan stayed in
Colombo with a few others, allowing Keerthy to see his father closely.
I, along with Buby's family, hurriedly set off to
Colombo with the baby Subhara amidst many hardships. Looking back now, it
brings tears to my eyes. We stayed at my friend Mrs. Sivanesan Kunchu's house
in Wellawatte and went to visit my comrade at Colombo General
Hospital. I still remember the help my friend Kunchu provided during that time.
Rasan was in India. In the meantime, I mentioned earlier that comrade Thevaraja
had sent Keerthy to India for book publications and to take part in social
science forums, or to encourage Keerthy. Rasan also had connections in India
through the movement.
With the financial help of Buby's friend Vadhani in
Chennai, Keerthy arranged for Rasan to be sent to Bangladesh and then returned
to his hometown. However, within a few days, Rasan had come to Colombo. When I
asked "Why?" he mentioned that he had learned about his father's
illness and had come because of that.
Initially, we stayed at Kunchu's house in Wellawatte
before going to the hospital. There, the Sinhalese patients advised that
"little babies" should not be brought to such wards. The nurses there
were reluctant to take the baby to the hospital. However, during our days
there, we brought Subhara along. My comrade had an unbreakable affection for
the baby, Subhara. Even amidst financial and mental struggles, the child
provided immense comfort. He spent time with her during moments at home, which
was suddenly snatched away.
Meanwhile, while treatment was ongoing in Colombo, the
police arrested Keerthy, who was staying in a place called 'Kirulapana.' During that period,
operations to round up and arrest young people were rampant. Comrade KAS
supposedly saw this in a dream and informed those around him. Later, it is said
that Keerthy was released on the recommendation of Mr. S. Alagarethinam. After
hospital treatment, we brought my comrade to the Ramakrishna Mission in
Wellawatte. During this time, Rasan also came from India and joined us. Kunchu
and E. T. Moorthy's wife, Vasanthi, prepared
our food. Mrs Sunitha Kulenthiran provided breakfast for us. Some days our
lunches were provided by Mr. Alwarpillai Kanthasamy, who was the manager at the
'Shanthi Vihar'
restaurant. How can we express our gratitude for their assistance?
With full hearts filled with worry and uncertain
futures, Mr. A. Kulenthiran took some pictures with his camera near the room
where we stayed at the Colombo Ramakrishna
Mission. Amidst the sorrows, we were all gathered together. At the mission, we
met the family of Sharath Babu, who belonged to the Liberation Tigers of Tamil
Eelam organization (LTTE). Surely, I must share more about them. To be
continued...
50.
Refusal to Seek Treatment in India
-Written on 22 October 2021
Due to the cooperation of an accountant who worked at Colombo Ramakrishna Mission, the seven of us stayed
there for a very minimal fee. Rasan would sleep outside the door. As I went up
to the upper floor to dry the wet clothes, I noticed a woman, probably around
40-42 years old, with a worried expression. We started talking. I learned that
her only son had been killed, but there was no proper identification of who did
it. Carrying the pain of separation from her son, she had moved there.
Sarathbabu’s father is a painter. They lived alone due to a mixed marriage.
When we noticed that our comrade’s health had improved to some extent, I wanted
to go to Jaffna. She pressed a little money into my hand, saying, "Oh
sister, I don’t have a child, but let your husband live long, like a person who
lives for others." I refrain from sharing some things she shared, as I
cannot do so without her permission. The threat and movement of the LTTE in
Jaffna had decreased, and our party comrades sent us news, so we returned to
Sathiamanai again.
As Keerthy went to Kandy, Rasan left for Bangladesh. When I was in Jaffna, my
comrade’s health condition deteriorated again. He received treatment from Dr. S.Sivakumaran at
Jaffna Teaching Hospital. During the treatment at Jaffna Teaching Hospital, Ms. P.
Susithra (Keerthy’s wife), Mr. N. Puveendran (Ravi’s brother), and a few other
comrades donated blood. While our comrade was receiving treatment at the
hospital, ‘Malligai’ Dominic Jeeva and some of our old party comrades,
along with our Jaffna comrades, came to visit. Comrades Irupalai Balan and S. Navaratnam brought food.
When we returned to Sathiamanai, comrade V.A. Kandasamy unexpectedly came to
Sathiamanai. Once very close comrades, they had been estranged for a long time
due to ideological differences. My comrade was lying on the floor and tried to
get up but comrade V.A. Kandasamy sat on the ground, he held my comrade's hands
tightly and said, "I will arrange for treatment in India. Let’s go."
With his usual feigned cheerfulness, my comrade replied, “I’m acting in
defiance of India’s arrogance. Thank you for your concern and visit,” bringing
the matter to a close. I recalled what comrade KAS had written in the past for
comrade V.A. Kandasamy, "A practice without
ideology is blindness; an ideology without practice is stagnation." After
about two months, on May Day 1989, a rally meeting was held at a private
educational institution in Stanley Road, chaired by Comrade KAS.
We traveled in a lorry with a child along with the
comrades from Nitchamam. The Sri Lankan and Indian army’s treatment of my
comrade’s speech was indeed related to their transgressions. I share that
connection here. The Sri Lankan army, Indian army, and LTTE posed threats in
three ways. The right to speak about the unity of the country is denied. The
next morning dawned with fear... [Link to a video]. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmGqCkBRj4w
"If the Premadasa government has
come forward for talks with the Liberation Tigers, we can understand that the
truth we have already stated is indeed 'the truth.' We accept negotiations. At
the same time, it could be temporary. It must create a pathway that both ethnic
groups can live with freedom and sovereignty in our country, and that must be
secured before establishing Weli Oya as a separate district. Moreover, the Sri Lanka Communist Party (Left) insists that the referendum in the Eastern Province must be
temporarily suspended, and ideally, it must be abandoned entirely. This is the
only way to instill confidence in the institutions that can go to negotiations
and in the people. It could create an environment for conducting negotiations
by mutually conceding. Apart from this, any decisions, conclusions, or weapons
brought about by the will of the Sri Lankan government or the Indian government
cannot establish peace in our country. This is our stance. We have been
opposing Indian intervention since the beginning. The Sri Lankan government’s agreement with India
necessitates that the Sri Lankan people make some concessions. This concession
must be a negotiating framework involving both India and Sri Lanka. This
negotiation should be a collective effort from the Sri Lankan government,
Indian government, and other liberation organizations that can lead to a
successful conclusion. Anything else would pose a great threat to our nation
and people.
Our stance
regarding India is already known to you; still, I must reiterate some points.
From the beginning, the Sri Lanka Communist Party, under the leadership of
people like Pieter
Keuneman and S.A. Wickremasinghe, has warned about 'foreign intervention', even after the
split due to the ideological differences, our party follows the same. This has
been overlooked by the political parties and liberation movements in Sri Lanka.
India began its expansionist agenda by exploiting the ethnic riots of 1983, and
the Sri Lankan government acted as if it supported this. An agreement of
Indo-Sri_Lanka Accord was formed. This is, in many ways, a confusing matter.
While there are certain aspects within the agreement that could assist in the
liberation of the Tamil people and their future, the majority of what is found
in the agreement poses risks not only to the Tamil people but to all Sri
Lankans. It must be opposed or reformed." On May 1, 1989, during the
May Day meeting chaired by Comrade K.A. Subramaniam, Comrade S. Thevarajah also delivered a speech. To
be continued…
51.
Last Meeting -Written on 11
November 2021
The day when workers' rights are celebrated with
bloodshed, and the white flag turns red, is observed worldwide as a day of
great significance. That day was not extensively celebrated in Jaffna. The
party had organized the meeting beautifully. The meeting and the comrades'
sentiments brought immense fulfillment and hope to comrade KAS. We returned
home after midday.
In the early morning, comrade Selvanayagam urgently
arrived, stating, “A comrade from the E.P.R.L.F. came at midnight and said,
‘Comrade KAS is in danger.’” This message came through a military soldier
associated with the CPIM, who interrupted the phone
conversation. The Sri Lankan army, the Indian army, and the Liberation Tigers
of Tamil Eelam (LTTE) posed a constant threat. Some comrades had already
arrived. Under the pressure from them, comrade KAS had to leave the Sathiamanai
immediately, carrying the thoughts he wanted to convey during the meeting held
in Jaffna.
Comrade S. Thevarajah took him to Kandy and made
him stay at Hindu Cultural Hall in
Kandy
first. There was a Muslim sister's guesthouse in ‘Dangolla.’ Two students from
Peradeniya University, named Gnanasothi and Suresh, were also staying there.
They kindly offered their room for my comrade to stay in. Keerthy was staying
in the Akbar Nell Hall. We also brought Akhilan, a boy from
the neighboring house, and he too stayed at the Dangolla guesthouse with them. Comrade KAS
held great affection for Akhilan and encouraged his educational progress.
Later, my comrade received treatment from Dr. Thilak Abeysekera at Kandy General Hospital.
The family and friends from Jaffna came to visit my
comrade regularly. Likewise, party comrades also came to visit and exchanged
advice. He had kept a beautiful baby suit for his first granddaughter, which
was made through the lady of the house. Along with their child, Ravi and Buby
traveled to Kandy, where they met Ms. Pushpam ( Now in Denmark). Memories of
the pictures taken at Peradeniya Botanical
Garden
in Kandy with Suresh remain with us. Many comrades visited my comrade during
his stay. Five months passed in this way.
On November 1, 1989, during a public Chinese book
exhibition at the Colombo Library, Akhilan noted that he was
astonished to see comrade KAS standing joyfully and chatting for more than one
and a half hours with his old friends and comrades. The pictures taken that day
with comradde S. Thevaraja are vibrant
memories.
In mid-November 1989, I too traveled from Jaffna to Kandy, Dangolla. At that time, the JVP’s
other uprising occurred between 1987 and 1989. Just as there were actions in
the Tamil regions with impractical policies and policies without practices,
similar actions took place here as well. This led the army to unleash its powers
upon the common people. The Sinhala people faced significant suffering from
both sides. During our time at Sathiamanai, we had no means of news exchange,
radio, or television equipment. On necessary days, Ravi would bring a radio
from his house. Earlier, in 1972, a comrade named Sillaiyoor Selvarajan had gifted us a radio, but
it broke down multiple times. Comrade Maan Muthaiya's son Mr. Mohan would fix
it free of charge. Eventually, the radio became unusable.
There was a television set at the Kandy guesthouse. My
comrade was aware of the assassination of Rohana Wijeweera (November 13, 1989) and had
written a note about it. We watched films like ‘Nayakan’ and ‘Pagal Nilavu’ together on television. There were
two little children there who would come and play with my comrade. One day,
while out to buy medicine, we went to Kandy Lakshman Studio nearby and took a photo.
At that time, the elder Rasan was in Malaysia. He was staying at the home
of Mrs. Vijayakumari Poobalan in Malaysia. Rasan, who often traveled to
Singapore regarding his visa, met a woman named Ms. Maheshwari Thangiah at a
temple there. With their help, he sent Rupees 10,000 to his father in Kandy.
While Keerthy was taking care of his father at Dangolla, my comrade gave that money for
Keerthy to attend the Engineering Council Course privately in Colombo
because his faculty in Peradeniya was
closed due to JVP. One day, my comrade’s health deteriorated, and he was taken
to Kandy General Hospital by Mr. Gnanasothi ( Now in
Australia) and Mr. Suresh ( Now in the UK) while Keerthy was in Colombo.
My comrade, who often said he would live for more than
a hundred years, seemed to realize that his final days were approaching. Two
days before I was to leave for the village, he asked me, “Don’t go to the
village.” I didn’t know this would be my last meeting with him. My mind was
fully occupied, thinking of the baby in my daughter’s arms, the child in her
womb, the open well for the rainy season, and Ravi, who was going to the
Aarumuga Vidyasala School for work. Unable to bear all these thoughts, I ended
up returning to the village Chulipuram.
When I came to the village, I understood the true
situation. Buby was cooking without any assistance, while the child Subhara was
peering into the well nearby. This was a sight I witnessed because the house
had no door in front of it. When I saw these things, I realized that my
daughter was managing all responsibilities alone. My heart felt a bit at ease.
At this time, my daughter received an invitation
letter to come to Kandy for a teaching appointment. With the help of the
neighbor Akhilan’s mother, Buby set off. At that time, she was pregnant with a
nine-month-old child. When writing in the letter, my comrade had stated, “Boy
will be born, and he too will grow up to be wise like his sister Subhara.” We
only had a few curry leaves for my comrade. Even though we were economically
very weak, our hopes remained strong. To be continued…
52.
Comrade KAS passed away. -Written
on 23 November 2021
Leaving her daughter Subhara at Sathiamanai, while
expecting her son Sumanjan soon, Buby traveled in the train to
Kandy with Akhilan’s mother in condemnation. In a family, both men and women
must work. Each must stand on their own feet and face life, which I will
emphasize to those who interact with me. I told my daughter Buby the same. When
many of her classmates went to Colombo for jobs, her father's health condition
and the sudden marriage arrangements halted it. When this teaching job was
obtained, she traveled with the thought that she could be with her father.
We did not know about the news that the comrade had
again fainted and was admitted to the Kandy Hospital. However, Buby had
received a letter from him. It was said that a Buddhist monk’s blood was transfused to my comrade
admitted to the Kandy Hospital. Keerthy, who had not bathed for two days, went
to take a bath. Only Akhilan was at the hospital with my comrade. In the end,
with the food of a Muslim sister and the blood of a Buddhist monk in his body,
my comrade raised his right hand as a sign that he was “departing” and left us,
as Akhilan later said. His death was recorded as “myocardial infarction” on the death certificate.
He insisted that his death should be noted as “departing / farewell.” He even
requested that the picture should show him raising his hand as a sign of
departure. “Every moment of my life was for the people. I fulfilled my duties
as long as my conscience allowed. Now is the time to depart,” my comrade firmly
said earlier.
Hearing these words, we cried uncontrollably. Seven
years of love, 27 years of married life. He left me. Despite conflicts and
anger, love always prevailed. Whenever the children make a mistake, I
voluntarily stand on my knees along with them, then my comrade asks them to get
up early because I am also standing. When his mistakes are pointed out, my
comrade accepts them and corrects them. My comrade lost his mother’s and
father's love for me, he lost all relatives, town and home and wandered from
town to town with me. Born in a comfortable house with a top floor, he lived in
a flooded mud house in Sathiamani for me. He went to study with shoes on his
feet, but walked all over the boiling tarsal roads with bare feet for his
belief in Communism. Later, despite professor K. Kailasapathy advising him, my comrade began
wearing slippers again in 1982 due to the insistence of professor K. Kailasapathy’s daughters. Having received
initiation at the Maviddapuram temple, celebrated by his parents
as their temple, my comrade said that there should be no religious ceremonies
during his final event. My comrade requested that his daughter Buby should also
be included.
While traveling in the train, Buby thought, “I’m going
to see my father,” and the thought filled her heart. The white color of the sky
reminded her of her father’s white attire. When Buby left the house, she took
along a paddy stalk and a kind of flower. Suddenly, the train stopped. For more
than half an hour, the reason was unknown. She was worried that the time to see
her father would be wasted. She is the daughter who lived for her father. Two
railway officials arrived. They called out Buby’s name, “Sathiamalar
Raveendran.” She didn’t understand anything. “Your father’s health is not good,
and he is going to be taken to Jaffna. Therefore, we are asking you to
disembark…” they said. (At this point, tears are hiding my eyes...)
The poet K. Ganesh, who learned about it through
Keerthy, along with comrades S.K. Senthivel, E. Thambiah, and Mr. A.
Kulendran went to Kandy to take care of necessary work like the postmortem and
death certificate. Buby was picked up in a vehicle with the recently deceased
Mr. Thangarasa and Mr. Thondar Kandhasamy brought them to Jaffna. Akhilan’s
mother very carefully looked after Buby from the train to the vehicle and
accompanied her to Sathiamanai. Despite the physician's strict warnings, my
comrade continued reading newspapers until the end and was last reading the
book “Reflections of an Indian Communist” by comrade E.M.S. Namboodiripad. His body, which faced
assaults from the police and caste guards during numerous illegal processions,
finally departed at the age of fifty-eight.
From late 1987 onwards, though he had lost all
sensation below his knees, my comrade behaved with skill. He traveled. Even he
successfully rode a bicycle, too. Comrade KAS never told anyone that he had
lost sensation in his legs. Even if he did tell, no one would believe him, for
he walked so normally despite being unable to move his feet or fingers; my
comrade’s mental strength was remarkable.
The last letter he wrote (20-11-1989) was to comrade Rajendran Sivanu. In it, he firmly wrote that
he would attend the meeting in Colombo on December 10. On 29-11-1989, comrade
KAS’s body was brought to Jaffna and placed at the party headquarters in Jaffna
City for the comrades' homage before being taken to Chulipuram for the final
rites on 30-11-1989. A red flag was raised over him. The ‘Hammer and Sickle’ he tied as a symbol of our
marriage was not with me. It was sleeping in the pawnshop.
On behalf of the party committee for the final homage,
comrade S.K. Senthivel presided over the final
events. Family members, party comrades, and friends offered their final floral
tributes. In these events, any ritualistic practices, caste-based procedures,
or superstitious traditional ceremonies were not observed. The events were held
with revolutionary honors due for a communist fighter leader.
Professor Kailasapathy's daughter Ms. Pavithra,
along with comrades and friends, delivered tributes from twenty-one people.
Our village had never seen such a long final
procession with a red flag. The Indian army watched in surprise and with many
questions. The crowd at his final event demonstrated that the comrade could not
be separated from these people, overcoming the disruptions from the IPKF Indian Army and the LTTE
forces.
In the final (heroic) tribute to comrade K.A. Subramaniam, the long procession bearing
the red flag, Keerthy set ablaze the body of comrade KAS at the cremation site
in Thiruvadinilai. Buby was in the final
month. She was dazed. She did not go there.
Note: After this, life experiences continued in Kandy,
Singapore, Colombo, my eldest son's passing away in 2001, travels to USA,
India, Malaysia, and Australia, and the return to Sri Lanka... Life's
encounters continue. I think I can conclude this part here. I am grateful to
Facebook for allowing me to share my feelings with you. Thank you to the dear
friends who encouraged me by reading my posts.
KAS. Sathiamanai Library and A
Note by Mr. E.R. Thiruchelvam on the May Day Struggle of 1969
Comrade KAS’s grave of his ashes was carried by Buby
for 30 years, and it is upon this grave that the foundation of the KAS Sathiamanai Library and Hall has risen. As a
final tribute, the land where my comrade’s last lay has been reclaimed amidst
numerous hardships, transforming into a dignified space for the people.The door frame installation
ceremony for the Memorial Library building took place on the morning of 5 March
2021 under the leadership of Comrade S. Palani.
Is the right of workers being denied?
- E.R. Thiruchelvam -Written on 22
April 2018
The purpose of this article is to recall an event that
occurred fifty years ago.
“From 1965 to 1970, the first national government of
Sri Lanka was in power, led by the United National Party’s leader, Dudley Senanayake. None of the prominent
figures who were part of this national government are now active in politics.
On May 1, 1969, May Day coincided with Vesak Day. The
Sinhalese government, which prioritized Buddhism, officially banned May Day
celebrations. All major political parties accepted this decision.
In the national government, Senator M.
Thiruchchelvam represented the Tamil Congress as the Minister of Local
Government. For some reason, the Tamil Congress accepted the government’s
decision. This acceptance of Buddhism as the official religion of Sri Lanka by
the Tamil Congress can be observed from this instance.
However, the Jaffna branch of the Chinese Communist Party completely opposed this
government decision. They announced that May Day would be celebrated in Jaffna
on May 1. Police permission for this was denied. K.A. Subramaniam, an activist from the Jaffna
branch, publicized the May Day arrangements through the media.
Consequently, the police engaged in intense
operations. An order was issued from Colombo that May Day celebrations in
Jaffna were not to be permitted under any circumstances. At that time, Mr. R. Sundaralingam was serving as the police
superintendent. He was known to have a close relationship with journalists in
Colombo. R. Thavarasa served as the assistant police superintendent and was a
strict yet honest officer.
At that time, I (E.R. Thiruchelvam) was a journalist at the
office of the Jaffna Eelam newspaper. My colleagues included Sellathurai (Veerakesari), Pararajasingham (Dinakaran),
Kathiravellu (Daily News), Pushparathinam (Daily Mirror), and Arasarathinam (Dinapathi).
Subramaniam, a leader of the Chinese Communist Party, was known for mingling
freely with journalists. He would regularly gift calendars featuring Chinese
images and multicolored printed books. Therefore, he was often in touch with us
journalists to inform us about the May Day gathering.
On May 1, we were instructed by Mr. Subramaniam to
stay in our office and that he would contact us at the appropriate time. From
the morning of that day, I and other journalists waited for his call (at that
time, there were no mobile phones or social media).
Meanwhile, over 2,000 police officers had been
dispatched from other provinces to Jaffna. The police, prepared for conflict,
created a scene reminiscent of a war zone in Jaffna.
For a long time, the Chinese Communist Party had been involved in the
struggles against caste oppression, temple entry issues, and other social
injustices in the capital. Places like Nirsamam in Chankanai, Manduvil in South
Maratchi, Nelliadi in North Maratchi, Maviddapuram in Valikamam North, and
Ariyagulathadi in Jaffna were strongholds of their struggles. Because of this,
a significant number of police were stationed with heavy weaponry at these
locations, suspecting that a May Day march or gathering could occur.
Until about five in the evening, there was no sign of
disturbance. Jaffna city appeared deserted, with police jeeps roaming around
sporadically. We were exhausted, waiting for Mr. Subramaniam’s phone call.
At around five-thirty, a call came in. An anonymous
voice instructed us to come to the junction at Stanley Street - Kasturiyar Street near the Windsor Theatre.
Before I could hear the next detail, the call was cut off. I wondered if this
was a trick by the police. However, I couldn’t disregard that call. Within two
minutes, I had reached the designated spot. Other journalist friends also
arrived.
The Windsor and Raja Theatres were located at the
junction. At around five-thirty, after a screening that started at 2:30 PM,
more than 500 people emerged from both theatres. We thought they were regular
patrons coming out after a movie.
Suddenly, both groups raised their red flags and
shouted, "Long Live the Workers!" Unbeknownst to us, two individuals
carrying a large banner that read "May Day" in red cloth led the way.
The crowd surged behind them, chanting as they rushed down Kasturiyar Street,
through the mosque area, the chapati shop area, and the Malay shop junction.
As the procession crossed the Satharachi Junction and
advanced toward the large Tamil temple in Jaffna, K.A. Subramaniam and other leaders were
spotted there. Moments later, the procession would reach the Jaffna Police
Station. Meanwhile, large trucks filled with police were brought in.
Their riot gear was aimed at the marchers. Tear gas
was deployed. The police targeted Subramaniam, who fell in a pool of blood.
Nevertheless, the marchers did not turn back in fear; they remained steadfast
at that location. The police dragged Subramaniam away and threw him in front of
an oncoming bus, narrowly avoiding being hit.
From the police's perspective, the May Day gathering
was suppressed. However, it is a point of pride that those who organized the
event achieved a significant emotional victory on May Day in Jaffna, despite
the Vesak proclamation being disregarded. It's important to note the remarkable
planning of the organizers, who sent about 500 people into both theatres for
the afternoon screening, concealing red flags in their bags. The police's
intelligence failed to detect this operation beforehand.
This well-orchestrated procession surged forward a
mile in about five minutes, despite the thousands of police gathered there. The
workers celebrated a victory that day. Mr. Subramaniam, who was injured during
the attack, received treatment at Jaffna Hospital for a few days before being
sent to China for further treatment.
On that Vesak day, there is no political unity between
the May Day event organized by the Chinese Communist Party in Jaffna and the
JVP's decision to hold May Day celebrations in Jaffna this year on Vesak Day.
In Jaffna, still struggling to recover from the pain
of war, why should the JVP insist on celebrating May
Day? Why not hold the event in some southern town on Vesak Day if they have
ideological commitment and moral integrity?
E.R. Thiruchelvam 22 April 2018
Below is my response with some minor
corrections to the above article.
Dear Senior Journalist E. R. Thiruchelvam,
Thank you very much for your historical account. I
would like to share some information that I know with you. The events of May
1969 occurred on Vesak, a sacred day for Buddhists, which is why the then Dudley Senanayake government imposed a ban on
May Day processions. In defiance of this order, members of the Sri Lanka
Communist Party (Maoist) held a massive rally in Colombo. S. D. Bandaranaike, D. K. D. Jineendrapala, and
Watson Fernando were arrested in Colombo on
May 1, 1969.
I reread the 1989 note written by my friend, senior
journalist S. M. Gopalaratnam, about comrade KAS. Writing
truths from a different political stance and platform provided immense
consolation. Truths and sacrifices should not fade away.
"Mr.
Subramaniam, who was injured in that attack, was treated for a few days at the
Jaffna Hospital before being taken to China for further treatment."
The reason I write this is that comrade KAS was injured in the May Day incident
in 1969, and I had previously mentioned that comrade N. Shanmugadasan treated him at his home.
During that time, comrade Shanmugadasan made several attempts to send comrade
KAS to China for treatment. However, those efforts did not succeed. This
situation caused disappointment for comrade Shanmugadasan regarding the Chinese
party. Since this incident, his perspective on China began to change. Comrade
KAS did not pay much attention to his health. However, there were ongoing
debates between them regarding China. He would not have preferred to elevate
himself in any matter. According to his conscience, he lived selflessly and
passed away, in accordance with the 1963 agreement he signed with his comrades.
Valliammai
Subramaniam
Comrade Arangaa's Poem for
Comrade KAS on 27 November 2022.
In a
meaningful arena,
Everyone
is joyfully reminiscing.
At this
memorial event...
Esteemed
guests, comrades, family members, townsfolk, dear friends,
Greetings
to all of you...
Memorial
event...
On the
commemoration day of Comrade K.A. Subramaniam,
I am
moved with emotion,
Because
both were on the leftist path...
Two
wheels,
Traveling
together in ideology,
Witnessing
many sacrificial flames,
Standing
against untouchability,
They
stood like the dawn...
Despite
the collective awareness of
Professor Kailasapathy’s virtues,
I stand
here to speak of
The real
leader in my memory—
Social
activist KAS ‘Aiya’.
The
mountain named KAS ‘Aiya’,
Along
with the leftist ideology...
I take
pride in the fact that
My
father walked hand in hand with you.
A son
who came to
Conquer
the oppression of caste—
Like a
cross raised in our companion,
Bearing
our sins like another
In the
fertile land of bravery,
Lying
beneath the humble huts...
Eating
simple food in a single vessel—
During
the nights of their murders...
Carrying
the ideology as a dream,
He
shattered caste hatred,
Uplifting
the spine of our people.
He
experienced the pride
Of their
dignity.
Even
when they drank from
The
honey pot of our dignity...
The
divinity that came riding,
Even
when our bodies were torn apart.
The son
with the sword—KAS ‘Aiya’,
The son
who triumphed in life.
When we
stood confused,
He came
showing the direction.
The root
of the movement—
He is
the root of the dawn.
The
essence of socialism,
The
victorious essence against untouchability...
Comrade
of workers,
Living a
clean life,
A man
who lives for himself—
A great
man living for the liberation of his people.
Indeed,
the great man KAS ‘Aiya’
Is a
saint revered by humanity.
Even
when he was uprooted from his roots,
Even
when his bones were broken,
He took
in Marxism as medicine and arose again—
Another
Shiva of our land,
KAS
‘Aiya’ is the embodiment of courage.
When the
threads of oppressed women
Were
spun into their dignity—
Hearing
the cries of suffering mothers,
He saw
the chaos and came to create a new beginning.
Thus,
you are our Bharat,
A heart
that does not tremble at seeing death,
A son
who sleeps with weariness,
A man
who without wavering—
Faced
enemies with a strong stance.
KAS
‘Aiya’ is the noble light
For our
long journey...
His
loving wife...
The
children in his heart,
Resting
with love—
Celebrating
with joy,
Holding
the hands of those who are lowly—
He lives
as an esteemed figure in the hearts of our people.
There is
no lack of transformation here...
In our
dawn, the red sun rises—
Those
who mock us,
Do not
consider it worthless…
A
comrade who gave us a shoulder—
A good
leader of workers.
Seeing
the pain in your red hands,
He won
over the hearts of the fearful.
The
essence of public property—
In your
last breath, the path remained open.
Your
voice on the podium...
Your
passionate voice resonated...
It
instilled fear in enemies,
Dismantling
their oppression.
KAS
‘Aiya’... our fertile land’s dawn,
A
sculptor who sculpted
For the
oppressed...
In the
memorial of Mani Jaya,
If your
companion does not sing—
What
conscience will slay the entirety?
He is
the abode of mercy,
The
fighter of women’s rights...
Holding
his husband's ideologies as his dream...
In the
processions of his struggles,
He faded
like a shadow...
Yet, his
voice echoes,
Celebrating
the oppressed as kin—
A
wonderful mother...
When the
wildness of the jungle men
Made him
ill...
More
than a mother, he was
A
revolutionary woman who safeguarded ideologies.
Without
fear, she raised her children
With the
Communist hammer...
The
divine who tore away the veil...
Indeed...
In the
massacre called truth...
KAS
‘Aiya’ and Valliammai—
A
connection beyond all others...
Many
decades have passed,
The huts
in Nitchamam have gone...
The red
stones have fallen—
In this
fire, you lit the flame...
Only
remnants remained...
Transforming
the destinies of our people...
From
educational traders to the borders,
Writing
their names in engineering faculties,
Reviving
history in the medical fields...
A
comrade who came to destroy the pain called untouchability...
No more
masters...
After
decades,
A brave
victory that can never be silenced...
KAS
‘Aiya’...
Not a
comic figure—
He does
not lie still.
KAS
‘Aiya’...
He may
have fallen asleep,
But his
dreams and ideologies
Do not
rest...
Like
thousands of fiery wings...
With
passion, he rises again and again—
With
your name, this world thrives...
-
Comrade Arangaa
Vijayaraj is Comrade P. Radha’s daughter.
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